This is just a short mini fic that I wrote a while back and decided I may as well publish it. It's only a few chapters long and I really hope you enjoy it. I'll try to post a chapter a day since it's completely written.
"You know, at some point we're really going to have to stop this." I said as I sat up and snapped my bra around my back. It was almost a month after our fruitless trip to Denver, and ever since the ice machine I'd been fooling around with Damon. I said we should stop every single time, but every single time I broke my word and fell back into bed with him. Technically there was nothing wrong with what we were doing, Stefan and I were kaput because of his ripper status. He was slowly becoming himself again but finding out about me and Damon could be detrimental to his progress.
"For how long this time?" Damon asked idly from his spot in his bed. He wasn't concerned about me stopping this ever since Denver when I gave into my feelings for him in spectacular fashion. Jeremy was gone just long enough for me to get some kick ass sex out of him. It wasn't supposed to happen but at the same time I didn't regret it. I didn't regret this either, aside from the fact that it was completely secret. Not a single person in our lives knew about us. We met when we knew everyone else wasn't around, either here or at my house. We slept together, then we went our separate ways, only communicating like we did before the sex.
"Doesn't it feel just a little bit wrong to be sneaking around behind everyone we knows back?" I asked him even though I knew what his answer would be. Mine was normally the same, except when I had these moments of uncertainty. Every other moment except for that time after we finished making love, I was totally cool with being fuck buddies with Damon.
"No, it's not any of their business what we do in our rather limited spare time. If we choose to spend it in rather naughty situations together, then that's our prerogative. You're single, I'm single. There is nothing wrong with what we're doing." He told me sitting up and sliding closer to my side of his bed. I was sitting on the edge, still only wearing my bra and panties. I hadn't gotten around to putting the rest of my clothes on yet. I always hated getting dressed after our time together. It meant that our all too brief moment of peace was over and it was time to go back to our regularly scheduled drama. All I wanted was a whole weekend or even a whole day just with him so he could make me feel the things that he made me feel in those single solitary hours we managed to find with each other. I was dependent on him to make me feel like a normal teenage girl, even though normal teenagers didn't sleep with vampires. I needed Damon to keep my sanity in check, that's why I could never end what we're doing. I'm in too deep.
"I know you're right. I was just wallowing in all the secrets." I told him smiling at him over my shoulder.
"We could stop keeping it a secret." He mentioned idly. I knew he was into this for more than just the sex, but for my part I didn't know what I felt. It was better for me right now to just pretend that it was just sex.
"No we can't. No one would understand what we're doing. I like our little bubble. Besides Stefan is far too unhinged to know about this." I replied with a sigh. I reached down to the floor and grabbed my top. I had to get going or at least get dressed and be downstairs with Damon in the next few minutes. Stefan could be home at any time and getting caught would quite literally be the worst thing in the world. It was a small miracle that we hadn't been caught yet.
"I like our bubble too. Besides it does make it all sorts of sexy having no one know about us. It's our selfish little secret." He decided and I knew we were back on the same page. It was always like this afterwards. Damon always wanted to go public because he loves me and I love that he loves me. It makes me feel cherished, like no matter what he'll put nothing above me. I hate thinking like that, but when you've lived the life that I have, it feels good to be number one. But then after thinking about it for a while he always goes back to the Damon that I know and care about, the one who is more than willing to just be friends with benefits with me.
Once I was dressed, Damon put his jeans back on and followed me out of his room. It wasn't uncommon for him to only be partially clothed in my presence, no one would think any different.
"I hear Stefan's car." Damon told me as I sat down on the couch. It wouldn't shock Stefan to see me here, I've been here more often lately than I've been at home. It's not just about the sex, it's about the fact that I feel safe when I'm with Damon. A few seconds later he was striding through the door, he offered me a smile when he came in.
"Elena, it's great to see you." Stefan said. He'd been trying really hard to be stable around me. He was trying to prove that he was still the guy that I fell in love with. It's been hard to tell him that ship has sailed. I don't want to send him off the deep end again. He's still unpredictable, but at least he's not the guy who threatened to drive me off of Wickery Bridge. The night Damon saved me from Wickery Bridge was the first time after Denver that I slept with him. It was the beginning of what had started between us. I never thought that Wickery Bridge would be a catalyst for a good change in my life.
"It's good to see you too." I said politely.
"What are you doing here? Are you waiting for me?" He asked inserting some hope into his tone.
"I'm just here with Damon. There's so much going on out there, it's only with him that I feel safe right now." I admitted honestly.
"I can protect you too, Elena. I did for a long time. Don't you remember when it was Damon you needed protection from?" He demanded.
"I also remember that now it's you I've needed protection from. You can't judge your brother especially not now when he's turned his life around." I defended Damon. I found myself doing that a lot lately. Damon and I had become somewhat of a package deal. Not only were we intimate, but we were the best of friends. We were partners to the extent that we depend on each other for pretty much everything.
"People don't really change Elena. You of all people should know that." Stefan said bored.
"Maybe they do. But I really have to head out. My brother is at home and I hate leaving him alone all the time." I told him standing up.
"I'll come with you." Damon offered standing up too. There were too many big bads out there to let me go alone. It was never really clear when one of them was going to spring from the shadows.
"Maybe just drop me off at home this time. If you keep coming home with me someone is bound to get suspicious." I said when we were in his car on our way back to my place.
"Are you sure?" He asked.
"I'm sure. I don't want anyone to find out. It's kind of nice having this secret selfish bubble to escape to." I told him squeezing his hand.
"Yeah, and you probably should spend some time with Jeremy too. I can't have you all to myself, despite how awesome that would be." He said with a sigh.
"I have an idea." I started with a grin on my face. I was getting attached, it was easier to admit that when he wasn't asking me to go public with him. For all intents and purposes we were dating, we were just doing it secretly.
"Good idea or bad idea?" He asked carefully. I could totally understand why Damon would be cautious when it came to me having an idea. There weren't too many times he agreed with any plan I made, I knew this one would be different.
"I was thinking that you're right. We're more than just fuck buddies, no matter how much I want to convince myself of that after we're done. I can't pretend but that doesn't mean that we can go public yet. We will eventually, just not right now. Anyway, I was thinking if we could come up with convincing enough lies maybe we should get away for a couple nights. Maybe Friday night and Saturday night, come home Sunday." I suggested.
"I really like the sound of that. Where would we go? "He asked.
"How about my family's lake house?" I suggested and he shrugged.
"Sounds good to me, what kind of lie do I need to come up with?" He asked when he turned onto my street.
"Some reason you have to head out of town for the weekend. I'm just going to tell my friends that I need to get away so I'm going to the lake house alone." I told him.
"What about when they ask who's protecting you?" Damon asked me and I nodded because I had thought about that.
"I'll tell them that the only vampires who had ever entered that house were you, Stefan and Caroline and none of you would hurt me. I'll also tell Care not to tell Stefan where I went. She'll tell him to give me some time." I explained and he nodded.
"You have this all thought out. I'm impressed." Damon said satisfied.
"You should be. A lot of thought went into planning that." I teased.
"We're taking separate vehicles I'm assuming?" He asked and I nodded.
"Both of our cars have to be gone to get away with this. When you get there, park your car somewhere no one will find it." I told him.
"I can do that." He agreed when he parked on the curb.
"Thanks for the ride." I said before getting out and heading into the house. I didn't look back or watch him leave, the illusion was still very important.