Disclaimer: I don't own Death Note or its characters, but I would like to own L ( yea right we all would lol) anywayz my goal for each chapter is to have it titled according to a song of which I think fits the chapter. For example this is the prologue and The End of Heartache is a song by Killswitch Engage, so go and listen to it, if you're interested.


Through the Iris

Prologue:

The End of Heartache

"Did you ever picture things turning out this way?" said the snowy haired boy standing beside me. The boy spoke in perfect Russian so no one else would understand, but there was no need, we were quite alone in the small cemetery.

"No," was all I replied, was all I could reply. I glanced at the boy next to me as he stared, unblinking, at the unmarked grave before us. To those that did not know Near they would have thought him indifferent to the grave before him. But I know better, I could see the grief in his eyes, eyes that reminded me so, of his eyes, L's eyes.

Near bent down and lay the bouquet of roses over the grave. He stayed in his crouched position, taking a stray lock of hair between his fingers and playing with it, as per his usual habit.

"You miss them, Ms. Lexa." He said turning to English, his native tongue.

"So do you, Near."

Near turned his head to look at me over his shoulder, I felt my heart nearly rip in two when I saw a lone tear, trail down his cheek. He wiped the tear onto his finger and studied it as if fascinated, but quickly lost interest, no more tears came after. He turned back to the ornate cross that marked the grave and replied.

"This is true, but my grief will pass, but I fear, yours, Ms. Lexa, will never leave you."

I smiled in spite of myself. I was touched by the boy's open display of concern for me. It was not something that he did very often, but, then, it never needed to be said, it was always understood. I put a hand on his shoulder and he turned to look at me again. This time I did not see the hardened detective, but the teenager who was doing his best to follow in the footsteps of a legend.

"You need not concern yourself with me, Near, I chose this path for myself and I will continue to do my job and aide you the best I can, unless you want to be rid of me?" I said with a wink hoping to lighten the mood. I saw a ghost of a smile of his lips, before he turned back to the lonely grave. I released his shoulder, and shoved my hand back into my coat pocket. Silence fell between us, but our thoughts lay on the same people.

Mello, Matt, Watari,…L.

It so strange to finally be here, at the end, all the mysteries solved, all the pieces put together, as Near would say, and yet your not here with us, that seems impossible…

My thoughts then turned to happier times…

"Do not fret Alexa, everything will turn out alright, you'll see." Watari had once told me I can still see the hint of mirth in his eyes, as if he knew all along…

"Ms. Lexa come and watch me kick Mello's butt on my new game!" A young Matt had once said.

"The reason he beats me is cause he uses all those cheat codes!!!" Mello had retorted looking rather upset.

"No way! You're just jealous of my mad skillz!"

"Ya, right, who would be jealous of you??!!"

A fight followed soon after, it took me a while to break it up, but afterwards they acted like nothing had happened, that's just the kind of friends they were, they always made me laugh…

I remember I had just gotten a, sick, four year old Near to sleep, when Mello and Matt burst into the room, "Ms. Lexa what are you doing!!!??" they shouted in unison. Near woke up with a start, and I threw them a death glare. I laughed to myself afterwards; I had never seen them run so fast…

"Alexa, nunca queria lastimarte." L had always spoken to her in Spanish, her first language, when they were alone…

"Lexa, I will not be returning to this place again, I know you understand, you may return if you wish, but you will do it alone." Near said, thankfully, interrupting my thoughts.

"Very well." I replied. It was late and getting colder by the minute. The sunset blanketed the grave cross in orange and red hues. It was finally time to say goodbye.

Adios L, espero que nos veamos otra vez en la proxima vida…

For comfort, For solace

For the end of my broken heart

Completion

I'll be waiting

For the end of my broken heart

End of Heartache -Killswitch Engage


: SOOOOOO??!! What did you think??! As for the Spanish:

1: Alexa, I never wanted to hurt you.

2. Goodbye L, I hope we see each other again in the next life…

Oh and I know, I'm missing several grammar marks on the Spanish, I need to figure out how to make them on the keyboard ;! thanks for reading!