I've tried this and failed I hope that it turns out good this time.

Disclaimer: All recognizable characters and scenes aren't mine. SM gets crap loads of credit.

Bella's POV

He left. After all of the 'I love you's and 'your beautiful's , he left. It feels like forever ago but, it was just months. Anyone can tell that I didn't exactly take things well but, that's because, I stopped feeling. I stopped interacting, I stopped.

Charlie tried, he did, he tried his hardest but it didn't work. Until, now, he basically screamed at me. I snapped. But, I guess agreeing to go to the movies with Jess was the best thing to happen in a long time because, I saw him. Edward Cullen. I swear those guys looked like the ones that tried to attack me. It not being them paid off. He was there telling me not to go closer, it was dangerous and I was breaking a promise. But, I didn't care because I'd seen him!

I had to get those bikes! They might allow me to see him again. I had to take them to Jacob's if I took them to Dowling's he'd charge me out of my tiny college fund. Plus, getting Jacob to do my bidding took a whole half a minute.

So, that's how I ended up here, in his hand-made garage, watching him tower over what I hoped he could make at least look like a couple motorcycles. We'd gone parts shopping today and he said that we had gotten pretty lucky, which is good. Hopefully, the bikes'd be done soon and I could learn. A/N this is on page 148 of New Moon if you want to know exactly what part I'm starting this change in story on.

Then, we heard Billy calling for us. I jumped up to try and put parts away but, Jacob told me he'd work on it later. Then, we heard Charlie's voice, "Bella?" Our heads snapped up.

"Crap, be there in a minute!"

Jacob shut off the light, grabbed my hand and we ran for the house tripping over our feet and various rocks and bumps in the ground.

"Hey, dad." We both said, we made eye contact and laughed. Charlie looked like he'd seen a fracken ghost and then he noticed Jacob's hand around mine and he looked like he'd seen a family of ghosts and discovered they'd all been raped and murdered in his house.

Billy was just smiling at us, so smug. "C'mon, I'm making spaghetti."

After that day, you could hardly ever see Jake and me apart. And if we weren't by each other, we were on the phone together and if we weren't on the phone, our dads were there urging us to be by each other or pick up the phone to call each other.

Whenever I told Charlie that I was going to Jake's, I could see the smile on his face. One could tell that Billy and Charlie wanted Jake and I together. It wasn't gonna happen, the only reason I even went over there was so I could see someone else! Christ!

I couldn't deny that I was happier around Jacob. He just brought the life in me out, I could be myself and I loved it! But, there weren't feelings on my side and I tried making in evident but, it always ended in him say, "just give us a chance!"

One day, I stormed out of the garage, sick and tired of hearing it. I ran straight in to the house, not realizing that Billy had come home, "oh," I said, in shock.

Billy sighed, "you should listen to him, ya' know, give him a chance."

I stood there, "can you hear us all the way out there!"

He laughed, "Get real! I can barely hear you right now. Me and my son do, on occasion, talk like normal human beings and he only talks about you." I pinched the bridge of my nose in frustration. "Have I ever told you how I met his mother?"

I shook my head, "but, I'm intrigued, you have my attention."

"Sarah and I were in the same grade and class all through elementary school but, honestly she couldn't have hated me more. I was always the most popular, the funniest, the, dare I say, most AWESOME. And she was always the opposite. Everyone wanted a play date with Billy Black but, nobody wanted to even look at Sarah Wilde. Eventually, she just despised me in every way shape and form. Sh-"

I sighed, "Billy, this doesn't even apply to him and I."

"I'm getting to that. I'll speed up. She, uh, hated me in elementary but, in middle school, something changed, in me at least, I had been so used to seeing Sarah the little shy girl from class. When we got to middle school I guess something clicked, she was internally mine. The guys always talked about the pretty girls in school and all the while I was thinking of her. When they finally mentioned her, they said how ugly she was, I was almost expelled for kicking all of their asses and after that, everyone knew.

"In high school, it just got worse because, they knew. Everyone knew. But more importantly, Sarah knew. I followed her around like a lost puppy, asking her, pleading with her, I told her she should just give us a chance but, still she denied any feelings toward me. But, her best friend Joy Ateara, Quil's mom, gave it all away. Sarah had liked me since 7th grade. With the secret out she couldn't say no because, there was no reason." He smiled.

"Although cute, I don't see how this ties to me and Jake." I stated.

"I'm just saying, you'll come around," he winked.

"Urg, you are just as fracken frustrating as your son!" I tried making a dramatic exit but, Jacob walked through the door.

"Bells, please, at least think about it!" He looked so sad, too sad to be Jake. I hated seeing him with any emotion other than joyful. I realized then that it'd me better to just cut ties with him.

I sighed, "God dammit, Jake, do you not think I have? It's all I've been able to think of! But don't you see the awkward situations you and I would be in if something went wrong? Or have you not thought of the position Charlie and Billy would be forced into? Jacob, just be rational! I can't, we can't!"

