AN/summary: Cole's thoughts of his life! faintly spoilers! onesided ColePhoebe

Demon's tale

I am utterly alone! Trapped in this emptiness as a punishment for all my past crimes. Never again shall I know the slightest of human kindness.

I am Belthazor, member of the Triad and the Brotherhood of the Thorn. I've been the source and an avatar. I have been a human. I am Cole Turner.

I'd thought killing the Charmed would be easy but I forgot my human half. The part of me there still was able to love. I fell in love with Phoebe Halliwell, the youngest of the sisters. She turned me away from the darkness, she gave me a cause. I betrayed my demon fellows and began helping the sisters. Still, the demon was inside me, fighting to get out!

It may appear like I've changed sides countless times those few years, sometimes willingly, sometimes not, but the truth is that I was really only on one side all the time; deep inside my heart I was always on Phoebe's side. Even when the demon's altered my mind and made me forget. Even when the Source took over my body. I always loved her. I still love her!

For her I was willing to make the world turn upside down. And that in the end claimed my life. She chose her sisters, she chose being a Charmed, and she chose fighting against evil.

She chose the right thing!

Phoebe, my love, don't give up on love. It's out there, waiting for you. I know it is. If you could make me, a demon, fall in love with you it proves everything. Not that you, as you seem to think, attract evil but that you bring out the best in everyone.

I love you!