Okay peeps this a new story by me. And this is going to be different from my other fics. Apart from being a Kai/Tala it will be angsty and dark. My first hand at it actually so hey read and tell what you think. I would really love to get some feedback.

Warnings: And yes this is in bold for a reason there is YAOI(slash: Male/male relationship) Also this fic will carry mature/sexual themes. DRUGS will be used in this fic and there will be prostitution.

Another thing people don't do drugs! It's not cool or good for you what you are doing is downright killing yourself...slowly...but you are all the same. So don't do drugs! IT'S STUPID!

LSD & Heroin are the major things that will be used in this.

LSD- is a drug that gives you a high of around two hours and gives you spurts of energy and is said to 'brighten' the world making colors brighter and shinier. other names are 'sugar' thats when it's in its powder form and thats the name I'll be using throughout.

Heroin- Also known as Opium and Morphine is a very potent drug especially when injected. It relaxes the mind and in some cases makes you forget things for a while and numbs pain. Names this will have in the story is 'H' yeah whatever it's not creative but thats what the site i got it from called it.

Ecstasy- This will only bementioned it wont be used. this drug basically increases awareness and makes you sensitive to everything.and increases your heart rate.

Discalimer: (sigh)I hatesaying this but it's true I don't own it.

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Heaven…

Is only…

In Climax…

It Ends…

Repeated…

There is no escape…

Heaven's Not Enough

Chapter 1 Addiction

Heavy breathing and gasps filled the room, the scents of sweat, semen, sex and other unnamable substances mingled together in the air.

A figure laid with his head buried into the pillow, while the other figure moved to sit at the edge of the bed. A hand running through sweat slicked hair "You were a good lay, you earned your money whore" the man gruffly pulled the small figure from the pillow and planted a kiss on his lips and threw a wad of bills onto his lap. "Buy yourself a blue collar for next time" the man said as he dressed and walked out of the room.

The younger man said nothing and laid back down running an unconscious hand through his red hair and then gathered up all the money and set it down on the bedside table. The redhead closed his ice blue eyes momentarily and then opened to look over at the clock on the table whose hands seemed to point at every number for a moment until he focused enough to tell that it was late in the morning.

The young man groaned in pain as he began to sit up at the edge at the bed. He planted his feet on the floor, his eyes roaming over the room taking in the familiar surroundings to the far right was the entrance to the small kitchen which was littered with dirty dishes and cockroaches. Right in front of his was a small table used for a lot of things but for the moment it was holding up piles of magazines and other articles of print. To the left was the door the man had walked out of and situated behind him was the small bathroom that held the traditional things a shower, toilet and sink along with those were a towel, soap, shampoo, toothpaste, toothbrush and a number of other things.

He sighed and move to stand up only to have his vision give out and he landed back on the bed. His world swan and out of focus making him look around him at the strangeness. His blue eyes trained themselves on a beautiful porcelain doll that was sitting on the nearby dresser. He smiled lazily as the beautiful doll smiled at him, the shining golden glass eyes bright with life as the small arms incased in silk rose up as if asking for a hug.

As if in a dream he stood and walked over and hugged the doll to him. Smoothing out the brown curls of hair and the silk material the dress was made out of. And like magic when twirled soft music began to play from somewhere; classical violins, violas and other numbers of string instruments accompanied by the beautiful melody of the grand piano. He began to dance, the majestic doll beginning to laugh as the music began to get louder and faster and faster and faster…

Then the music stopped. The world stopped. Darkness…pure blissful darkness…

The red haired young man groaned as he opened his eyes blinking away the haziness. He had not move a muscle he stayed right where he was, sprawled out on the bed. When his eyes cleared enough he glanced around noticing that the porcelain doll was where it had been before he danced with her.

He sat up the stiffness in his muscles from last nights activities making him wince. After the ache had gone he glanced at the bedside table and leaned over to retrieve the money he had earned the night before. "Nine hundred…it's not nearly but it'll have to do" he said softly as he stood up on wobbly legs.

He moved towards the small kitchen and went directly to where he knew his Tylenol was. He grabbed the bottle and opened it, he shook it a little noting he still had plenty left and took our four of the pills and swallowed them without water. After leaning against the counter for a while he moved away and began to walk his steps lethargic as he tread the way to the bathroom.

