I've been alone since my parents died. I kept myself locked in my room everyday. My other classmates began to be "concerned" about me. They called me over and over again. I said, "thanks for the concern" but I still didn't want to go out. This happened for four months. After those months, I came out of the open but I was still silent. I was still alone. I never became attentive since that cursed day. I never smiled, I never laughed nor speak out loud. I only speak when I know it's needed. And once you know it, everybody became scared of me. That started my dark side. I never believed in anything positive anymore. None…
The name's Sasuke. Uchiha Sasuke. But I bet you wouldn't even remember it. Well…what you're about to read is my lonely and stupid life that returned to the bright side in days just because of a dream each night. How? Well, that's for you to find out… Sorede, Ja nee.
DAY 1
"Come on, Sasuke! We lack one more member, you know?"
"No thanks."
Uchiha Sasuke. 16 years old. Born on July 23rd. Living currently at Tokyo. First year in High School. Having the most worthless life on earth, that's me. Sigh. I don't even know why they talk to me like they've known me for a long time. They think that it'll make it better, but it won't. It never will. Here I am, walking towards the school gate. As I heard the bell ring a while ago, I wanted to end the teacher's yapping and talking. I wanted it to disappear…
"don't!"
"Huh? What was that?" I said.
Was that my imagination? Did I just hear someone…answer me? You know, it's been weeks like that. Every time I thought of doing or even just think of ending my life, that voice just keeps coming like a bullet.
"don't do it."
There it is again. It sounded like a girl. But…I kinda like it. I don't know why, but I feel safe when I hear it. When I hear her voice, it's like, I'm home.
7 p.m. Heh, the usual time I arrive at home.
"Tadaima." I said as I touched their picture frames. "Mom. Dad. It's been a while but…" I putted down my bags and sat beside them. "Can I talk to you?"
After seconds of silence, I know they were listening. "It's just that there's something bugging me these past few weeks." Wait a minute. Do I really believe those voices? "There's a voice that keeps coming inside my head. A girl's voice. She keeps telling me to stop whatever I'm thinking of doing. Am I crazy? Am I sick or anything? … URGH!!"
I putted my hands on my head. Then I stood up and marched to my room. I slammed the door as I went inside and went straight to my bed.
What's wrong with me?! I closed my eyes shut for seconds and then… I didn't notice that I was already sleeping…
INSIDE THE DREAM
"Huh? Where am I?" I said.
There was nothing I could see but water, sand and a forest behind me. It's like I'm in a beach but…no one's here.
"H-hello?" I shouted a little. "Is anybody there?"
When nobody answered, I didn't speak anymore. Actually, started to walk slowly. This is kinda nice. I could hear the ocean, I could feel the sand in my feet, I could hear the sea gulls from the sky. This is so peaceful…Half an hour has passed and I'm still walking. Is there no end to this island? Sigh. My patience running out again until I something or some one, might be, from the trees.
"Is anybody there?" I asked.
I walked towards the forest. I shoved the bushes away then the same sound followed.
"H-hey. If there's some one out there, don't go." I followed the sound while it was going away. "I won't hurt you!"
I continued to follow the sound that I didn't know how to get out of the forest. "Oof!" I bumped into something I didn't see from the shoving and running to the sound. I fell down to the grass and rubbed my bottom. "Ouch. That hurts…"
"Eh?"
That voice!! I heard it again. But it wasn't in my head. I heard it, in my own ears. I looked up and I flinched my eyes for I saw the sun directly. But…I saw it. A shadow of a girl, with short hair and those eyes. I saw her eyes (except for her face) that was so green, like emerald.
"A-are you alright?" she said.
Then I felt her hand touch me. So smooth, so delicate, like it's never touched anything before. She held my wrist slowly and I took it. I heard her flinch for a little and she lifted me. My eyes were still closed. The sun blinded it. When I stood completely, I rubbed my eyes. But after a while, I pretended to rub it so I could still listen to her voice.
"I-I'm sorry. I really didn't see you." That voice…"Are you okay? Did I hurt you?" It's hers. "Umm… Are you…" No doubt about it. "Umm, are you really…" I know it is. "Are you really that blinded?"
"Huh?" I was surprised she still asked that. "O-of course not! My eyes are itchy, you know?"
"…"
And when I opened my eyes, put my hands down, I saw it. The person behind the voice in my head, her. And there, I saw her full figure. So…beautiful. Pink hair, emerald eyes, regards the huge forehead, her face. That face I know I wouldn't forget. Perfectly shaped lips, delicate and pale skin. She was wearing a white strapped-dress that ended at her knees. And her feet was the same with mine, barefooted. And in her hands, fingers so small. Then I noticed in her right hand, a bracelet made out of flowers. White flowers that matched her dress and skin. I saw it all.
"You… who are you?" she asked.
