I was taking my nighttime walk, and it was SUPPOSED to make me feel better about myself, Degrassi, and just my life in general.
I strolled passed the restaurants, the gelato stands, of course cold stone creamery… (Eewwww!),
And got to the bakery.
I'm walking, thinking: I really shouldn't go in.
But okay. I decided I'll go for it. Try a piece of fresh bread… only once!
I close my eyes and walked inside slowly. I started to go faster and faster as I got more nervous. I'm almost running now. I can't stop myself. I open my eyes…
And -
*BOOM!*
I collapsed onto the ground of the bakery, hard.
I lay there for a minute, unable to recognize anything.
I breathed in and out for about 5 minutes, and slowly understood what was happening around me.
I shook off the fuzziness to see Sean Cameron standing right before my eyes.
It lasted for a quick second and he said:
"Umm – sorry Emma, Are you okay?"
A shiver ran through my spine.
"Yeah, hi Sean, uh, I'm fine."
…
I was skinny. Too skinny. I knew it. I haven't seen him in about 6 months, and he was staring at me.
His eyes skipped from my face, to my hips, to my legs.
That face of his was different. His expression changed dramatically.
It was a whole new him.
The face that was looking towards me was one I have NEVER in my life seen from Sean Cameron.
It was worry.
He was scared. Scared FOR ME. He knew something was wrong with me.
It was such a face.
…
"Emma" he whispered.
"Sean" I repeated.
He came closer to me, and hugged my tiny, fragile body.
"Emma, let's go. Let's get out of this bakery and go somewhere. We should talk." He was still whispering.
"Alright." I whispered back.
"Can I take you somewhere?" he asked innocently.
"Sure."
"But It's a surprise." He smiled and gave me a bandana for a blindfold.
I smiled back.
"I'm guessing that's a yes."
I nodded slowly.
He tied the bandana around my eyes tightly.
He took my hand and we got into his car.
…
We were driving for about 20 minutes or so.
And we finally reached the surprise location.
"Take off the blindfold." He said.
I took it off cautiously.
We stood before this Beautiful garden with a waterfall.
It was AMAZING. I loved it.
"Oh Sean! I love it. It's so pretty!"
"Yeah, I thought you'd like it. A few friends and I discovered it while taking some road trip."
"Wow…"
"So you wanted to talk?"
"Umm yeah."
"Well. What's going on?"
"Here, sit down on this rock" He sighed.
Now I was worried.
I sat down.
He squished in next to me and whispered…
"I still have feelings for you, and seeing you like this, it really worries me. I want to know what's going on – truly."
We sat there together for an hour.
And he listened carefully when I poured my heart out about everything.
My eating disorder, how I was so freakishly worried about him and Jay stealing,
And literally EVERYTHING.
"Sean?"
"Yeah Emma?"
"You've changed" I said slowly.
He was looking at me like he loved me so much. And I knew that he cared more than I thought he did.
We stared into each other's eyes for a long time, and he kissed me.
It was a fresh start for both of us.
