That is a little one shot about what Klaus hallucinated. Elena's mental torture remind him of his own so he started hallucinated again and Caroline tries to save him before it's to late. I wanted to write this because my heart literally broke when i heard that he was suffering for so long. Elena couldn't handle it for a day. That he still has humanity is a miracle. So this is dedicated to one of the best TV characters, KLAUS. Hope you enjoy it and don't forget to review.

It was harder to sleep today.

Elena's hallucinations reminded me of that time.

The time i was the one suffering for them.

Just the thought of that period made me shiver.

52 years, 4 months and 9 days.

I could never forget them.

It was the only phase in my life where i actually felt time.

I couldn't find peace anywhere.

They hunted me in my dreams and it was even worse when i was awake.

I tried to get this thoughts out of my head.

I tried to sleep.

''Having trouble sleeping boy?'' i heard a voice a say.

I turned around immediately.

''Who is there?'' i said but couldn't see anyone.

Thank god it was my mind playing tricks.

''I'm right here.'' the voice said and this time when i turned i could spot him.

''Michael.'' i said in fear.

''You are not real.''

''Maybe but that makes it even more fun.''

'I didn't kill the hunter you bastard. You are not supposed to be here.''

''First you are the bastard Nicklaus and second i think 52 years damaged your brain enough. Now just the reminder of what you went through can bring us back.''

''You couldn't kill me and you can't kill me now.''

''That's a shame boy cause your existence is one that no one will miss not even your precious Rebekah. How is it you are here a billion years and you managed to have no one to cry for your loss. Must be that bastard blood. I love to pour it out of you.''

''It's your fault you made me like this. But i am not afraid now your words can't hurt me anymore.''

He took an stake and hit me in the stomach.

I screamed as the pain was spreading.

''But my actions can.'' he said and drove the stake near my heart.

I gathered all my strength and throw him at the wall on the other side of the room.

''Nicklaus'' said a woman voice

''Mother'' i said my voice breaking.

''It's me, son. It's me.''

''You came to kill me again?''

''I came here to set you free. I know you are tired. You lived to long. And you were always running.

Always hiding. Always trying to find a way to protect yourself. You didn't really line son. This wasn't a life. It was a torture worse than this. And why do you need to continue right now. For who are you living?''

''There is things worth living even if they are not people. I will not give them the satisfaction to watch me die. One day my siblings and i will be as we were.''

''You know that could never happen. Even love in the family stops sometimes.''

''You would know. You let Michael bit to the ground and i never heard a gentle word, i never received a gentle touch to south my pain. You would kiss them goodnight and you will pass my bed in fear Michael see that you cared from me. I was always alone.''

''No you weren't.'' said another voice.

My mother was gone and Tatia had taken her place.

''You had me for a while.''

''I never had you.'' i said and the old anger was boiling in me.

''I made you happy didn't i? I show you there was love that someone could care about you.''

''And then you showed me that was a lie. You went with Elijah.''

''It was your fault. I saw the real you. Everyone does after a while. He was a true man. You are not a man Nicklaus, you are a monster. How could could i love you went even your family couldn't. There is something wrong with you Nik, from the day you were born. End it and fro the sake of all of us, for your sake.''

''No, I've been through this before. Ir's your fault not mine. I didn't hurt any of you.''

But you hurt me. You killed me.'' said a voice i could never forget.

''Henrik.'' i said and fell to my knees.

Not him, i couldn't bare this pain again.

''Big brother, you killed me. I was counting on you, you should had protected me. It should heve been you who died not me. I haven't live at all. Why didn't you saved me? I trusted you, i loved you and you betrayed me. Now you live and i am nothing but dust. I deserved to live more than you.''

''What do you want me to do Henrik? I will do anything. I am so sorry. If i could changed it i would. I would take your place in a second.'' i said and tears fell from my eyes.

''Find a way to die but until then...'' he said and gave me the stake Michael had before.

I knew what he wanted.

I drove the stake through my heart.

I murmured that i was sorry before every strike.

It didn't kill me of course but that's what he wanted to feel pain.

When i woke up, I sliced the veins in my hand.

Blood, my blood was all around me, i was covered by it.

I continued inflicted pain in myself.

The stake had gone to my stomach, legs, everywhere i could.

I deserved it.

I shouldn't have let him die.

It was my responsibility.

''Our brother was always your weak spot wasn't it'' i looked up and saw Fin.

''Should i be jealous?'' i heard Kol say and saw him sitting in my chair with his legs in my desk.

I felt a pain in my back and understood that someone had staked me from behind.

''You are lucky, the more he cares about someone the more he hurts them.'' said Elijah and pulled the stake from my back.

They were all in front of me now.

''You left me in a box for 900 years and you didn't even mourn me. You took away from my only chance of happiness. You took me from Sage.''

''I cared i just didn't want to show it. I f i let myself feel the pain will consume me.''

''I don't believe you Nic, you had me in that box for 100 year and you want me to simply forgive you?'' said Kol

''You took everything from me. Tatia, Katherine, my family. You kept me away from all of them. You are not our brother anymore Nicklaus. You haven't be for a long time. Michael was right you were never part of this family. Never.'' said Elijah looking into my eyes.

''STOP it. Shut the fuck up. Be GONE all of you. LEAVE ME ALONE.'' i screamed

And they were gone.

No one was here.

I felt weak from the loss of blood.

