A/N So I am a huge Demi Lovato fan… Duh…. Thought I would do a one shot based on one of her songs with Sonny. This is based on the song For The Love of A Daughter of Demi's album Unbroken. Love the song and love the album. This is dedicated to my friend MusicChannySkyscraper. Amy, you are totally awesome.
For the Love of a Daughter
Four years old with my back to the door
All I could hear was the family war
You're selfish and always expecting more
Am I your child or just a charity award
Mom and Dad are always fighting, I am an only child and it is hard, to live with Mom and Dad always fighting. He says we are not good enough, that I was a mistake. How could a father say that about his own daughter? I feel so unloved, so helpless. He expects more than I can deliver. It is hopeless, hopeless. Am I really his child? I just wish my life would end.
Oh father
Please father
I'd love to leave you alone
But I can't let you go
Oh father
Please father
Put the bottle down
For the love of a daughter
I really want to live my life without worrying if my Dad would approve. Why can't he just love me for who I am? He is always drinking, swearing, yelling and abusing me. Why does he have to abuse me. I am his baby girl. I should be his light, his reason for living, but NO the selfish man just drinks, swears and abuses me. It's no wonder I started cutting myself and overdosing on tablets. When my Mom found out she was upset, but my Dad. He couldn't care. All he cares about is the alcohol and abusing his only child.
It's been five years
Since we've spoken last
And you can't take back
What we never had
I stopped talking to him, I was sick of all the abuse and swearing. My Mom has remarried and my Step-Dad is amazing. Then my real Dad comes to the door. "Sonny, Connie, I want you both back. I made a huge mistake. I am clean. I have stopped drinking. I realise my mistake". I'm sorry Dad but it is too late. You can't take back, what we never had. You had your chance to be a good Dad. But you chose not to. Now I have an amazing Step-Dad and he is my new Dad.
Well I can be manipulated
Only so many times
Before even I love you
Starts to sound like a lie
You come back and beg for Mom and I to take you back. Well Dad you destroyed me. You turned me from a happy little girl to a suicidal teenager. You know, if a girl does not have her Dad, her life is terrible. My Step-Dad is amazing, but he cannot heal the wounds from my stupid real Dad. I can't even tell you that I love you. Because we both know that I do not love you. You ruined my life, you destroyed me. And you expect me to take it all back and forgive you? It won't happen Dad.
You have a hollowed out heart
But it's heavy in your chest
I try so hard to fight it
But it's hopeless
Hopeless
You're hopeless
You are such an empty person. You are so hollow. You don't even care that you ruined your only daughter's life. You have no idea how hard it is to live knowing that your real Dad thinks you're a loser. I try so hard to fight it. It is hopeless. You are hopeless. You are a hopeless terrible pathetic human being. I hope you realise what you did to me and Mom before you die you evil pathetic person.
Don't you remember
I'm your baby girl
How could you push me out of your world
Lie to your flesh and your blood
Put your hands on the ones that you swore you loved
Daddy, I'm YOUR baby girl. You and Mommy had me. But you ruined it. You treated me like trash and threw me out of your world. Now you want to crawl back into my world. You lied to me, your flesh and your blood. You hurt me so many times yet you were supposed to love me. You told me you loved me but you showed to me through your actions that you did not. Actions speak louder than words Daddy. And by destroying me, you proved you did not care about me, that you did not love me. How could you be so cruel?
Don't you remember
I'm your baby girl
How could you throw me right out of your world
So young when the pain had begun
Now forever afraid of being alone
Daddy, I am YOUR baby girl remember? But you pushed me right out of your world. I was so young, when you started to destroy me. And now I am afraid that I will be alone forever. How could you, cause your own daughter, to fear that she will never be loved? You are hopeless, you are PATHETIC.
Oh father
Please father
I'd love to leave you alone
But I can't let you go
Oh father
Oh father
Please father
Put the bottle down
For the love of a daughter
For the love of a daughter
Daddy, I want to let go, I want to forgive you, but every time I go to forgive you I remember the alcohol, the swearing, the abuse, the fear that I had. Every time I saw YOUR face, even YOUR shadow. I started to fear that you would kill me, that you would hurt me one last time. Daddy, please, for the love of a daughter. Put the bottle down. Go get help. I don't want to hate you for the rest of my life. So Daddy, if you really care about me, go and get yourself fixed.
A/N So guys, that was a quick one. Just under 1000 words. I love this song and I had to do a one shot about it. It was fun to do. Sorry about the angst but this is a sad song.
God bless you my friends.
Bobbie :)
