TITLE: Far . . . Escape the Past (The Complete Rework)

Warnings: HET/Slash. Angst. Language. Etc. SEASON nine Spoilers Due to this was written during season nine. And Some Season 8 stuff! .

SERIES: Who Needs Jack

.SYNOPSIS: Jack dumps Daniel for Sam. Daniel's not handling it well.

A/N: I originally wrote this back in 2005, Redid it once already and now seem to be redoing it yet again. I've read the reviews and THANK YOU ALL for them: I see that I have a bit of a problem with the tense. I'm not a beta so I'm gonna try to fix that to my best knowledge. I think I'm making Daniel stronger in this, and Oh this story came due to JMAS "Missing" Video on her site.

DISCLAIMER::: I mean no harm against the writers, nor actors, nor anybody of importance that has anything to do with Stargate. Also, No harm is meant toward Evanescence for use of some "Missing" lyric. I don't own anything of value but some old X-Men comics. And Gambit is MINE! Enough said!

Far . . . Escape the Past: In Hope of A Brighter Future

Sitting here in the dark, I start thinking back on the last few months and everything that has gone on in my life. I was happy. Happier then I had been in a long time. Unfortunately, it was not meant to be.

I was being used.

I was a substitute.

Wrong blue eyed Geek I guess.

Wrong Wonder twin.

The truth hurts. The way it slams into you and making your feel like your body was driving 95mph and hits into a brick wall.

It hurts so badly, I'm unsure I will ever give another my love again.

But, what hurts most is I thought you were my friend.

Friends don't do what you did to me, Jack. You played me.

How could you play with my emotions like that?

You knew I loved you. It was said plenty of times. And even if you never said the words back

to me, I thought I saw them in you eyes.

Especially every time you thrust yourself into me.

You kept coming back to me . . . Kept this whatever it was going on between us. Continuing.

How could you do that to me, Jack?

Using me for your sexual release, then throwing me to the curve once Sam made up her mind that she wanted you.

I hate you!

I gave you everything.

Gave you my heart.

Gave you my soul.

Gave you my body.

Yet . . . It wasn't enough.

I wasn't she . . .

I had your strong arms holding me in bed each night.

How could I be so wrong? I really thought we were meant to be.

Jack?! Can you tell me, why suddenly Sam, My 'sister', decides that she was willing to give up everything to be with you? Since obviously, she never thought such before?! And the Same goes for you too.

I really never suspected to be dumped via a Dear John letter.

Really, Jack how old are you?!

Why couldn't you come to my home and tell me face to face? I might have handled it better then I am now.

Were you afraid? Afraid that I might change You're mind?! ...Huh, Jack?!

You two went off into the sunset and left me here alone:

My condolence is this stupid letter you mailed to me, days after you left the SGC.

You both were here one day, then you never came back again.

You must realize . . . Knowing me and all that this just adds fuel my fire. How much of a bastard could one single man be!

Dear Daniel:

I never loved you, at least not in the way you deserved to be loved. After Jacob died, Sam fell apart on me and I had to help her with the pieces.

She and I were meant to be. It's been in the cards for years: We just hide behind the military as a way to deny it. I'm truly sorry for hurting you, Daniel. You are a good friend and I apologize for this stupid 'Dear John' sort of thing. I'm too much of a coward to tell you to your face. I can't bear to look into your eyes and see the hurt I've caused. Again, I am sorry for everything. Have a long and happy life . . . Sincerely, Jack.

Am I that unimportant?

Am I so insignificant? Do I mean anything to anyone?!

It's been two months now.

Are you missing me, Yet?

I tried to call you, but you never answered. Just once I wanted to get a straight answer from you.

Just once I wanted you to tell me why?!

'Jacob died!' You wrote in the letter. Sam is in pieces?!

I know Jacob died, Jack. But, did you even care that I did too.

I died, Jack. I was sliced through the heart by someone who looked like

the one you left me for.

I bled. I never suspected once that you did not even care.

Did you know that when I died, my last thoughts were of you?

They were only of you.

I would have died to know you love me.

Yet, I'm all alone.

I still miss you.

I breathe deep and cry out.

I wonder if you miss me.

Well, you're the fool, Jack.

You lost what should have been forever.

Let's see you live with what you settled for.

You're made your bed, now lie in it!

So what'cha think thus far.. Better direction then the original?

I want to see if you like this direction better. Tell me, if i should be a fixing... :)