I had to feed, i had to kill.

It was the only thing that could numb the pain.

The only thing that turned off my feelings.

I run outside covered in blood.

I didn't care who saw me.

I hide in a dark alley waiting for someone to get out of the grill so i could satisfy my hunger.

''You always did that Nik.'' i heard her say.

Oh, no it wasn't over.

''You always killed in an attempt to block the hallucinations. Sometimes it worked.''

''Go ahead and say that you hate me sister. I am used to it anyway.''

''But i love you Nick'' she said and placed a hand in my cheek.

''You are my brother and i would do anything for you. That's why i say this even though it hurts me.

You have to let go Nick. I'll be better off without you. I know you try but in the end you only cause me pain. You hurt me all the time. I know it hurts you too when you do it but you don't stop. I loose others people love because i stay by you side. I could have find true love bu now, i could have friends, i could be with Kol, Fin, Elijah, i could have my family. You are standing in the way Nick. Please set me free!''

''I...I never meant it to b this way.'' i said as i saw to men and a woman get out of the bar.

''I know. Kill them Nick. That's what you are good at.. And then kill the person that should really die. YOU.'' she said and dissappeared in the thin air.

I didn't waist anytime.

I compelled them to be quiet and stay were they were.

I had drained the first one in a second.

I was drinking from the second man when i heard another voice.

''That's what you want me to love?'' Caroline said

Her voice was angelic, just looking at her made me felt weak.

She was casting light to the darkest depths of my soul just by standing there.

''Why did i see you?'' i asked her

''Probably because you care for me.''

''I don't you are just a fascination, nothing more.''

''Well me being here says otherwise. I ask you again is this what you want me to love? A monster?''

''No, you deserve better then me. No one can love me, no one should love me.''

''And why is that?'' she asked looking serious

''Because i don't deserve love, i don't deserve happiness. I am beast. Always was, always will be. I can change that no matter how hard i try.'' i said and snapped the man's head.

''That's the spirit. Was it so hard? You finally admitted it. You finally see yourself as you truly are. But you can't stay away from me. You have tried but you always crave for more, for my light, my touch. It's like i am your addiction. So how can you save me from you?'' she said smiling

''I'll kill myself, i 'll find the stake and drove it through my heart.'' i said

''You can't do that. Klaus come back. Klaus listen to me. I ma right here.''

I looked at her.

It was Caroline again but she was dressed differently.

''I am not a hallucination.'' she said and moved closer.

''But you told me to kill myself.'' i said confused

''That's who you were seeing now. You saw me. But that wasn't me. It was a hallucination Klaus, the real me is right here.''

''How do you know i see them.''

''Don't you remembered. You hybrids heard you scream. You were talking like someone was there. Stefan tried to help you but you screamed to leave you alone and then you run. We are all looking for you since then.'' she said and was on her knees too, standing just opposite from me in the ground.

''Why would you look from me? Why would you care?''

''Because you said you were going to kill yourself.''

''That's what you all wish. And you will be safe from me, i won't come near you, i won't destroy like everything else in my life.''

''Have you lost your mind Klaus. Don't you remember? If you die, I die. Do you want be to die Klaus. You said there was a whole world out there waiting for me. You said you'll saw me. You promised.''

''I... I can't think right now.'' i said i didn't want her to die but i had to.

''Then just feel'' she said and put her hands in both sides of my face and rested her forehead in mine.

''This is real.'' she remarked and i felt calm, safe.

My breathing slowed and was following the rhythm of hers.

I felt warm were she touched me.

I felt her breath on my skin.

I was ready to come back when they hit me.

It was all of them.

My family, Tatia, her.

They were all screaming in my head, reminding me the reason i have to die.

Only one word was repeated in my mnd.

Death.

My death.

'AAAAAA'' I screamed and tried to pull away.

''No'' she said and did something no one could foresee.

She kissed me.

She crushed her lips on mine in a last attempt to bring me back.

The moment our lips touched every voice stopped.

Everything stopped the only thing i could feel was her.

Her taste as her tongue was dancing with mine.

Her hands were were in my hair pulling me closer, pulling me back to reality, bringing me back home.

I kissed her back fiercely, my hands exploring her face.

That was what i needed to stop them.

Not killings, her.

Her touch, her kiss, her words.

She was the thing i would leave for.

She was h e3ilewsh to my sins.

The beauty to my beast.

I was less a monster around her.

She pulled away and i let her.

''Are you ok? Are you back?'' she asked worried

''That kiss could bring back even the dead love'' i said and smirked

''I told you, you were a glorious kisser.''

''Oh, for heavens sake, you are back. I already want to punch you again.''

''Of course i am back. You still own me. We haven't had hot vampire-hybryd sex yet.''

''And will never have. I only kissed so i could save everyone.''

'I know, sweetheart.''

''I have to go.'' she said and was ready to leave.

''Wait.'' i said and came in front of her.

I clapsed one strand of her hair an put it behind her ear.

''Thanks, i was really lost out here.'' I said, kissed her cheek and run before she could react.

My torture was over and i knew what to do if i went through it again.

I just had to think of her.

That's it. I hope you liked it and loved Klaus even more cause after hearing what he gone through for 52 years i did (if that's even possible). I hope Klaroline happens soon because Klaus need live in his life. He deserves it. Please review. Can't wait to hear your opinion and love for Klaus!