I guess this is it
Disclaimer: I don't own lost.
About: A quick fanfic from Sawyers POV when Danny Pickett has a gun to his head. Set in season 3, episode: I do. AU at the end.
I guess this is it. The end of my life. Somehow, I always knew I'd die by a gun shot. But I didn't know I get killed while being held prisoner on an island in the middle of nowhere. I don't feel scared, not really. But I don't want to leave her. Kate. She's crying, screaming that's she'll do anything they want. So she really does care about me. At least I'll have the comfort of knowing someone actually cares if I die, when I do get shot. I wish they'd hurry up. I don't want her to watch. I didn't think it would end like this.
I'll miss her. I hope she moves on. I don't want her to mourn over me forever. She has to get on with her life. She knows I love her, and I think she loves me too. I hope so. It's sad that I won't see my daughter, but that's life. He's gonna kill me now. I guess this is it.
I take one last look at her, I tell her to close her eyes. But she won't. She's beautiful, and it breaks my heart to see her like this. I want to hold her, tell her it will be ok. I want her to close her eyes; I don't want her to see me die. I'm angry, so angry, at the Others. Not for killing me, but for making her cry, making her like this. She's so weak, and there's nothing I can do.
I guess this is it. I hear him say 'this is for Colleen, you son of a bitch!' Then I hear a trigger being pulled. I love her.