"Bella! I've thought of everything, absolutely everything and we could still freaking try!" He was aggravated, that was obvious but, Jake was trying to get me to do something I don't want to.

"Oh my GOD! Do I need to fucking spell it out for you!" He looked at me shocked; apparently cussing doesn't seem in my nature, "I'm still not over Edward!" I ran out of the house, full blown crying. Every wall I had put up against thinking of him and speaking of him broke.

I had never cried more in my life; I cried all the way home, pushing as much as I could out of my crappy truck. It seemed like a lifetime before I pulled into my driveway and Charlie was waiting on the porch. I sighed as I got out and walked slowly up the stairs. Charlie handed me a cup of hot cocoa and said, "Billy called, Bells, we need to talk."

"And if I just want to go up to bed?" I questioned, tiredly.

"That's just too damn bad, Bella, you broke the kid! Billy won't tell me what you said but, I gathered that he's an emotional wreck and pretty soon here we're gonna have to put him on suicide watch. What did you do?" He sat on one of the deck chair and motioned for me to sit on the one opposite to him.

I sighed, exasperatedly plopping down in the chair, "I just told him the truth. He wouldn't give up in convincing me, Billy wouldn't give up in convincing me and I got sick of it, dad, I couldn't keep saying that it would be awkward if we broke up, I couldn't so, I told him that I still wasn't over…Edward," I forced the name out, "and he obviously didn't take that news very well." I sipped my cocoa, accidently getting whipped cream on my nose.

Charlie reached over, "you got that right," and wiped the stuff off, "Bells do you remember when you used to come up here? As a kid?"

I sighed, "honestly? Not a bit."

"Alright, well, you, Becky, and Rach would all play dolls or something and Jacob would be in on the couch with Sarah while she tried to keep him occupied. Problem was, you never liked playing girly games so Jake and you would always run off, behind Billy's house. There was some kind of mud puddle." He took a swig of his cocoa, if it was that, it smelled of Coke and Jack. "Billy and I would come home from fishing to you and Jacob slathered in mud and Sarah yelling at the top of her lungs that your clothes were utterly ruined."

I sighed for the umpteenth time," I swear, everyone is gonna tell an irrelevant story today!" I started to get up.

"Wait, Bella, I wasn't finished. Sarah, she would always swear up and down behind your back that Jacob and you were destined to be together forever. Bells, what if she was right? What if you just give it time? Maybe you'll get out of this Edward craze and find something emotionally healthy in Jacob," he smiled.

I looked down at my hands, "but, what if she wasn't right? What if I do give it time and I do find something with Jake? And then I just end up getting hurt again?"

Charlie let out a breath and pulled another one in, "is that what you're afraid of? Really? Getting hurt?"

"Maybe, I don't know, I'm completely confused right now!" I put my drink down. "Daddy, I don't know what to do."

He smiled; I guess I hadn't called him daddy in years. "Just go upstairs and sleep on it, you'll know what to do soon enough."

I couldn't sleep for obvious reasons but, after a few hours, I snuck downstairs.

Or at least tried, "Bells, is that you?"

Busted. "Yeah, do you think that Jacob's still up?" I asked, walking down the stairs without the need to be quiet.

"Just got off the phone with Billy, yeah, he's up but, I don't know how he'll take a call from you right now." He looked honestly worried.

"He'll have to deal with it." I rushed into the kitchen picking the phone up. I slowly dialed the number starting to feel queasy. C'mon, Bella, I told myself, you can do this.

"Hello?" Billy asked, "Who is it?"

"It's me, Bella." I breathed in, "h-how's he doing?"

"Pretty crappy."

"Dad?" I heard in the background, "didn't Charlie just call?" Jacob sounded shitty.

"It's not Charlie, son, but, you're getting warmer. Guess again."

"Bells!" I heard him practically scream and then there were noises of struggle.

"Jesus, son, it's a phone don't break my arm for it!"

"Bella!" Jake yelled into the phone.

"Mhmm, it's me." I confirmed, he basically squealed. "Jake-"

"Lemme, go first please?" He cut in.

"Be my guest."

"Okay, first of all, I love you so much! SOOOO MUCH! And earlier, I was just being stupid of course you would afraid of the consequences! We could turn out so horrible. And it's understandable that you aren't over something like that, I meant come on, he left without notice and it's only been a few months! I understand now, I realized that this was just a schoolboy crush it would blow over, we'd break up and everything would go wrong. I think I'm pretty much well over it. Now, what did you want to say?" He said all of this in what felt like two seconds but, I caught it all.

"Oh, um, you pretty much covered it," I said.

"Great! Well, I'm off to bed, long day. See you tomorrow! Bye!"

"Bye." I hung up. Charlie was definitely waiting for me to spill when I walked into the living room.

"Sooo, what did he say?"

I looked at him with dagger eyes, "I am going to bed, good night."

"'Night." He looked freaking terrified of me.

In mere hours, Jacob and I had swapped feelings about stating a relationship. I don't want it, he wants it. I want it, he doesn't. Fun.

A/N How did you like it? Good? Bad? Review, please. I'll continue based on response.