A/N: All the characters belong to their rightful owner : Stephenie Meyer. No copyright infringement intended.

Author's warning : If you cannot breathe without Edward's presence and you absolutely reject the idea of his disappearance , this is the right moment to click the "back" button .

Other notes : I rated it T because of the up-coming chapters. I also made a banner for this story and you can see the link to it in my profile here on fanfic.

There will also be other POVs.

I appreciate reviews and also constructive criticism or different ideas. If you notice something wrong about the grammar , or vocabulary please feel free to comment and I will fix my mistakes, as I'm not a fluent English speaker , and English is not my mother language, so it is very hard for me to express the right idea in English and sometimes I make weird combination of words.
Also this is my first complex writing, as I am a newbie in the world of fanfiction.

Bella's POV :

Chapter 1 : CRASH


*We can imagine life being like a plane, in which we're only passengers and sooner or later our flight ends. We have different seats but the same destination . You can't get lost , the plane always takes you to the right place.*

I looked through the window and let tears spring out of the corner of my eyes , drowning my cheeks in salty anguish, while cloud by cloud was fading away beneath us , like cigarette's smokes stretching in the air.

Fear began to consume my senses and taking my thoughts as hostages. The fear of losing Edward, the fear of making Charlie worry so much, the fear of hurting Jake, in other words, the fear of destroying everything I touched. The fear of being myself !

All of these thoughts were deep buried into my wounds,wounds that won't seem to heal. I was willing to accept all this pain as long as we get there in time and rescue Edward. It's a little odd to think that a vampire would be in danger, that all his power and imortal existence are in threat to disappear. I can't let that happen, especially since this vampire is my love , my life, my reason of keep breathing and in the same time my reason to stop breathing. A world without him would make no sense.

An assuring cold hand caressed my right shoulder, as I turned my face to look at her. Alice was sprawling her legs, invading all the space between the seats. She was so gracious and fluid in all her movements but in the same time so natural and her innocent smile was spreading hopes all over the place. She snatched my hand into hers , leaning closer to whisper in my ear :

"Bella, whatever it happens , just promise me you will not blame yourself for anything!" she sang with a worried voice , closing her wish with a serious alignment of her lips.

"I will never forgive myself if anything happens to Edward. Better dead , than without him!" I winced ,sure of my answer, trying to catch myself from falling apart and spreading into pieces. But this was the truth, the only truth I was aware of ,now. I refuse to accept the idea of losing him.I could not promise her what she's asking for because I know I won't be able to do it.

"Bella Swan – " she scowled , pressing my hand on her foot beneath her cold and stone-like palm. "Never….but never ..ever….say something like that. Do you hear me?" she added , obviously irritated.

"It's my fault ,Alice. Don't you see ? If I hadn't jumped off that dumb cliff in the first place,nothing would have happened. He told me not to do anything stupid or reckless , but I was trying to prove how smart-pants I can be, and that I can break promises like he does. The truth is I was trying to bring him back into my life,even if all I could get was an illusion of his voice." I sniffed and raised my left hand to wipe my nose with the back of my sleeve.

"It was not your fault, for God sake. It was his from the very first beginning. He made a desperate decision by leaving you and I tried to convince him in every single way that his best option was the wrong one." she whimpered , releasing my hand and laying back on her chair.

"Tell me something , Alice." I whispered, sounding more like begging, captured by an indescribable curiosity that penetrated my mind.

"You saw me being unhappy and lost, right? Why wasn't this enough for him to come back?" I continued ,biting my lips .If he still loved me , like Alice told me, and somehow I always knew it, he would've came back.

"I saw your depression, but I also saw you recovering, being happy again, smiling, so that is why he decided to stay away . He believed you can get over it, we all did, until – " she hesitated , and I could see anger in her eyes. "Rosalie spoiled everything with her phone-call …. and all the misunderstanding with the funeral."

She saw me being happy, again? I wonder in what circumstances , because my heart simply denies to believe her prediction.

"You saw me being happy? How?" I couldn't help myself and asked.

