It was another sleepless night in some old run down motel. The heater is broken and it doesn't help me whatsoever.I can hear Dean breathing lightly next to me. How is he not scared? He's going to hell. He's the last person that should go to hell. That is when the reckless idea came into my head.

I slowly get up out of the bed not wanting to wake him. I found my discarded jeans on the floor and slid them on. I throw up my hair quickly and put on my jacket. Then the next sound I heard the rustling of bed sheets.

He turned his body to face me.

"Where are you going at four in the morning?", he asked me sleepily.

I said the first thing that came to mind.

" Feminine needs. Sorry, I didn't mean to wake you. You mind if i borrow the car?

In all honesty, I hate lying. Especially to him. Without saying anything, he placed his hand on the nightstand feeling for the keys in the thick darkness. He tossed them to me ,and the next second I was out the door. As soon as the impala engine roared to life, I sped of the motel parking lot to the nearest crossroads. The only thing set in my brain is: Get him out of the deal.

One year ago, I was living in New York getting ready to go to college. That's when he came into my life. I knew as soon as I saw him it wouldn't be the same.I was involved in this hunt at an old museum close to where I lived. When the job was over, I knew I wasn't ready to say goodbye. I didn't think he wanted to either. Little did I know he had other plans. Dean and his brother dropped my friend and I off at the closest hospital to get fixed up due to what the hunt did to us. The short-lived attraction was over. Tiffany and I stayed at one of her friend's house that night until Dean was knocking on their door. Turns out there was a poltergeist in their house. Some would call that fate. I know I do. You see he doesn't believe in fate. He believes you can control all things that you put your mind to. I thought I'd be angry for him leaving. But I understood. he has a job to do. When the job was over, he asked me to come with him. He didn't have to ask me twice. I didn't want to be that person who would ask herself "what if" over and over again after he would be gone.

That whole night while laying there with him I could only think what would Tiffany say. Sam hurt her real bad by leaving and she reacted rationally. How would it look by tomorrow I'm getting in the car with him and his brother. any human being knows all actions have consequences. I lost my friend that day. She thought it was better if I stayed behind with her since Dean left once, he could do it again. Nevertheless, I still chose Dean. That I know wasn't right choosing a guy over a friend, but he wasn't like any guy I've ever met. The thing is was she was right. He did hurt me. I just hope she is happier than I am now.

I drove to a stop at the crossroads. I put everything I had into the box and buried it. A gust of wind hit me and that is when I heard a voice.

"Damn, who would've thought Dean Winchester's slut would be paying me a visit," the demon said with a smile.

" I know you heard this before, but let dean out of his deal. Take my soul. Give me his time left and he walks free," I said pleadingly.

" He's already been through so much already."

The red-eyed son of bitch fake sobbed.

" That's a nice offer , but a deal is a deal. That soul is that kind of deal that's too sweet to resist."

" Sorry sweetheart, there's nothing you can do". In a blink of an eye he was gone.

The drive back I couldn't stop crying. the tears just kept flowing no matter how hard I tried to swallow my emotions about it. I went to the store and grabbed some tampons to make my drive look legit. When I came back, thankfully, they were still sound asleep. I Got back into my pjs and tried to imagine the time when life was simple.

The next morning, we were getting ready to move into the next town. I took a shower and sam went out to grab breakfast. when i got out of the shower, I saw Dean at the end of my bed looking at me in disbelief.

"What?", I asked.

"Ya know it doesn't take a half hour to go to the nearest convenient store," he said raising his voice a bit.

Before I could say anything else he cut me right off.

" You went to the crossroads last night didn't you? I'm a lot of things , but one thing I'm not is stupid.", he continued as he got up from the bed.

" You caught me Dean. I'm sorry that I want you to live. When you made that deal, didn't go through that thick skull of yours that you're going to hell?" my eyes started filling with tears once again.

" Dean, you're going to hell in four days. you don't know frustrating it is trying to save you when we can't! You act like you don't wanna be here anymore. with your brother. With me."

He looked at me deep in the eyes pulled me into a hug.

" It's not that. I'm at peace with it. I've accepted that I'm going into the sauna.", and laughed.

I pushed away from him.

" Do you have to make everything into a joke!", I said wiping my eyes.

"His eyes softened. " I'm sorry I know this is hard."

" You don't know. The hardest part is the fact that I love you. I can't believe I'm about to say this. I wish I never left that day with you."

Dean stood in utter shock and tried to stop me from leaving the room.

" You're really going to go there," his voice breaking up.

" Yea. cuz maybe in some round about way if you didn't ask me to come with you, Sam wouldn't of got stabbed by that asshole Jake. And your soul would still be in tact." I was suprising myself by what I was saying.

" You know I was expecting this. You leaving. I 'm just surprised you decided to stay this long." Dean was starting to grab all my stuff together.

" what are you doing?', I looked at him confused.

" I'm sorry. I don't want you to be here when a hell-hound slashes me up. You should be home. Experiencing normal again. Having a normal relationship."

Dean zipped my bag up and said, " For what it's worth, I never regretted asking you to come with me. I'll meet you in the car."