Summary: Matsuda reflects on what he has to do upon discovering the unbelievable truth about Light. He is Kira, something Matsuda never wanted to know. But now he has no choice but to face the undeniable. Now he has to choose sides, once and for all. Implied LightxMatsuda. Matsuda-centric.
Disclaimer: I don't, nor have I ever, owned Death Note.
I now know.
Even if I don't want to,
I do.
It is, of course,
undeniable
when all of the evidence is laid out
in perfect view.
And I also know
what must be done
but what nobody else
will do.
I always wanted
to do something useful,
but I never imagined it would be this.
After doing nothing,
this is what they're giving me,
and I wonder
if it's an opportunity
or an obligation.
I suspect
it is the latter.
They always knew how I felt
about you,
even if they never understood.
That is why it's left for me
alone.
Impulse is ultimately what drives me.
In the very end,
it is but an impulse
to gain vengeance
for myself
by saving our lives
(but not in the sense of you and I).
In the past,
I had believed you
when you were deceiving me,
and I would never forgive you
for that.
I had played right into your hands
like some kind of sap.
But I will not make the same mistake
twice.
