Yes yes, I know this is bad, that's why I'm doing this. To torture you mwhahaha. Not to mention a bunch of OOC ^^
The rain washed down drowning vision. Her body lay there, in the rain. Puddles pooled around us. Blood staining her clothes, all I could see was red. Her blood leaked into the puddle making it a blood pool. I slammed my fist into the cement inconsiderate of the consequences. Water splashed me as I hit a puddle. I felt someone grab my fist. I hadn't noticed I was mumbling until I heard someone else speak. "Stop," he commanded. "She's gone, you have to accept that. It's not worth beating yourself up. It wasn't your fault."
Tears streamed down faster down as words began to fail me. Tears turned into sobbing as I leaned into her suffocating myself. "I-I'm sor-ry. I-I shoul-d've be-" A new burst of tears sprang to my eyes making everything impossible to see. I sat there in the rain, with the bloodied body of a fallen knight. Titania had fallen. It was all my fault. If it wasn't, then whose was it? Who has to bear the burden of knowing that someone died for you. Who has to bear the knowledge of knowing you could've saved a life. No one, and yet our emotions blame us. Or maybe that's your brain. Either way truth is it was my fault.
The days flitted past me like a fly attracted to the light. Her funeral, her presence. The guild was a lifeless place. Too shocked by Erza's death. No more fights, and no arguments. Nothing. Just silence. I couldn't take it anymore. Enough with all of this bull shit. I walked inside to be welcomed by silence and mourning. I walked up to the board and snatched a mission with my right. I stepped out into the sunlight remembering how I used to exit with her. I felt tears creep into my eyes. I let out a string of curses under my breath. I'll get that bastard, no matter the costs.
As the days past by I felt my guilt, depression, and sadness turn into anger. Not before long I realized I am weak. A helpless little girl out in this cruel world. And so my journey to get stronger began. It started small from building up stamina to gaining strength. I hadn't had any experience with fighting hand to hand. But I didn't let that discourage me. Repeatedly I had asked Natsu or Gray to spar with me. Of course they had gone easy on me. Which at first I was glad. But how can anyone learn how to get better if their abilities aren't challenged? All this time training I had forgot to apply my celestial spirits in battle. Little by little I would summon them in battle while attempting to block attacks and counter attack. Each time I would be a little more successful than last time. It soon got the point where I could summon one without any problem. Just one, if I attempted to summon again after I would get wobbly on my feet leaving me vulnerable. As my training progressed the guild had slowly began repairing itself. The silence was replaced with chatter, and laughter. Everyone was smiling once more. The guild already had a plan, rip the bastard to shreds. When I decided I had enough experience to take on a different opponent I went to check up on some of the guild mates. Most of them distracted themselves of her death by imagining gruesome ways to torture the wizard. I had finally went when I had heard enough of someone's torture. Apparently they wanted to use his stomach acid and pour it all over him, before ripping out his veins. I left when they were going to explain what the veins were for. (A/N: And that's how I want to torture someone :/) I grabbed a random mission while my stomach performed cartwheels for the non existent audience. It was a place not too far from here. All I had to do was capture a group of bandits that was creating chaos. When I arrived at the town I asked some villagers if they had a hunch of where the bandits were. They had said no, it wasn't before the sunsetted did I finally find them. I stumbled across them when I fell into a hole. I had given up looking for them, I saw a tree with a bush under it. Deciding it was a nice place to rest I lumbered towards it. The hole was about 4 feet wide and 3 feet down. It was covered by a bush. "Uhm, hello. Don't mind me I was just passing by….." I blushed to add the effects of a helpless person. The bandits were pretty much people in normal clothing. Nothing suspicious about them. Wait a minute. Something looked familiar with them. I realized a little too late that some of them were the villagers I had asked if they had known where the bandits were. A couple of the bandits lunged at me. I ducked before rolling to the side. Someone grabbed my leg and pulled me back. I kicked at him hoping to loosen his grip. His grip didn't falter I felt someone kick me in the back. I screamed making dust fly. A kick to the rib. Pain brainwashed me making me forget all the tactics I'd learned. When they finished blood was oozing out of most of my injuries. I was too weak to fight back. Even after all that training I was too weak. I heard a giggle somewhere from above me. I was blinded by pain to pay any attention to it. Until I heard that same voice whisper something. It grew louder, voices overlapping over other voices. Until I couldn't take it anymore. I screamed, "SHUT UP!" The bandits looked at me before deciding for round two. They didn't bother to waste their resources on me. Since I was a "helpless little girl." I stood up shakily convinced they were the ones speaking. They all jumped me. I unhooked Taurus's key and summoned him. "Kill them." It whispered.
