Hi,

this is my first fanfiction on a foreign language. So I wanted to apologize for any mistakes I make. I hope you like the story though. I'd be very excited if you'd let me know what you think about my fanfiction.

Disclaimer - I don't own Victorious.

Eventhough I know that I am going to regret it, I drive to Beck's RV. I just have to confront him after what happened at Tori's earlier.
I can't believe that he really let me go just like that.

I mean sure things weren't that great between us lately but he loves me. I know he does, he must love me.

If not even Beck loves me anymore than I am all alone.
I know I sound like the biggest egoist on this planet but Beck was the only person who loves me. Yes my mum loved me but that's not the point.

The point is simply that... Who am I kidding. I love Beck. I need him.

I am lost without him by my side. He is the best thing that ever happened to me and I fucked up again.

Maybe I didn't appreciate him enough. I never told him how thankful I am for the things he did for me. I always took them for granted, I guess that was an mistake.

He was always there for me when I needed him. Around him I could just be myself, I didn't have to pretend I am someone I am not.

It's not like I am fake or something like that. I am mean most the time and brutally honest but I have another side too.

I arrive at Beck's RV. The lights are on, telling me that he is home.

I stop my car across the street from his parents' house. I just stare at the RV for a few seconds.
I am not sure if it is such a good idea to show up a few hours after he dumped me.

I don't want him to think that I am weak. He is my weakness there is no denying it but he doesn't have to know.

Okay he probably knows it anyway and still I don't have to prove him right just like that.

I start my car again and simple drive around for a while not really having a destination.

It's only been four hours and twenty-two minutes but I already miss him like crazy.

I feel tears escaping my eyes and probably ruining my whole make-up but I couldn't care less.
I just lost the only man who is - was - able to love me.

I wish I could talk with someone but Cat wouldn't understand it and Andre is Becks best friend. They are the only two people out of our - Becks - group of friends I like.

I think back to the last time I broke up with Beck and suddenly I know who I can go to.

I slowly start to drive towards the Vega's house. I may not consider Tori as my friend but I just know that she is going to help me. She has to.