Tris' POV
"I feel a bit tired today, I think I'll go to bed," I lied to my mum and dad. I didn't want to lie to them but I really wanted to see Tobias before he left. I really liked him and I knew I would regret not saying good bye. Anyway, it wasn't like I was Condor. "Okay, goodnight honey." my mum said smiling kindly making me feel a bit guilty. I walked upstairs, mentally planning my escape. I blindly walked to my bedroom when a site I thought I would never see shook me out of my thoughts. Caleb, my brother sat on his bed reading a book. Abnegation were high on being selflessness so anything that gave us even a shred of self happiness was banned. Reading was against the rules. Caleb, however read the book intently as if no one was watching. This shocked me a lot because Caleb was fantastic at being selfless, unlike me. This made me think of the times he had shut his bedroom door pretending to sleep or clean his room. It was obvious he wouldn't make it into Condor either.
Soon my feet began to ache as the result of my standing. I made my way into my room starting to think of my escape again. My room was right next to my mum and dad's so walking out the door on the creaky floor would be a suicide mission. Then I thought of my window. All Abnegation houses were the same grey level. They weren't too high however they weren't low enough. Yet it was my only option. Unlike other Abnegation members, I wouldn't object to doing something as daring as jumping of a window ledge. That's why I felt I didn't belong in Abnegation but I thought the feeling would pass. Suddenly I heard light footsteps. They were close so I rapidly covered my clothes with my blanket and pretended to be asleep. I shut my eyes as soon as the door opened. I knew it was my father because I heard his gentle voice whisper "Goodnight Tris." Although I was really eager to get going, I knew my mum and dad would check up on me so I waited.
After what seemed like ten minutes, I heard light snoring from next door. I silently walked to my window and opened it. I felt the warm hair on my fingers and face. I climbed onto the ledge. My long restricting dress didn't do me much favours but I managed to stand wile wobbling a little. If anyone saw me now they would think I was committing a petty suicide. I almost levelled with all the grey dull houses pointing in the same direction in neat rows. I saw the grey train from the dauntless compound hurtling to an unknown destination. I saw the bare grassy floor like a green spiky wall. Then I thought of Tobias and I meeting for the first time, becoming friends then eventually starting to fall for each other. I didn't know how I was going to keep living in Abnegation without him. Without his blue eyes as deep and dark as a pool full of navy blue paint. Without his smile that made me want to melt on the spot. I wish his father wasn't so cruel. I knew he had to get away from him however I wished I could follow him. But no. I had to wait another two years. I knew I was wasting time thinking of such things when I had to meet Tobias in ten minutes. I took another look at the ground and jumped.