I should hate you, I really should
Gintoki POV to "Waiting for you" Thanks to Risa9559 for having the great idea of writing a Gintoki POV :)
For a long time I have only been used to loving without my love being returned. I thought it would be normal for me to keep going like this, but after a while there was someone stalking me! How should a normal person react to something as crazy as this? Is this a consequence of something I did before? Damn, after following someone myself, now I am the one who gets followed? What is this – a stupid Love-Comedy? It would be okay if it was a hot chick, but no, all I get is a mayonnaise-addicted police officer.
Well, Hijikata-kun, was it? Stop it already! It's bothering me to be pierced by the looks you give me all the time - you got me as far as jumping behind trash piles the moment I see a police car – people start believing I'm a terrorist… that's the job of the person I love, not mine! I'm just a perfectly fine yorozuya guy who is in love with a terrorist leader.
Three weeks after starting my successful "Avoid-My-Stalker" Tactics, I came across some interesting information… Personally, I believe that one should not try to change the habits or opinions of the person one is in love with because they are a part of them and should just be accepted – but if that person tries to blow up your damn town you should do something about it! And not having confessed your feelings is totally unrelated in this case!
Mayo-idiot, could it be you don't know what a stalker has to do? Even if you are a police officer being a stalker does not mean you can go slash someone's love interest! And definitely not in front of my eyes. But, why… am I hiding behind this broken wall instead of letting you know that I know? Even after sitting there for hours until Zura found me and asked what happened; I just don't know why.
It has been a long time since I spend some time with you. You even showed up at my place and dragged me to this café. Next time you buy me a strawberry parfait, leave that guilty look at home it ruins the taste. Although you don't say anything I can tell that you want to say something about that incident with Takasugi. Maybe you planned to slash him the way you did or do you want to cover it up saying it was just an accident? Hell, you even stabbed him through his heart to make sure your job was done. I should hate you, I really should. Something inside of me must surely feel the need to avenge Takasugi's death. Yet there is nothing; I can't seem to hate you…Because I can understand somehow. Right now, it is definitely not love, but this feeling seems to be... acceptance.
