Disclaimer: I do not own Earthian or the characters Chihaya and Kagetsuya... unfortunately...

Notes: This is just a short fic that takes place after they are out on trial while Chihaya's sitting in the jail cell. This is based off of the song Forgive Me by Evanescence. I recommend that you either listen to the song as you reas or look at the lyrics. I wote the fic framed around the song because I thought that it explained a lot of Chihaya's feelings at that point in the story. I am currently working on another fic to explain Kagetsuya's side. Hopefully I'll have it up soon.

Forgive Me: Chihaya's Monologue

Kagetsuya… how can you ever forgive me? I said such horrible things to you back there. I only said that to protect you… not to hurt you. Now, I know I did, but that's not what I wanted.

I couldn't believe it even as I said it. It was like my mouth had a mind of its own. I thought I was dieing, but I couldn't bear the thought of you dieing with me. My heart felt as though it would break when I saw the hurt in your eyes.

You were furious at me. I can't get your voice out of my head shouting at me to tell the truth. I wanted to so badly. When you stopped yelling and stood there staring at me, I just wanted to run to you and tell you that I didn't mean it and I that I was sorry.

Now all I want to do is to take all of those hurtful words back. I want to take away your pain, the pain that I caused you. I want you to just hold me and tell me that everything will be all right. Please Kagetsuya, hold me!

Please forgive me Kagetsuya… I don't want to lose you! I'd rather die than to lose you! Still, I know that I'll get to be with you again. I can't lose hope…It's all that I have left.

Ever since I met you, just to see your face would cause me to be happy the entire day. I've always loved you. I was made to be with you, and you were made for me. As soon as this mess is over, I'll show you how much you truly mean to me.

I need you… I can't get through this without. I can't survive without you. I need you to know that… You're probably cursing me right now… hating me. Please don't hate me! I love you! I just said what I had to, to get you out of trouble. I won't have you executed on my account! This is all my fault… but I'm selfish I guess… I need you. There is no life without you!

Please… when this is all over, stay with me! Don't leave me! You can't leave me! I could feel you staring at me… searching my eyes, my soul, for the truth. I hope you heard my silent screams. Inside, my entire body was crying out apologies and desperate pleas for you to forgive me… for you to know that I'll always love you. No matter who may want to stop us.

When I saw you standing there smiling at me, forgiving me, I was so happy I cried. I ran to you, embraced you, silently promising to never let you go. You are all I need; you are everything to me. I'm so glad that you know that I never meant to hurt you.