Disclaimer: I do not own any of the characters on the Gilmore Girls although I wouldn't mind owning Jess.. Yep, that would be pretty nice* Anyways this story is totally fictional and of my own devices, so for the love of all that is holy. don't sue me.

A/N : This is my first fan fiction so I would really appreciate reviews if you have time. This takes place during Rory's senior year. She is still together with Dean but is pining for Jess who is with Shane.



Rory Gilmore stared lazily at the sky. It was 9:00 p.m. and she was tiredly waiting for her mother's return from one of her disastrous dates. Sometimes Rory felt like her mother was destructive when it came to relationships. Ever since the fall-out between Lorelai and Chris, it seemed like her mom dated all the wrong ones while pining for a certain coffee- maker-

LUKE. Man did her mom have it bad. even IF she was in denial.. Speaking of denial.

Lorelai: "Rory! Babe, where are you?"

Rory could hear her mothers' voice echo throughout the house.

Rory: "I'm in the backyard."

She could hear her mothers footsteps come up from behind her and then the banter started.

Lorelai: "You wouldn't believe the idiot I went out with tonight. talk about-"

Rory stared at the stars as her mother went on in her usual tirade of a doomed date. As much as she wanted to be interested in what her mother was saying, her thoughts lingered to a mysterious boy with dark hair. Jess. He was an ongoing topic that flooded her thoughts day in and day out. She knew she had no right no to think about him. fantasize about him. but she just couldn't help it. So much of her wanted to turn back the hands of time to that fateful day when she kissed Jess and instead of running from him, she wished she had stayed.

But she couldn't and it killed her.

Silently as her mother rattled on, tears fell from Rory's face. She felt incomplete and in only a matter of months she'd be on her way to Harvard, with so much left unsaid between her and Jess. She had to fix this.

Rory: Mom, I am going out.

And with that, Rory got up leaving a very confused Lorelai behind.

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Spoilers * Next Chapter: Rory and Jess have a huge fight and trust me it ain't pretty.*

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