Good tidings everyone. ^_^ This will be my first fic I post here and it's Xemnas/Roxas ^.^ This pairing has intrigued me ever since I got into Terra/Ven in KH BBS. This fic explores what could have happened if Xemnas and Roxas remembered their pasts together as Terra and Ven, so yes there are allusions to the Terra/Ven pairing as well. No lemons in this chapter, but some shall arise in the next. XD

I dedicate this story to one of best friends, Diana, who made me a fan of Xem/Roxas and we RP as them together quite often. This one's for you, enjoy ^^

F.Y.I. For those of you curious about the title choice of the fic, it's a "connection" or merging between "Key of Destiny" (Roxas) and "Superior of the In-Between" (Xemnas) ^^


Part 1: A Light Amongst the Nothingness

Nobodies: souls and bodies without hearts, or… so I've been told.

I think this as I look at the most powerful Nobody of all. The one who found me when I was lost, gave me my name when I had none and my purpose for being when I belonged nowhere. Xemnas, possibly the most important person in my existence, sits on the highest seat in the Round Room of Castle Oblivion like a king, assigning missions to us lower Nobodies. I gaze at his striking amber-orange eyes, tanned skin and long silver hair which travels down past his shoulders as he talks in that slow, stern voice that commands so much respect from everyone around him. My eyes continue to look lower, down his coat, which drapes over a clearly well-formed build.

I look down, not wanting him or anyone else to noticing my staring, feeling a slight warmth in my cheeks. Did we really lack our hearts? Were we all not able to feel even the most basic emotions? Axel told me that all Nobodies act as if we feel because we have memories of what it was like, but what if you have barely any memories to remember at all? Xemnas had once told me that I was special, was this what he meant?

Why was I so unique in his eyes?

Busy thinking about the Superior and my lost memories, I don't even hear his voice calling out to me,

"Number Thirteen, Roxas."

No response, my eyes are still glued to the floor.

He furrows his silvery brows and raises his voice slightly,

"Roxas."

I jump in my seat and my cheeks heat up once more, hearing that commanding tone in his voice. His voice always seemed to have this kind of effect on my body and made me feel so small compared to the power that sat above me. Even when he spoke normally to me, his powerful voice seemed to draw me in yet frighten me at the same time. The sensation always seemed to stop me right in my tracks.

Sheepishly, I look up at him, the flush in cheeks increasing, ignoring the glare I get from the irritated bluenette sitting beside him. At last I answer, stumbling over my own words,

"Y-Yes, sir."

He stares at me inquisitively at first; nearly tilting his head as he examines my expression, causing his silver locks to fall over his shoulder. I gulp nervously as his piercing eyes inspect me from his higher throne, his gaze seeming to see right through me as I try to look as calm as possible.

"Do you have something to contribute, Roxas?" he asks in that same alluring voice.

"….N-Nothing, sir," I stutter, my blush increasing but unable to look away from his intense stare.

His features remained mostly unchanged, except for his eyes. For a second I could have sworn they seemed different. All of a sudden his gaze seemed less intimidating, maybe even gentle as he looked at me.

I could hear Xigbar snickering from across the room but he was quickly silenced by a shout from a now very annoyed Saix. I knew that there was much about the Superior that I didn't know, but this was definitely new. Maybe Xigbar knew more about him than the rest of us do. Maybe… even Xemnas had some feelings that no one else knew about.

Xemnas shot Xigbar a quick glare and just like that those caring eyes that I was quickly starting to enjoy were replaced by his usual cold expression as he addressed me yet again,

"Roxas, I need you to stay focused on our cause. We all expect great things from you, Keyblade Wielder," he said as his lips curled into a small smirk.

Maybe it was just my imagination…

Throughout the meeting, I could still at times feel like Xemnas was watching me in some way. Though every once in awhile when our eyes did meet, I was only greeted with a cold glance. In the back of my mind I wondered if I would ever get to see those caring eyes again and at the same time, why I wanted to see them again in the first place…

The meeting ended soon afterwards and the rest of the members were heading to their missions. I saw him again as he was leaving the Round Room with Saix close behind. The bluenette glared at me as soon as he noticed me standing there. I never understood why he disliked me so much, though he was never very pleasant to begin with.

I turned to leave, suddenly feeling very unwelcome and walked down the long empty hallway to open a dark portal. But before I could get much further, I was stopped by a large gloved hand on my shoulder. I looked up to see those amber eyes looking straight into my widened blue ones. I froze, speechless.

"I have reason to believe you wanted to ask me something in the meeting. Am I mistaken?" he asked in a deep voice.

"I-It's nothing, sir," I lie as I try to avoid his unrelenting gaze.

"Hm..?" he grasps my chin, forcing me to look into his eyes again. Looking into his eyes this time, they almost seem… empty, like something was missing. Was that because of not having a heart? I'm not sure what to call what I saw in his eyes that time but if I had to choose one word it might have been pain. Nobodies can feel pain, right? Not only that, but I could feel from somewhere inside, that I knew those eyes somehow …

I jolt when I feel him gently caressing my now reddened cheek. Just great…

"An interesting reaction." he remarks simply, bringing his face even closer to my own. I stay frozen in place, too scared to make a move that might upset the stronger man in front of me.

Without warning, he wraps a strong arm by my waist and pulls me closer; I'm too stunned to move. His lips ghost just past my own and stop near my ear.

"Is it my body… my presence that is causing you to react this way, Roxas?" he coos softly into my ear.

"….I.."

Not knowing what to say, I stand there in his powerful, yet familiar grip. In my confusion, I barely realize the words that come out of my own mouth.

"T-Terra..?"

The hand stops, just above my rear, and his amber eyes widen in surprise. Thinking I've offended him in some way, I shut my eyes tightly and brace myself for the worst. Why did I even say that?

Surprisingly, he distances himself from me, putting his hand on my shoulder once more. I open one eye hesitantly to get a glimpse of his face. I'm shocked to be met with a soft gaze almost like the one I remember from the meeting.

He gives my shoulder a small squeeze and speaks to me in a calm tone.

"Do not lose sight of your goal… old friend."

With those words he releases my shoulder slowly, walks past me and disappears before I can say anything. I stand there in the hallway, stunned, feeling even more confused than ever. An old friend? Wait, I'm a friend of Xemnas, THE Superior? Is that why I'm special? Is that why I reacted the way I did to him?

Suddenly, it felt like my head was pounding. Too many questions. I wish he had stayed longer so I could ask him about this, though I have a feeling he wouldn't give me a straight answer even if I asked.

Terra… who was he? I try to ignore the blush that starts creeping across my cheeks and my endless questions as I enter the dark portal that would take me to my next mission.

Either way I didn't want to upset Xemnas, no matter how nice he seemed now.