"I-I'm, uh, my name?" I said.
"Of course!" she laughed. Her laugh. It sounded so soft, so pleasant to my ears.
"U-Uchiha Sasuke." I answered. I didn't know why, but I never felt anything like this in a long time.
"Nice to meet you, Uchiha-san! I'm Sakura." Sakura…what a nice name.
"It suits you." And for the first time in a long time, I actually smiled.
"Th-thank you." She slightly blushed. "No one has ever spoken to me like that."
"You can just call me Sasuke."
"Thank you, Sasuke-kun!" she smiled at me.
But I was wondering, how come she's here? Isn't she just in my head? Just an imagination? Wait… this is a dream. Of course she would appear, but…
"Why are you here, Sasuke-kun?" she suddenly asked.
"Why…I'm here?"
"Yes. Well, because, it's just that…" her face became sad. And I hated that.
"What is it?"
"No one has ever been in this island…Just me." She closed her eyes.
"Eh?!" my eyes widened. No one? No, it can't be. Then, how can she…
"But when you came here, I couldn't believe it! Some one's finally here to be with me. I'm so happy. Very, very happy." Her smile came back, that made me relieved.
"You mean you've been…alone?"
"Yes. All my life I've been alone here in this island, waiting for someone to arrive and bring happiness to me. Even if it's just a little while, I would appreciate if that some one would make me smile, laugh and feel company." She said.
She's been alone longer than me…
Then she invited me to her house. I was even more surprised that she had a house here in this deserted island. But I had no choice, this is a dream after all. I followed her to this house of hers. But while we walking, I observed her. That figure of hers, that hair, that skin, that dress. It's so beautiful…
"Here it is. Welcome to my tree house!"
"Oh, so this is it." I looked at how high the tree was. It's like, it was enough to reach the clouds.
"Come on, it's so embarrassing if you just look at it that way!" she took my hand with both of hers and pulled my to the ladder.
We climbed at it and she told me stories I've never heard of. It was amazing when she told me how she survived in this island alone. I didn't ask her if she felt sad and lonely about being no one with. I knew she would just show a sad face. When we reached the top, and boy was that long, she showed me her small house. She showed me the reason why her house was in a tree like this. It was because of the view. I was admired by it too. I have to admit. You could see the whole island, the ocean, the sky, the forest. It was beautiful. And so was her…
"S-Sakura…"
"Hmm?" she looked at me, with a smile so pretty.
"Are you…real?"
"Eh?"
There, a moment of silence came. She just looked at me with confused eyes and I was a little surprised about that. Wasn't she just a dream? But even so, wouldn't she know that? But I didn't want that too. I would like this to be forever… She was still looking at me. I was still looking at her, waiting for her to answer.
Then, she looked away from me. I didn't know why, but I felt something bad. Did I say something that offended her? I know that she's just a dream, but…
"What…do you mean?" she asked.
"It's just that, I know that this is a dream. And you're…you're just a voice in my head. A voice that became a dream, but I didn't say I don't like it. I just, I just want to know if you, yourself, know that you're just an illusion of the mind, right?"
"…"
"Sakura…"
"Yes."
And there, I heard her answer. And there, I knew that it wasn't true. But it's still… and I know it will always be…
"So, you knew all along." I asked.
"Yes."
"Why didn't you tell me?"
"Because…I was afraid."
"Afraid of what?"
"Afraid…of losing the happiness I feel right now. I'm afraid…of losing another friend. I'm afraid, so afraid that I'll feel alone and lonely again when I tell you!" she faced me with desperate eyes and hands on her chest.
"I…I'm sorry. I didn't want to…I mean, I actually…umm," I didn't know what to say. I didn't actually know that she would feel that bad. "I'm really… sorry."
"N-no. It's alright. I really know that this is just a dream…But what you don't know is…"
"Huh?"
"…is that I'm-"
KRIIIING!!! KRIIIING!!!
"Huh?!" my eyes opened by itself, wide.
I was panting. I was lying in my bed wearing my uniform. I didn't know why, but… Wait a minute!!
"SAKURA!!" I shouted her name as I sat up. "No…it, it can't be. No."
I couldn't believe it. The dream, it's gone. I lost it. I lost her. I lost the only person that made me…smile. The only person that understood my feelings, I lost her. But…it was a dream, wasn't it. I made a deep sigh. I guess it didn't last longer as I wanted. I put my hands in my eyes and looked at the clock. 4 a.m. It's already morning, huh? Then I slowly stood up and took a bath. But I still remembered her. Sakura. I still remembered her eyes, those eyes, her skin, her dress, her smooth skin…and that smile. That smile of hers…it made my heart skip a beat whenever I see her smile. Even though I know that she's just a dream and she came from a voice, I still remember her.
Hmm…maybe I might see her again, I wish…
Sakura…