"I was unable to see the reason beyond your new smile , but I'm pretty sure it has something to do with your werewolf friend. I've never saw him in my visions,so…"she teased me, raising one eyebrow.

My werewolf friend? My Jacob? No matter how much I try to not stretch my affection towards him , I have to admit I considered a possible future in which he was part of it. But he would never replace Edward , and I would have only felt bad for using him like a tool to wipe my pain away ,even though that is what I've done lately and it is inexcusable. The last conversation with Jake popped out of my mind, our near-kiss experience , my heart romping at his touch,the image with his eyes full of a love I would never be able to share with him. He was always there to fix my broken pieces , to balance the clouds for me and I am so grateful for it , but in the same time , so sorry I couldn't offer him more than I had available, that "more" he always wished for.

"Well…. nothing matters now more than getting to Volterra in time. So let's concentrate on that ! Nothing from what Rosalie told Edward, or from what I've done can be repaired." I hopefully finished the conversation that didn't seem to lead anywhere, not into the direction I wanted, where I had the fault and should be blamed for my insane actions.I was also afraid I could bring up something that should not be revealed about Jake, so I thought it's better for me to stop here.

Alice sighed and tilted her head in the opposite direction, pretending to fall asleep. Like that could be possible. Maybe she was just searching for the future.

Tired, with not so much power left in my body , I thought of doing the same , to spare my mind of tortured feelings for a while.

All the other passengers were so silent , I could barely hear them breathing or making any sound , their calmness almost freaking me out. It was like an awkward silence before the storm. I drove myself in a cozy position , crossing my arms above my chest and closed my eyes, pending to fly away in my dreams….or nightmares.

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Heavy cold raindrops were piercing my hair, my clothes and dancing with my own tears. My feet were stuck in the deep mud and the wind was scratching my cheeks,as I was fighting to stay on my feet. Everything felt like falling apart and drifting, the trees were fading away and I was getting lost in darkness.I could only hear the wind racing through the forest. And then, suddenly, something soft and warm touched my hand .

I turned around and saw a small beautiful boy , who was looking at me with his dark big eyes full of unusual love and pity .He touched my hand, trying to comfort me , to cheer me up with his innocent smile , so pure and gentle. Then he pulled me down ,until I fell on my knees , and he reached to wipe my tears that were pouring down my cheeks with his little warm hand.I felt relieved and loved like I once felt before...

The rain stopped and heavy dark gray clouds were now spread by the wind, revealing the blue sky and the overwhelming warmth of the Sun .

The strong light forced my eyes to close, burning my eyelids. I tried to reach for the boy's hand again ..but he was no longer there . Hearing as someone was calling my name in the distance, almost yelling, I desperately turned to see if it was him but …he was gone and all I could see was a white emptiness,shaking my body with unutterable power.

"BELLA – " a sharp scream snatched me from my dreams, while my right hand was almost squeezed and my body all sweaty was trembling in the freezing cold spasms of air. The plane was seriously shaking , and I could smell panic all around me. I instantly woke up and saw Alice wriggling herself against the seat , her eyes snapping wide opened, while her body was curling in all the possible directions. She must have had a vision…but she never reacted like that before ,so violently.

I was desperate , confused , and ignoring any possible chances of nausea , I tried to grab her hand to ask what happened, while my body was bouncing up and down on the chair like a volley ball. The passengers were fussing around in frenzy , panicked by the violent plane's flick. I've never experienced such extreme turbulence in my entire life and all was happening so fast that I fell like throwing up.

"Alice….Alice are you okay?"I almost yelled ,stuttering, making myself clear in the annoying noise that was pushing my senses, trying to catch a reaction from Alice. Adrenaline was rushing through my veins. Everyone was praying and crying , while objects were flying everywhere. Seat belts were so useless .

"Edward!" she gasped…. "Edward is dead. They killed him. We 're late…..and the plane………"

Then , all I could hear and feel was my heart's crackle , air leaving my lungs , my eyes being covered in darkness, something hard smashing my head while deadly screams were mixing with a loudspeaker's warning, everything fading away and slowly covered in a grave-like silence…

* Where darkness falls…there is always a dawn.*