AN: what can I say about all of this I'm reallytrying to get some insperation for my other stories but somehow I don't seem to get it. So there for I wrote this little one shot, or i think so. It deepends on what you all think. If you think that it might be worth it, I might write another chapter. And apperantly the only insperation I have at the moment seems to be related to the Holidays that are coming up.
Disclaimer: don't own South of Nowhere and I don't own the song used in this fan fiction, it's All I want for Christmas/My only wish this year, not really sure of the title, it's the one that Brintey Spears is singing, if that helps.
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All I want for Christmas
Last night I took a walk in the snow
Couples holding hands, places to go
Seems like everyone but me is in love
Santa can you hear me?
I'm not really sure on how I should be thinking at this moment. For the last ten years of my life I have always wished for the same thing for Christmas from Santa but it have never happened and this year I just feel like I don't want to wish for it again. I just want find my true love. As I told you just a minute ago, I've wished for this during the last ten years, which means since I was 15 years old and know I'm 25, the first two, three years I wanted my prince charming coming along but the year when I turned 18 I wished that my Cinderella would come along, that means that I want my princess charming coming along. If you didn't realize it before, I'm gay.
Okay maybe I should tell you that I once thought that I had found my princess charming but that wasn't true. After about a year, we actually met during one of all the Christmas parties that my parents throw every year, I think that she was a friend to a friend or something like that. The reason that it all ended was that I found out after that year we were together, that she had been cheating on me, I found it out on our one year anniversary, on one of the Christmas parties, and I think that it might have been the same party that we met on just a year later. I know that really sucks, that is something that you don't have to tell me more than once. The worst part of it all isn't that she cheated on me, it was that even though I caught them, she tried to deny it.
I signed my letter that I sealed with a kiss
I sent it off, and it just said this:
I know exactly what I want this year
Santa can you hear me?
I want my baby, baby
I want someone to love me, someone to hold
Maybe, baby
She'll be all my own in a big red bow
I walked from my car to one of the parties that I was forced to go to, I really don't like those parties and I have never liked them but my parents need me to make an appearance just so that we all can play the happy family. We have never been a happy family, when I was younger, I'm still young. My dad was never home, he was always put on tour with his band and my mother, well that is someone I don't really want to talk about, she didn't like me, I think she never did and it got even worse when I told them that I wasn't straight that I in fact was gay. My dad was okay with it but my mother on the other hand wasn't that happy about the fact.
"Hello, mum and dad are you in here?" I asked when I entered the front door that was something I always did. I have never really felt at home in this house, okay don't look at me like that, mansion.
"yes, honey we are in the dining room." I walked in to the dining room. I actually looked around the room to see who that also was present.
"My sincere apologies to all of you that I'm late." I said to all of them that was siting around the table, there were some people that I have never seen before, I guess that they did invite some new people this year, I actually wonder why. When I sat down on y chair I said hello to the people that I was sitting next to, I do have manners even though I might not look like I have.
"I'm Arthur Carlin. I don't think that we have met before." A man said, and his name was apperntly Arthur Carlin.
"Nice, to met you, Mr. Carlin, I'm Ashley Davies, it's my parents that are in charge of this party. And again, I'm sorry that I was late."
"It's not a problem, I can tell you that you won't be the last to arrive we are still waiting on one of my kids, Spencer." The only thing that came to mind was, great this must be my mothers' idea trying to set me up with someone on a party just so that I can't blow them of like a normally do.
"Okay, but I still feel guilty that I was late, I mean I should know better by now." I said and smiled to him, he was actually pretty nice.
Santa can you hear me?
I have been so good this year
and all I want is one thing
Tell me my true love is near
SShe's all I want, just for me
Underneath my Christmas tree
I'll be waiting here
Santa, that's my only wish this year
Oh yeah...yeah
We all continued to eat our dinner, eating and talking to each other. To my own surprise I actually had some fun, maybe it was that I was sitting with people that I had some common interests with that did not normally happen when it came to different dinners that my parents had, I found out that Mr. C, I didn't want to call him Arthur even if he told me that I could but I didn't feel comfortable with that, had three kids, two of them was already present Glen and Clay and then of course Spencer but she had been caught up at work, and I thought that Spencer had been a boy. His wife was also present she was a doctor on a local hospital. And he was working with trouble teens, I actually would have loved to met him earlier when I was one of those teens, I might have been privileged when I grew up and during high school but I missed the chance to feel loved from my parents. The way he talked about his family made me want to have that.
Maybe this was the year that my life was going to be alright and slowly fall into place. That I might get this true love from Santa, which would be great, all I know is that I want it to happen and that I want this family that I can love unconditionally and not make the same mistakes that my parents did. All I know is that I know how not to act, that must be good for something.
Christmas eve, I just can't sleep
Would I be wrong in taking a peek?
Cuz I heard that you're coming to town
Santa can you hear me?
