Hey guys,
I know I should update my other stories, but this came into my mind. I didn't give up on my other stories only though you know. ;)
The song is "Breathe in, breathe out" by Mat Kearney.
It sets at the end of season 1 when Addie comes to Seattle.
Hope you'll like it and review.
Wish you all a happy new year (... I know it's a little too late ...).
Love Mariella
Breathe in, breathe out
Breathe in, breathe out
Tell me all of your doubts
Everybody bleeds this way, just the same
Breathe in, breathe out
Move on and break down
If everyone goes away, I will stay
We push and pull
And I fall down sometimes
And I'm not letting go
You hold the other line
Cause there is a light in your eyes, in your eyes
Hold on, hold tight
If I'm out of your sight
And everything keeps moving on, moving on
Hold on, hold tight
Make it through another night
In every day there comes a song with the dawn
We push and pull
And I fall down sometimes
And I'm not letting go
You hold the other line
Cause there is a light in your eyes, in your eyes
There is a light in your eyes, in your eyes
Breathe in and breathe out
Breathe in and breathe out
Breathe in and breathe out
Breathe in and breathe out
Look left, look right
To the moon and the night
Everything under the stars is in your arms
Cause there is a light in your eyes, in your eyes
There is a light in your eyes, in your eyes
There is a light in your eyes, in your eyes
"Addison, I want you to make this operation."
"Richard, I'm not sure about coming to Seattle …"
"You're the best damn surgeon Addie and this is a TTTS. Please come."
Addison sighed, "Ok, but there's something I have to tell you …"
Three days later Addison arrived in Seattle. It was very late when she entered SGH. Nobody was there except Richard and a few doctors and nurses. He smiled at Addison when she entered his office.
"Hey, how are you doing?", he hugged her tightly.
"Fine."
"Now tell me how you're really doing."
She sat down, "I'm holding myself together … it will become better."
"Addie if you …"
"Seriously Richard, let's talk about something else. I heard my dear husband has a little girlfriend here. Tell me about her."
"Addison …", Richard sighed, but gave in, "she's an intern here. Her name is Meredith Grey, she's Elise' daughter."
Addison nodded, "Yeah … Richard you know I'm really tired … I think I will get a cab and go to my hotel."
"Ok, see you tomorrow."
"See you tomorrow."
The next morning SGH gossip mile only talked about a tall red haired woman, who looked like a super model when she entered yesterday the office of the Chief, but Derek Shepherd was so deep into work that he didn't hear it, because if he would, he would have known who arrived yesterday.
Bailey and her interns just ended rounds, "O'Malley you're with Shepherd, Karev and Stevens pit, Yang you're with Burke and Grey you're with Montgomery-Shepherd."
Meredith looked up in surprise, who was Montgomery-Shepherd. Bailey noticed her look, "She had a talk with Burke, so you can go together", she said before she left.
Meredith and Christina went down the hall to find Dr. Burke and the mysterious doctor. It didn't take long when they hear Preston Burke laugh. They looked at each other bewildered, normally he never laughed, when they were thinking they never heard him laugh during work. They crossed the corner and saw him standing with a beautiful tall red head.
"That's Montgomery-Shepherd … they have to be kidding us", Meredith whispered to Christina.
When Burke saw them, he addressed the gorgeous red head, "Addison that are Dr. Grey and Dr. Yang, Drs. Grey and Yang that's Dr. Montgomery-Shepherd from New York. She's here for the TTTS and I heard you are the lucky intern who is allowed to assist her Grey."
Meredith nodded. Now it was Addison's turn, "Thanks Preston. See you later", she went down the corridor, "Grey are you coming? I don't have the whole day …"
Meredith hurried up. Now was the first time she wondered about the similarity to Derek's name. Maybe she was his sister or something. Meredith noticed how good she was in her job and that she looked like a super model. That really wasn't fair.
"Dr Grey, I need the results really fast … can you get them", Addison addressed Meredith, who was deep in thoughts.
"Sure", she only answered and left. Addison sighed. So that was the new girlfriend of her husband. She was the Anti-Addison. She sighed again, she could have expected that. She looked back at the chart when Derek crossed the corner. He noticed the flash of red hair and looked up. He saw her. Why was she here? He went over to her.
"Addison, what are you doing here?"
