In the heat of the fight I walked away, Ignoring words that you were saying,
Tryna make me stay.I said, "This time I've had enough." And you've called a hundred times, But I'm not pickin' up. 'Cause I'm so mad, I might tell you that it's over. But if you look a little closer

I remember it so clearly. But I don't want too. It hurt more then when Sean rejected me. At least then he was sticking to his values and was with me without money. Caleb had none and how could I know he really liked me in the first place if he was paid to spend time with me? To find out information. For her. I could take him wanting me to help her get customers the first time. But this? I couldn't handle this. He acted all touchy feely with me like he actually cared….How he comforted me when I cried. He must have thought how pathetic. Especially about the fat camp bit. Our night must have just been a bonus. And in the end he was an narc. How close they had gotten…how he had made her feel…

I said, "Leave," but all I really want is you To stand outside my window, throwing pebbles, screaming, "I'm in love with you." Wait there in the pourin' rain,Come back for more. And don't you leave,'cause I know all I need is on the other side of the door.

She had taken him in . Though she got in trouble for it with her mother. She stuck up for him from her mother and her friends. And she finds out with the money he made off her he could have been fine. All to find out he was paid to spend time with her. You wonder if any of it is real. He;s called but you don't care. You're too busy crying your eyes out to talk to him and are too angry. You're afraid you'd chew him out so much he'd report you for harassment even though it was the other way around. The sad truth is you still care about him ..but you're scared about how much he cares about you. You couldn't bear to hear 'you're nice and kinda funny but …' That but. It doesn't even have to be said. She heard it. From her dad. From Sean. From her mom even but she tried.

Me and my stupid pride I'm sittin' here, alone. I'm going through the photographs,
Staring at the phone. I keep going back over Things we both said And I remember the slammin' door, And all the things that I misread. So babe if you know everything Tell me why you couldn't see That when I left I wanted you to Chase after me? Yeah

" Other things were happening ..with you and me." "You were spying on me! The whole time!" Not the whole time! I told her to back off ..I miss you All his sweet nothings blending together as you replay thinking about them.

You can't help but think all he cared about was the night outside with you camping out. That must have been what he meant. He's a guy. Lucky him a few nonsense words here and there and not only will I get to bag the homecoming queen I'll get paid for it! And lying was probably tryin to save some more cash staying in my house and maybe trying to get some more. Who knows. You are glad you didn't mention this when you talk to him though. Just like him you are just here for information. But you're going to be better than him. You are going to be obvious about it and not make him think she wanted him back by lying and saying everything was fine and mind games and ..her head hurt and she wasn't thinking clearly. You wonder if –big if- why if he felt the way he did and her mind was screaming for that.. why hadn't he tried harder . If he cared wouldn't he fight for her? Show her he wanted her? He just left… I know I yelled at him …but if he knew me at all didn't he know I was crying wishing he would prove to me what he said was true it wasn't about the money? You have your phone with you at all times. You can't help it.

I said, "Leave," but all I really want is you To stand outside my window, throwing pebbles, screaming, "I'm in love with you."Wait there in the pourin' rain, Come back for more. And don't you leave,'cause I know all I need is on the other side of the door.

You miss him. You can't help it but you do. His sweet words come back to you making you yearn to call him. But you don't. How he listened. If you could not be so angry you would offer he should become a therapist or one of those people who rent a friend or date or something , like the wedding date. He was that good. For those nerdy people who couldn't get people close enough on their own . Losers. Unlike her. Or so you thought. At least those people would know what they were getting into beforehand -paying to have a friend. How could she have fallen for it? You were so happy and to have it come crashing down with lies is …excruciating. The most annoying part is the little part of her that wants to believe him She's all that. Oh at first I wanted to use you but then I fell for you. So you made him leave you won't forget the look on his face as he realized you weren't going to just get over this and he backs away. You almost gave in when he tried to touch you but you couldn't.

And I scream out the window, "I can't even look at you, I don't need you,"But I do, I do, I do.I say, "There's nothing you can say To make this right again, I mean it,I mean it" What I mean is..

He was like Alison. He made you feel special. You thought he was different. That he actually liked you. He did such a good job. Making you feel for him, like you owed him . From helping with Mrs. Montgomery's car, to listening to you. Not only that but when things were awkward after the shower, he pretended to leave. It was obviously just a ploy to get her to talk again. He probably never intended to leave. How clever he had tried to make her feel guilty for things she couldn't control her secrets. Playing innocent the old hiring/bet guy girl scenario from 10 things I hate about you and she's all that. I told him He'd get over it, in reality I was saying it to myself. When he stared at me after he told me he missed me and scooted closer I almost fell in but I had to remind myself over and over the harm he'd done. But I couldn't let him know that. It would make it that much easier to hurt me again.

I said, "Leave," but baby all I want is you To stand outside my window, throwing pebbles, screaming, "I'm in love with you." Wait there in the pourin' rain,
Come back for more. And don't you leave,'cause I know all I need is on the other side of the door.

You had to stay strong. But after he leaves you cry and wish he was still out there trying for you. To care about you that much. Becaues honestly what scares you the most is how much you miss and need him after all that happened and you don't think he does.

With your face, and your beautiful eyes And the conversation With the little white lies. And the faded picture Of a beautiful night You carried me from your car up the stairsAnd I broke down cryin' Was she worth this mess? After everything and that little black dress After everything I must confess, I need you

You remember all the time staring at each other how you couldn't stay mad at him.. How sad he looked and you offered him to stay. How different he looked when you finally told him you liked him and kissed him. You loved his face and eyes. " Tell her it's evaporation." He laughed. Always having to hide and tell lies to your mom –you wished you hadn't had to do that- it brought you both closer. How he had been so sweet and kissed her shoulder and then pulling her back for the kiss the morning she was so happy the first morning they were a couple. It was all while she was in the little black dress.