The dinner was long over but the party was still going on and Spencer had yet to show up, I had talked to both of her brothers and it seemed like she was some kind of angle. I still laugh to myself when I think back to the when I first was talking to Glen, it was her biology brother, Clay had been adopted, what can I say, the Carlins seemed like the picture perfect family. Glen had actually tried to make a move on me when he found out that I was single, I tried to tell him subtitle that he didn't have that much of a chance with me, I think that you all would laugh at it.
Flashback about 45 minutes
"hello there beautiful." This blonde boy/man said to me, I have never talked to him before ad I don't even know who he can be.
"hello to you too. And who might you be? I don't think that I have met you before."
"I'm Glen Carlin and if you don't mind me asking who you are?" the blonde boy said to me.
"Ah, so you are one of Mr Cs' kids. I'm Ashley Davies and I think that you should know that it's my parents that are in charge of all this." I said to him and I know that look he had.
"Well, then I should go and say thank you to them."
"you should do that."
"I'll do that but it will happen later. Right now, I wanted to ask you something."
"okay, and that is?" I asked him, I was just a bit confused at the moment.
"Well I was just thinking that, well I don't really know how to put this but here it goes, I'm hot and so are you there for we should be getting together."
"you do have a point there, I am hot, but us getting together will never happen."
"what do you mean by that."
"I'm not sure that how I should tell you this but one of your siblings have a better chance to get together with me."
"Oh man, so it's true what they say."
"What do you mean by that?"
"Once you go black, you never go back." When he said that I couldn't help but to laugh, he thought that I meant Clay, which meant just one thing that he didn't have a gaydar or that he needed to get it restarted. "What are you laughing at there is nothing to laugh about at this moment." He said, I actually truly felt sorry for him but I didn't want to tell him that I was gay, I was hoping that he would get it himself.
End flashback
I really hope that you're on your way
With something special for me in your sleigh
Oh please make my wish come true
Santa can you hear me?
I want my baby, baby
I want someone to love me, someone to hold
Maybe, baby
We'll be all alone, under the mistletoe
"I'm sorry Glen that I did laugh at you before, but what I said is true."
"So you mean that Clay has a better chance than me?"
"no, you two have the same chance at it very slim, I would say none."
"So you are involved with someone."
"No, was but it ended last year at this time of the year. The person was cheating on me."
"Who is that stupid?"
"Apparently my ex."
"Okay, I give you that but I want to know why I don't have a chance with you if you're single?"
"Where to start, where to start."
"At the beginning, it just a suggestion."
"A great one. First of don't like men, and you are one right?"
"Yes, and that means that you are..."
"Yes, I'm gay and what I meant with the siblings thing is that your sister has a better chance."
"Oh, so I should probably go and see if I can find someone else to flirt with."
"Whatever you feel is the best thing to do for you. But it was nice talking to you." And when I had said that to him he left and I was alone again, this was not the most fun part of all of this but I had been here for a while and had said hello to all of the people that I needed to see. That meant that I could leave, and that is something that I'm planning to do soon, I just need to find my parents and say good bye to them that I can do.
"Mother, I was just looking for you and dad. I was planning on leaving soon."
"I'm sorry to hear that Ashley, but it was nice to see you."
"You to mother, but I should be looking for dad and say bye to him." I said to my mother, this was the conversation that I had with my mother, not that long and especially not that interesting.
"Okay, Ashley but I hope that we will see you later."
"Of course, I'll be back at Christmas' day and maybe New Years' eve." After my little conversation with my mother I was just looking for my dad so that I could leave this hole, I had had enough of all of this.
"Dad" I said when I found him he was talking to Mr. C and I also said hi to him. "I'm so sorry to interrupt the two of you but I just wanted to say that I was on my way, I'm leaving."
"That was sad to her, Ash but promise that you call when you are home just so that I know that you're safe."
"Of course dad, and I'm sorry that I did cut this short but as you know I'm not really enjoying this. And I hope that I will see you soon" I said and looked at Mr. C.
"Likewise Ashley, and I'm sorry to hear that you aren't enjoying yourself. And I hope that I'll see you soon to and maybe then you can meet my daughter Spencer.
"That sounds nice and I'm sorry that I didn't have a chance to meet her but I did have the pleasure to talk to your son, Glen.
"I hope that he behaved."
"Yes, he did, but I think that I might have disappointed him a bit but there are no hard feelings from any of us, it all cleared up."
"Let me guess, he was a bit of a flirt."
"Yes, but that was not a problem, I told him in a nice way that I wasn't interested." When I told Mr. C this my dad laughed a bit, I knew why but I don't think that Mr. C really understood.
"Okay, may I ask how you let him down, it kind of fun to hear those and I'm pretty sure that he won't tell me."
"I told him that one of his siblings had a better chance." When I said this Mr. C did understand why my father had laughed.
"I do think that you and my daughter would get along just great after this."
Santa can you hear me?
I have been so good this year
And all I want is one thing
Tell me my true love is near
She's all I want, just for me
Underneath my Christmas tree
I'll be waiting here
Santa, that's my only wish this year
When I was in the hall and I was on my out through the door, there was just one of those moments that you don't want to forget, there she was, and the girl and I mean the girl.