"You would know if you would have answered one of my calls."
"Addison!"
"Relax Derek, I'm just here for the TTTS and I brought papers with me."
"Papers?"
"Divorce papers."
Derek was shocked, he could have expected this, but still he was shocked. He looked at her closely. She seemed to be thinner than he reminded her and she looked more stressed, even if she perfectly know how to hide it, he saw it. She seemed much weaker and a little bit smaller, "Addie what …"
"Don't care, it's none of your business", she answered fast.
"Addison …"
"You didn't care in the past why should you care now?"
"Addison, what happened back in New York wasn't my fault", he now went angry.
"Oh yeah, poor Derek, you're the one who was cheated on, you know what. I never really cheated, because I haven't a husband back in New York. I had a husband years ago, but he stopped coming home and stopped caring. He didn't even notice … whatever ... send me the papers back when you signed them."
Derek was in shock, "He didn't noticed what?" He grabbed her arm and noticed now even more she lost way to much weight.
"He didn't even notice his wife has cancer", Addison quietly and left.
Derek was frozen on the spot, she couldn't have cancer. She was Addison. She just couldn't have cancer.
"Addison", he screamed after her, but she didn't turn around, "Addison, damn, stop you're my wife!"
Now everyone was looking at them. In this moment Meredith appeared with the test results. She looked between the two Shepherds, they had to be kidding her. She looked at Derek with a hurt look, but he didn't really noticed her, he just had eyes for his wife. His wife who had cancer.
"Oh Addison …", he went over to her, "I'm sorry … could we … could we talk in private."
Addison shrugged her shoulders and they went to Derek's office. When the door closed he looked at her closely, "How long …"
"I wanted to tell you that night … but you didn't come home, so instead I told Mark and he … he cared."
"Addison I'm .."
"No don't be, I'm getting better. I was operated a month ago and the chemo started a week ago. I think I will shave my hair soon, because I couldn't stand losing them. Mark's great, he supports me and he waits for me back in NY, there's nothing you have to do … just sign the papers and sent them back. I will only stay for two days to do the TTTS and then I won't bother you and your … new girlfriend anymore."
Before Derek could say anything, she left. Addison avoided him the next days and before Derek could talk to her again, she had left. After she left he thought a lot. He hadn't seen Meredith often lately.
Two weeks after Addison left Meredith came to talk to him.
"Derek can we talk?"
"Sure."
"Was she really … I mean."
"Yeah, she's my wife. I met her in med school and we got married before we became interns. I left her … because I was furious."
"What would you make so furious to leave suddenly", Meredith asked noisy.
"It doesn't matter. It's just … I'm sorry, I never meant to hurt you, but I have to. I will leave tomorrow, I love her, I noticed that now. I can live without her, but I don't want to. I'm sorry Meredith."
Meredith nodded and Derek tried to hug her.
She looked at him, "Just leave …"
And he left
Two days later Derek stood in front of his, Addison's and Mark's practice in Manhattan. They were so proud when they were successful enough to open their own practice and a lot of people came there. They were a good team. He missed that, he missed his best friend and he missed his wife even more. He entered the practice. It still looked the same the only difference was that his office was empty. He knocked softly at Addison's door.
"Come in", he heard her voice.
He entered the room, she turned around and was shocked, "Derek I …"
He looked at her, she looked better not as pale as in Seattle. She had her hair really short. He always thought how she would look like with that short hair since she told him that she would cut it. She looked really good.
"Addie, hey."
"What are you doing here."
You forgot something in Seattle."
"What would that be?"
"You forgot me."
"Derek, I …"
"Addison, listen, please, you can throw me out afterward, but please listen to me first."
"Ok."
"I missed you so much. I'm sorry for being absent. I was a jerk and I had no right to judge you like this. When you told me you had cancer I was so scared. Addison I can't make this without you. You're my life. You're my wife. I love you more than everything. Please give me, give us another try. I promise you, you won't regret it."
Addison looked at him for a while, "You know I love you too much for my own sanitary Derek Shepherd."
"Is this a yes."
"Yes, you jerk. Just promise not screw it up again."
"Promise you. I'll be by your side until my dying day. I only breathe in and out because of you. I love you Addison Adrienne Forbes Montgomery-Shepherd."
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