Summary: Matsuda reflects on what he has to do upon discovering the unbelievable truth about Light. He is Kira, something Matsuda never wanted to know. But now he has no choice but to face the undeniable. Now he has to choose sides, once and for all. Implied LightxMatsuda. Matsuda-centric.

Disclaimer: I don't, nor have I ever, owned Death Note.


I now know.

Even if I don't want to,

I do.

It is, of course,

undeniable

when all of the evidence is laid out

in perfect view.

And I also know

what must be done

but what nobody else

will do.

I always wanted

to do something useful,

but I never imagined it would be this.

After doing nothing,

this is what they're giving me,

and I wonder

if it's an opportunity

or an obligation.

I suspect

it is the latter.

They always knew how I felt

about you,

even if they never understood.

That is why it's left for me

alone.

Impulse is ultimately what drives me.

In the very end,

it is but an impulse

to gain vengeance

for myself

by saving our lives

(but not in the sense of you and I).

In the past,

I had believed you

when you were deceiving me,

and I would never forgive you

for that.

I had played right into your hands

like some kind of sap.

But I will not make the same mistake

twice.