I don't know who she was but just looking at her made my heart fly away and it was like I no longer had a chance to make my own decision. I mean if she told me to jump I would just ask how high, and that was just when I looked at her and I didn't even know her name.
This girl had the most beautiful eyes, just as blue as heave on a sunny day and they were as deep as the ocean, then it was her hair, it was just glow like it was made of gold, it was as blonde as I just could think of, I think that I just saw an angel.
Who am I kidding with, I definitely saw an angel, and she is talking to me, come on Ashley, focus what is she saying. I really need to focus on what she is saying.
"Hi, I hope that I'm at the right address, maybe you can tell me." The blonde said but that was something that I didn't really get.
"I'm sorry, I kind of zoned out, and so if it's not that big of a problem for you, you might be able to say it again." I said and I kind of blushed a bit, which was strange, I, Ashley Davies, don't blush and here I am standing in the hallway in my parents' house and I'm about to leave.
"No problem. I was just wondering if you could tell me if I'm on the right address."
"Sure, so what is the address?"
"Well, I don't really know the address by heart, but I'm supposed to be at a party that is held by the Davies."
"Well, miss then you have the right place. And it was nice to talk to you."
"Likewise."
I hope my letter reaches you in time (oh yeah)
Bring me a love I can call all mine (oh yeah)
Cuz I have been so good this year (oh)
I can't be alone under the mistletoe...
She's all I want in a big red bow
I was on my way out the door, I was literary on the stairs and about to close the door when this girl turned around and asked me something.
"I'm sorry but I didn't get your name."
"Sorry about that, its Ashley Davies."
"Davies?"
"Yeah."
"So why are you leaving, I guess that it's your parents that are the hosts of this party."
"Yes it is but I don't like these kinds of gatherings but I most show up."
"Okay, so then I l know why you're leaving and your name."
"What can I say, you are one lucky girl then. But I should really go."
"Okay, maybe we will see each other again." The blonde girl that I didn't have a name on said.
"I sure hope so but before I can say anything about that, why don't you tell me your name and I can give you a better answer to that."
"That seems fair."
"Well I thought so too, so tell me." I said and looked at nameless blonde, nameless at the moment for me at least.
"I'm Spencer Carlin and it was nice to meet you Ashley."
"Likewise, Spencer and if I may say your father is pretty amazing."
"Thank you and just so you know that is who he is, he is pretty amazing." And when she had said that to me she walked into the house and I walked out. And that was what it all was about. I had fallen in love when I first saw her even before I knew who she was and when she told me her name I was sure that she was the right one for me.
Santa can you hear me?
I have been so good this year
And all I want is one thing (yeah, yeah, yeah)
Tell me my true love is near
She's all I want, just for me
Underneath my Christmas tree
I'll be waiting here (oh yeah)
Santa, that's my only wish this year
I'm sitting in my car on the way home and I'm thinking that I met my true love to day and please Santa that let it be true. She was just so beautiful and she was looking like an angel. And the way she talked to me was just so amazing and when I looked at her for the first time I had lost my breath.
She must be my true love, Spencer Carlin, why wasn't she at the party earlier.
Ahh...Oh Santa, can you hear me, oh, oh Santa
Well She's all I want, just for me
Underneath my Christmas tree
I'll be waiting here (oh yeah)
Santa that's my only wish this year
I had entered my own apartment and I had trouble to forgetting the blonde, Spencer. I was just laying on the couch and thinking about her. I wonder if she felt the same, I mean I felt this electric shock when or hands touch. That was just how I had imagined how it would be to meet my true love. At that moment I heard a faint knocking on my door, I just had to get up and open the door, I just hope that it's not any of those Christmas carols once again.
When I opened the door she stood there, Spence Carlin.
"I'm sorry was the first thing that left her mouth."
"As far I know, you don't have anything to be sorry about." I said to her, I was shocked to see her at my door but I was really happy that she was here.
"What I meant was that I'm sorry to disturb you but you see, there was one thing that I forget to do when I met you just before you left your patents house."
"What did you forget?" How hard I tried to think about it I couldn't remember what it could be.
"I forgot to do this." Was the only thing she said and then she just grabbed my face and closed the distance that was between us, and gave me a kiss right on the lips. Before I even had a chance to react to what she was doing she broke the kiss. "I'm sorry, but I really needed to do that, and I normally don't do that." She said and she had so much more to say or so I thought and this time I wanted her just to shot her up and there was just one thing that I could think of. This time it was my turn to close the distance that were between the two of us. This was a much gentler kiss but she did also realize that it wasn't just her that wanted this and as we broke apart this time all I could say was.
"You don't have anything to be sorry about." And for the third time in the last ten minutes we kissed one more time, and I was tracing the shape of her lower lip and asking for entrance, and at the same time I didn't want to force anything, I just wanted to take my time. My asking for entrance was something that she more than willingly granted me and our tongues were dueling for dominance and I gave in after awhile. And this time as we broke apart it was cause we both needed some air, this has truly been the best party that my parents have had in years, and I'm really glad that I had a chance to meet Spence before I left and I'm truly happy that she decided to come here.
Santa that's my only wish this year
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