The warm water that cascaded down his back soothed some him enough to relax. But the feeling of being relaxed only made him crave what he knew was bad for him, his mind, and body. Involuntary tears began to mingle with the water as he began to sob softly "You bastard…I hate you…" he sobbed quietly as he leaned against the shower wall "It's all your fault…"

With lifeless movements he moved around. Putting on a pair of tight black jeans that hugged his hips with a white button down shirt with the sleeves rolled up. He moved to the bedside table and retrieved his money and put it in his pocket.

Grey. Everything was in a shade of grey, whether it was a darker shade of grey almost black or a lighter shade of grey almost white. The sidewalk he walked on was the smoky grey. The people walking around him also had the ashen grey look. The buildings up and down the streets were grey. Even the traffic lights were grey, the grass, the sky, the clouds…everything. All had turned grey…lifeless...exactly that day three years ago.

"Hey sweety wanna have some fun?" a man asked suggestively as he eyed the redheaded figure's body who stood at the corner of the street waiting for the green light to go off showing him he could walk across the street. The ice blue eyes gazed at him momentarily taking in the man's appearance quickly before turning back to gaze at the street. The man was sporting a pair of jeans with a shirt and his hair was cut like a skater would have his only slightly shorter to where it didn't get in his eyes, overall the man was very attractive.

"How much are you willing to pay? And what do you want done?" he asked not looking at the man. "It depends on how good you are and what you want to do" "You're the one that wants me. You decide what you want done and you decide whether I'm good or not" he responded as he began to walk across the street. "You're a pricy one…you wouldn't happen to be the infamous Wolf would you?" the man asked as he followed the redhead. The redhead did not answer his question but asked one of his own "What do you want done?" "A quickie with me as the obvious dominant for two" he answered following the redhead as he turned into an alleyway. "No can do I charge three for a fuck and that includes any form of it unless you want me all night long" the redhead laid out as he turned to face the other.

The man stood for moment in thought then nodded as he took out took out his wallet and pulled out three hundred dollars "here sweet" he murmured putting the money in the in the redhead's pocket as he kissed him.

The blue eyes closed at the gentle kiss that soon turned desperate and more demanding. The redhead opened his eyes and looked up as he felt kisses trail down his neck his eyes filling with tears of shame as he resigned himself to what the man wanted from him.

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"You were awesome" the man murmured breathlessly as he redressed himself "And you were quite loud so I deduct that you are the known Wolf right?" the redhead opened his eyes and nodded as he felt the man lay soft kisses on his flushed cheeks and putting another bill in his hand. "See you around Wolf" he kissed the swollen lips one more time and then walked away not once looking back.

The wolf leaned against the brick wall of the building as he regained his breathe. Slowly he redressed and almost ran out of the alley. 'I need it…I need to find Ozuma…I need my H…I need to forget…' he thought desperately as his body began to crave the substance that made him the best whore on this side of town.

"Back for more I see" Ozuma croaked as he grinned, jade green eyes bloodshot from the rolled up stick in his hand. "Do you have any?" Wolf asked walking into the small apartment, his eyes straying over the contents of the room before him.

The room could have been mistaken for a dumpster if it wasn't an apartment. Empty beer and liquor bottles littered the floor. On a small table in the middle of the room there was an assortment of bottles decorating the top and on the floor in a box beside the table was what the Wolf thought to be what Ozuma shipped in. And all over the floor there were take out bags and other trash related to food.

"Yeah hold on" Ozuma nodded closing the door and locking it "How much do you want Tala?" he asked as he walked to the card board box on the floor. "Enough to last through the week" "Pfft with how much you like that shit you'll need an entire month's supply but hey whatever, here" he threw the redhead a package wrapped in plastic. "How much?" Tala asked looking over the package carefully and weighing it on his hand. "Simple here drink this and let me fuck you. You're fucking body is screaming to be fucked Tala" he smirked holding out a shot glass less than half filled.

Tala looked at it then at Ozuma. 'What the fuck? I'm already screwed up anyway' he thought and swallowed the liquid waiting for some weird or harsh taste to invade his taste buds. What met him instead was tasteless he looked at Ozuma questioningly "That's a good boy" Ozuma grinned slyly as he grabbed the blue eyed teen and led him to the bed. "Ozuma what was that?" Tala asked closing his eyes as lips trailed down his neck. "LSD baby LSD."