"Ki- capture them," I requested. Taurus set off swinging his dull side of the axe. I helped him take out enemies before I fell to a splitting headache. Everything dissolved into a ringing.I awoke in the guild with Natsu overhead. "LUCY! Oh my god you're alright!" Natsu shouted alerting the others. "Who did this to you? I'll beat them up before frying 'em.""Uh, no it's fine I think I took care of them," I replied hoarsely.
He insisted, "No! They need to suffer for the damage they've done. We have to make sure-"
"Natsu. That's enough," headmaster interrupted.
He opened his mouth about to say something before headmaster sent a glare. "Leave us," he commanded.
The guild mates left but not before checking up on me. I reassured all of them. When they all left Makarov stared at me, before warning, "Stop this nonsense. Getting yourself killed is not what Erza would've wanted. Live for her sake and yours. Don't recklessly throw away your life! Do you know how many people you affect in your life? How do you think they'd take it if you died? You're like family here. We don't need to lose another one."
"I can't stand by here watching you guys fight for me, for everyone. I will not watch as one of my family members die saving me! How else am I suppose to improve? If I can't even face a couple bandits then what use am I? If I continue relying on you guys nothing will improve except our bond."
"Be careful," he replied before leaving.
I puzzled over what he said before I was captured by sleep's clutches. I awoke to a ruckus of someone sneaking in. I saw Natsu attempting to quietly enter but failing. He was holding a tray filled with a piece of meat, bacon, eggs and water. "Natsu, can you keep it down I have a headache," I requested.
He jumped surprised to hear me awake. Everything fell on the floor. "Oops," he said, "oh well." He picked up the meat off the floor and ate it. "Want some?"
"Uh….. No it's ok I'll get my share later."
He looked relieved a moment but then remembered what he came for. "Well good news, we found that wizard who killed her. We're gonna ambush him in 3 days. You are not going since you're injured."
I was just getting out of bed when I heard him say that. I had already taken a step forward before I froze. I fell onto the floor face first. I swore before clarifying, "Wait, I'm not going?"
He nodded before glancing at the door and me uneasily. I got up unsteadily before asking, "Why?"
"It uh… was Makarov's orders. I think you should rest, i'm gonna go."
I cursed under my breath at him. Gosh dang it! Why did he do that. I seethed at him quietly before I heard a rumble from my stomach. Oh well I'll confront him later. I changed before walking out of the room and into the main room. I plopped down grateful everyone wasn't asking me questions. Cana was the first one to meet. She set down the same meal as Natsu had earlier. I thanked her silently with a smile. She winked at me before turning to serve elsewhere. I sighed looking at my breakfast. I poked at some of it before shoving it down my throat. I left the dish onto the counter and left. I walked into the misty morning to my apartment. The mist felt like a filter on everything. I didn't want to look at anything right now. I wanted to blend in and be there forever. Unmoving. I didn't want to move on. I wanted to continue dying inside slowly while the rest of the world left me alone to rot. Of course that was a very slim chance considering the family I had. As I neared the apartment, the mist began to let up. What did Makarov say? Live for not only your sake but Erza's too? What was the point of living if all you're gonna do is give up? I can't let another life go to waste. One is enough, we don't need two. What was the point of living if I'm not even gonna avenge her? I smiled as the sun pierced through the mist and onto the scenery around me like hope.
AN: Sorry about that, don't know what was wrong . Anywho thanks for the review I would've never guessed it :/ or corrected it.