BellaPOV

The hole was still strong in my chest. It was always there, as if it were alive and breathing. Was it because I loved him too much? Did he just get bored of me? Is that why he left in the first place? Or was it because I was too much of a liability? I kept on thinking as I drove down to my after school job at Newton's selling camping supplies and other shit like that. Whatever.

It had gotten even worse since my best friend Jacob left me to fend for myself. He never cared about me, he didn't have to. He has Sam now.

Have I always been so bitchy? Or has my attitude gotten worse since… HE left? I didn't understand why I kept on thinking of him. A sudden wave of memories ran through my mind. I couldn't stand it. I doubled over in pain and started to cry. I didn't even pull over. My truck started to swerve right and left. I heard a horn honking and I tried to sit up. I was completely out of breath.

I felt the sudden impact of another truck hit my body. Then there was blackness.

JacobPOV

I walked behind the trees I took my clothes off. Stupid werewolf gene. If it weren't for the gene then I would be allowed to see Bella and love her the proper way. I hated the feeling of not having control.

I phased, using the anger and frustration. I felt the shimmering magic cover my body, allowing me to change. The slight film covered every part of my skin, it shimmered like a vampire's skin in the sunlight, casting beautiful rainbows here and there.

Nobody had noticed that I phased. Everyone was talking at once.

What should we do? What are alpha's orders? Is she okay? What will Jake Say? Will it cause him pain? Is she going to die? Is she going to live? How bad was she hurt?

These thoughts filled my head, I was drowning in them. They were like huge tsunamis plowing into me left and right. I couldn't make sense of it all.

Who's hurt, you guys? I asked, making everyone go silent.

She's okay Jake. She IS going to live. Seth tried to comfort me.

Seth's right. She's going to be okay. Leah Chimed in. she was being sympathetic. It must be bad. At the pit of my stomach I had a queasy feeling. In desperation, I tried to make sense of what they were saying. I started to go through Seth's head, since he was to young to know how to shield his thoughts. I saw a small girl asleep in a hospital bed. Her brown hair was being pulled back into a ponytail by Leah.

I gave her a strange look, she only shrugged. I looked again.

She had a black eye, her other eye swollen shut. Her lips were cracked and chapped, and she sighed in content. She looked at Leah and smiled. Leah smiled back. The girl then looked at the doctor and asked "What's the damage done this time?" at the end she smiled a bit.

"There are three broken ribs, a broken leg and arm. You also have a slight concussion. I'm afraid you are not in the condition to go home yet, we still have some tests to run to make sure that everything else is okay. We just want to take some precautions. It WAS a bad accident." the doctor smiled softly at the last part in sympathy.

"I know. I'm a little sore but other than that I feel fine." she said softly, not being able to speak any louder.

"You'll probably be able to leave in about a week or two. Don't worry. Everything will be fine." with that said, he left leaving the small, frail girl with Leah and Seth.

Leah turned toward the girl and said, "You know what the doctor said-" she was cut off by the mysterious girl.

"Yeah yeah yeah. I know. I'm not suppose to down play anything. I have to tell them how I'm feeling. Give it to them straight. Blah blah blah." she said, annoyed, trying to glare the best she could with one eye. "Whatever. I'm gonna live. Bottom line. I'm fine." she said the last part exasperated.

It was Seth's turn to speak. "What should we tell Jacob?" he asked.

Pain poured from every pore of her face. "Nothing. He wouldn't care anyway. He left me, remember?" She looked at Seth with those familiar Chocolate brown eyes, about to cry. It hit him right in the chest, understanding and sadness filled him.

Realization hit me like a bolt of lightening. I literally couldn't move. I was stunned. That girl was Bella. My Bella.

Well she isn't YOUR Bella, Leah said. You left her, remember? shame and embarrassment was radiating from her. She felt ashamed and embarrassment for me.

I HAD to leave her, remember? I mocked her. Alpha's orders. End of story.

That's exactly what she wants. Seth whispered.

What?!?! I nearly screamed.

Haven't you seen the signs Jake? She's dying. She wants to die. She can't handle the pain anymore. She's told me about it. She said that it got even worse once you left her. She said she understands why you didn't love her. She still loves you though. You have no idea how she feels. Seth said back. Almost hateful. You should go see her, alpha's orders or not.

Okay Dr. Phil. I'll go see her but…. Why didn't you guys tell me? I sounded like I was going to cry. Why couldn't they see that I did love her?

Didn't you hear before? Leah sneered, playing back the scene of Bella in the bed again, about to cry saying: "He wouldn't care. He left me remember?" Her voice echoed in my head.

I do still love her… I thought quietly and nobody answered.

BellaPOV

"Bells wake up. I'm suppose to wake you up every two hours. You know… to check on you." it was Charlie's rough and throaty voice waking me up.

Slowly, I opened my eyes. Well… tried to open my eyes. One was still swollen shut while on the other one I still had a black eye. I tried to move.

"Ow!" I hissed, then I remembered that I had a couple broken ribs and bruised all over my rib cage.

"Careful there, Bells." Charlie said, over protective and concerned as always.

"Always am." I mocked him, smiling, making him smile back.

"Anyway. How long have I been out?" I couldn't help but ask. "Where's Seth and Leah?"

"Oh, they left." he said, not answering my first question. Oh well, I'll let it go.

"Did they say when they'd be back?" I asked, sounding hopeful.

"Well… they didn't say any specifics just that….. They would be back as soon as they could. They said that there were something's that they needed to take care of." his voice quieting. He was hiding something from me.

"What is it dad?" I growled. "I know when you're lying. Spill it."

He laughed one hard chuckle. :You know me so well." was all he said. I glared at him.

"Okay! Okay!" he raised his hands up in the air in surrender. He took a deep breath before he continued. "Jake came by."

My heart nearly stopped. I couldn't even breath. The monitor next to my bed, recording my heart rate, sped up. It beeped louder and faster.

"Bells?" Charlie asked, anxious.

"Why would he come here?" I nearly cried.

"I don't know but he said it was important and that he needed to see you as soon as possible." he said his voice starting to trail off. He kept on watching my heart monitor. It finally started to gradually slow down.

I sighed. "Anything else?"

"Well… he said he would be back…" his voice trailing off again, watching my heart rate pick up.

"Are you okay Bells? I could go get a doctor…" he said

"No I'm fine. I just need to be alone." my voice started to break. Tears threatened to spill over.

Obviously seeing the break down coming, he bolted out of the room calling over his shoulder: "I'll be down in the cafeteria!"

I smiled softly to myself, but it disappeared as the reality of my situation over came me. I cried my heart out. I cried for every little thing. I cried for the loss and emptiness that was left when the Cullens left, but I mostly mourned for my lost best friend.