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"Damn! You were so fucking energetic and loud that you had me desperate for a moment. Also I almost thought that I couldn't keep up with you beautiful" Ozuma murmured as he snuggled into his pillow. The redhead giggled beside him as he stuck his head out from under the sheets "Quit fucking around Ozuma you know you can go at it forever" Tala teased as he climbed over the naked man looking down at the man's eyes that almost glowed green. Ozuma chuckled as he ran a hand up the redhead's thigh squeezing it occasionally "You crack me up Tala but seriously sweety you need to get going and do your job" he reaching up and running his fingers over the pearly white skin of the redhead. Tala pouted but leaned down and kissed the green eyed man and climbed off.

As he put on his clothes Tala watched Ozuma walk to the box and pull out a two small bags. "Here this is Rei's make sure he gets them tonight" Ozuma said handing over a bag with white powder. "And this is a present from me."

Tala took the other bag he noticed held a lot of pills in it. "Sure thing Ozuma" Tala assured picking up an empty brown paper bag and putting his package and Rei's things in it and then closing it up. "And Tala be careful okay and tell Rei to be careful also you two are the best out there and we can't lose you" he said holding Tala's face in hid hands. "Yeah don't worry Ozuma we'll be fine we always are" Tala nodded and kissed the man's lips once more. "Okay have a nice time and here this a present for you" he grinned picking up a bottle checking the label quickly and opening the redhead's bag and putting it in there and closing it again.

"What did you just give me Ozuma?" Tala asked curiously but not bothering to open the bag. "Same thing Rei's paying for…'sugar' in liquid form it's easier to take than the actuall sugar" Ozuma explained. "Thanks Ozuma" Tala smiled and began to walk to the door and raising an eyebrow as the spiky haired man followed him in his birthday suit. "The neighbors have seen worse than me naked" Ozuma assure opening the door for the redhead. "Well see ya around Ozuma" Tala smiled as he walked out and began walking towards the stairs to go down.

As soon as his feet touched the ground ran the once grey world gone now replaced by vibrant colors. The traffic lights seemed overly bright in their reds, yellows, and greens. Even people looked like they were alive somehow.

He was surprised when he arrived at his apartment in what seemed like no time at all. He shrugged and quickly went to freshen and change his shirt to a black halter top type shirt. As he dressed himself he began to feel the effects of the LSD start to wear off and his world seemed to start dimming from its vivid colors down to grey it had once been.

He quickly finished with himself and walked to the bag he had left sitting on the table he took out Rei's bags and put them in his pocket and then he took out the bottle and package. He looked at them both and debated which to take. In the end his earlier craving won out and carefully emptied the white powder into cookie jar. After making sure none had fallen he grabbed spoon and scooped up a pinch of it. He quickly walked to the stove and began to heat it until it became a fine liquid in the spoon.

He turned off the flame and picked up the syringe that was sitting fatefully by the cookie jar and emptied the liquid into it. After getting rid of the excess oxygen he grabbed a rubber band and tied it around his arm. He quickly grabbed the syringe and inserted into his vein and shooting the liquid into his system. Tala closed his eyes as he pulled the needle out and undid the rubber band.

The effects were almost instantaneous as he felt the feeling of relaxation and good feelings take over. He grinned and walked to the door grabbing his keys and leaving his money in the drawer by his bedside table before walking out.

"Hey Rei!" Tala greeted his best friend a Chinese beauty who ranked second in their profession. The Chinese teen was currently leaning against a wall; the tight red pants and black halter type shirt making him stand out as different also along with his clothing the raven black hair that reached the back of his knees caused him a lot of attention from many people.

"Hey Tala…" the teen trailed as they kissed. "Mmmm…daddy…" Rei teased as Tala licked his lips teasingly and then trailing small kisses down his neck. Meanwhile Tala right hand reached into his pocket and retrieved the two bags. "Here your stuff and a present from Ozuma" he murmured putting the bags in Rei's hand as he nipped the raven haired teen's ear. Rei grinned insanely as he closed his hand around the white pouch and then looked at the pills. "Want some?" he offered taking out a pill immediately recognizing the little stamp on it as being Ecstasy. "No thanks" Tala declined grinning as he watched Rei swallow the pill and then putting the bags in a little bag he had on the ground beside him.

