When we first met

I was nothing to you but a silhouette

You looked at me from your father's car

Unaware that you'd be my star

You treated me like I was a game

A list of missions so you could be entertained

I lost and Cook won

Then your love affair with him begun

I wanted to be with you

But you didn't share my point of view

You'd thought you'd break your heart

And I thought I'd break yours for a start

But you didn't want that, who would?

You were made of words and misunderstood

I took more chances to have you then I could take

And confessed my feelings by jumping into a lake

But then I went with Katie instead

And your heart felt misled

We had one night of you and I

Before all my thoughts for you disappeared into the night

After you almost killed my girlfriend

You left me for a world of pretend

You called for help with Cook

I came and then you won my heart back

But it was claimed by my best mate

We had a race, me, Cook and J.J

J.J won but didn't win you

He made us all battle it through

I was the one to win but you left again

Leaving me in the utmost pain

But you came back and now we were together

I thought that we would last forever

But something changed

You were different, you were strange

You were so worried about life

You let your wrists meet a knife

I'd lost you, you didn't love me

You were stuck in therapy

I thought you were safe, I thought you were fine

And now you've left me traumatized

And now I'm lying on the floor

Dying slowly heart all torn

Thought he'd get you if I were dead

And now I'm laying here, clothes turning red

As my vision starts to turn black

I think of all our memories and play them back

Effy I love you and I'm so sad I cry

Because I will never be able to say goodbye

I will always love you even after death

You are the best years I've spent

The last thing that I think of before I am gone

Maybe I really did break your heart all along