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Remus/Tonks songfic I wanna grow old with you

Another day without your smile
Another day just passes by
But now i know how much it means
For you to stay right here with me
The time we spent apart will make our love grow stronger
But it hurts so bad i can't take it any longer

Tears. Regret.Anger.I felt that most. Along with sadness and lonliness. I never fought in the Final Battle. I promised him I wouldn't go. I promised him I would stay here and be safe. He promised me he'd stay safe. He never kept that promise. He died. He left me to fight. Why didn't I go with him. I could of saved him. I could of stopped this from happening. Tears were rolling down my face. But I didn't care. I was all alone now. Curled up in a featal position. My hair a lank brown colour. No life in my eyes. No energy to move.

I wanna grow old with you
I wanna die lying in your arms
I wanna grow old with you
I wanna be looking in your eyes
I wanna be there for you, sharing everything you do
I wanna grow old with you

He was killed in the battle. Dohlohov. That name. He teared us apart. He was the one who stopped us from raising our family from living a happy life. He stopped Remus from being happy, he stopped Remus from being in a relationship where the person he loved, loved him back and accepted him. He stopped him from finally being unashamed. From finally living.

A thousand miles between us now
It causes me to wonder how
Our love tonight remains so strong
It makes our risk right all along
The time we spent apart will make our love grow stronger
But it hurt so bad i can't take it any longer

You may not be here anymore but I still love you. And that will never change. I guess not waking up and seeing your face every morning will make me want you more. Never watching you read again. The way you cared for your books so much. Never waking up in the middle of the night and finding you watching Teddy sleep. Teddy. He'll never see you again. Never have a father to watch him grow up. I've been thinking about me when I should be thinking about my son. He'll never be complete. Never be able to share those father son momments. Never be able to see what his father truly was.

I wanna grow old with you
I wanna die lying in your arms
I wanna grow old with you
I wanna be looking in your eyes
I wanna be there for you, sharing everything you do
I wanna grow old with you

Your smile, your eyes, your wisdom, your empathy, You. We'll never be able to grow old together. Never to see our grandchildren.. Never share a Christmas kiss under the mistletoe, never see you worry about something pointless and then watch the relief flood across your face when it happens perfectly. We'll never see our son go to Hogwarts together. Never watch him get married. Never see him play quidditch.

Things can come and go
I know but
Baby I believe
Something's burning strong between us
Makes it clear to me

I, Nymphadora Tonks ,

take you, Remus John Lupin ,
to be my husband,
to have and to hold
from this day forward;
for better, for worse,
for richer, for poorer,
in sickness and in health,
to love, cherish, and obey,
till death us do part.

Forever. I will always love you

I wanna grow old with you
I wanna die lying in your arms
I wanna grow old with you
I wanna be looking in your eyes
I wanna be there for you, sharing everything you do
I wanna grow old with you

Moscardini XxXx

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