"Oh so you already had your hit?" Rei asked his eyes trailing down Tala's arm where a bruise was starting to form from the needle and the rubber band. "Rei you know I prefer for it to be referred to as the faster way to take effect" Tala mocked reprimanded running his hand down the Chinese upper thigh. "Hmm…I can tell." Tala stopped when he saw the headlights of a car slow down a little and then saw the car stop in front of them.

The two trailed their eyes over the car trying to make out who was in the driver's seat. Tala smirked when he saw the figure climb out and look at them. He saw the light lavender eyes look over both of them before settling on the raven haired teen. "Which one of you is the Tiger?" "Who wants to know?" Tala asked as he leaned against the wall. The man smirked at Rei who smiled at him "Why his daddy of course" Rei giggled and slinked his way to the figure picking up his little bag as he went "Really I thought that you were Bryan Kuznetsov?" he teased stopping in front of him. "Oh so you do remember me? Awesome because I'm going to make you scream my name and your daddy's so loud you'll have no voice left" Bryan smirked as Rei jumped in his arms "Make me scream then…Daddy" Rei murmured his eyes half lidded his golden eyes beginning to shine with lust.

Tala smirked hearing the squeak come from Rei as Bryan dropped him on the seat of his car. "Have a good time Rei!" he yelled as the window rolled down. "You too Tala and good luck!" Rei yelled sticking his head out the window. The redhead continued to smile and wave until the car disappeared as it turned a dark corner.

He didn't know why but his system began to feel the negative effects and he felt the bubbling feeling of wanting to cry well up in his chest. He swallowed and walked away.

The redhead's eyes widened when he felt something grab him and pull him into an alleyway. He closed his eyes feeling teeth graze the skin of his neck and move to his shoulder. "Mmm…what do you want?" he asked his eyes glazing over as he felt the man's hand grab his hand and ran it over the bulge in his pants. "Blow me Wolf and do it good and you'll get a reward" the husked into his ear. He moaned feeling the man squeeze him hard and then take out his money. Tala counted the money quickly and smirked. He snatched the money and quickly got on his knees.

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Tala giggled as he counted the money he had earned that night "Twelve hundred better than I had expected" he murmured putting the money in his pocket. As he walked he grinned at the bright colors that winked at him from different colored signs. At that moment he worshipped one of his clients. He had been generous enough to spare him some of his 'sugar' which he readily took in through his nose. As he walked he looked up at the sky and smiled.

Tala looked down just in time to see someone running down the sidewalk right in front of him. Tala's reactions did not kick in until the man was had knocked him to the ground making him yelp in surprise more than pain.

"Shit I'm sorry" Tala nodded as he giggled at his failed attempts to stand up on his own. "Here let me help you" the guy offered as he stretched his hand out to Tala who readily took it. Tala shook his head softly as he giggled opening his eyes for the man to see.

The man's crimson eyes widened as they recognized the blue pair. Even though the blue eyes were dilated and bloodshot he recognized them even after so many years. "Tala?" the man breathed.

Tala stopped giggling long enough for his eyes to focus and his eyes widened at the sight of the red pair looking back at him. "…K…Kai…" he whispered his mind trying to register what it was seeing.

"Tala what happened to you?" Kai asked as looked the redhead over. Pale skin met the crimson eyes as they traveled over the body, taking in the fragile land malnourished figure. The eyes stopped as soon as it registered the dark bruises on his arms. "Tala?"

The redhead blinked the blue eyes beginning to shine with emotion "Kai…" and just as fast the emotions stopped on one…fear. The redhead's breathing began to speed up as panic began to rise in his body along with it bringing struggles "Let go Kai…please…please…don't look at…me…don't touch…me" the drugs, the emotions and Kai; those things began to take a toll as the world began to spin around them. "…Please…don't look…at…me…"

Darkness took control…

Blissful and pure darkness…

There is no more emotion…

In Addiction…

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So what you think? (looks nervous) Is it good or what? Please tell me my opinion is I liked it first time I've ever written something like that. So please do tell what you thought even if it's not so good.

Review please and this time around I am going to be very pickie about reviews for right now I want 5 before I update also this fic will take second place to Worlds2007 so that means expect updates on this after I update Worlds.

Well please review I can't stress that enough please I really need to know that I can write good angst. Byebye until next time.