New beginning
I do not understand why it has to happen to me, it was always there for me now the most important moment of his life I was not there for him.
I just can not imagine my life without him, he was everything to me now that he is not here I feel like somebody took my heart and forgot to return it.
Since the day he was born and until that awful day we were inseparable, he was my brother, the most important thing in my life and I let him down.
Everyone tried to convince me it was not my fault what happened to him, but I know it was my fault … Yes If I did not ... Only if I was not a stormy day at sea so he would not have come to me and he was alive today.
My mother tries to comfort me, but I still feel like she looks at me as the guilt, her eyes tell me, 'Why Ann? Why you made him die? ", The pain I feel every time I look at the eyes will not rise anytime soon or forever and that's what hurts me more ... Know deep down she blames me for what happened to Tom.
Half a year has passed since that day, I feel like my parents have not gotten over what hppened, I still have not gotten since then but it seems they take his death too hard.
Everything in the house, city, school remind me him it, I can not look at something without remembering me him.
The only solution was to leave Chicago.
Disconnect from friends, break my past was hard, but I had to do so in order not to feel guilty anymore. Guilt eats me inside and I can not take it anymore.
My parents found new jobs in the new city we decided pass and they write me to the local high school
When i think about the city name I laugh to myself a long time since I laughed maybe I will make a good transition, if the name of the city makes me laugh then it's a good thing.
I said goodbye to all my friends companies, the separation was difficult, said goodbye to so many people lately, but the idea of meet new friends encouraged me.
I love people, I love talking to people because of that separation was difficult for me,
I know when I'll move to a new town so I'd cut off all contact with my old friends – such like me.
The flight passed quietly, I heard all the songs in my mp3 player and slept.
"Annie darling, wake up, the flight is over," my mother said to me quietly.
I did not realize I fell asleep until my mother woke me up. I was still sleepy, I acted like a robot until we got the new house.
It was nearly one o'clock, though meant to be middle of the day now it looks like sunset, all around was gray and grim ... I even thought maybe the atmosphere here will be good here.
After two hours of driving my dad said "Welcome to La Push!", He said it with such enthusiasm that I could not smile, it turns out that my mother thought that to and she also smiled at him.
I looked out the window, everything was green and gray, the houses in the city looked old, but maybe it that way just because the gloomy weather.
"Dad, how our house looks? " I asked my father.
"Um ... You could say he looks like all the houses here, as you noticed all the houses here are similar haha!" My father said, he was trying to be funny but not so that helped ....
My mother sat in silence all the way to new house.
Just like my father said, the house was not different from other homes in La Push, he was average.
"Annie, take your bags and come help us with the rest" My mother said as we left the car.
"'Kay, bringing all the luggage or need to get more?" I asked.
"We brought everything, remind you I've been here a week ago and brought almost all our stuff and most bags" My father said as he tried to take big suitcases.
I took my heavy bags and entered the tame.
The house was big enough, even more than my old house!
Living room, I do not know why but I love this salon, nothing which did not mention our former living room, living room was much larger and much lighter, does feel like I'm already home.
Front door were impressive steps leading to the second floor, took me a while to upload all my luggage these huge stairs.
The second floor was also impressive, I put what the suitcases in the middle of the hall and decided to explore every room to decide where I will spend the rest of my life until I leave the house.
The second floor had 3 bedrooms, the rooms were large and each room was the bathroom.
Apart from 3 bedrooms and 2 were more working room master bath bathroom.
I decided to choose the room has a view of the entrance of the house, I took my suitcases into the room and began to dismantle them new.
It turns out that my parents did not need me to help in the end, I knew this in advance because i'm not get down to help them.
After two hours of the arrangement of the room and all my stuff in their new place I went to the kitchen.
The kitchen was too big compared to what I thought he was a modern [relative to itself], I really love this house!
My father and my mother spoke and stopped when I went into the kitchen.
"Why did you stop talking?" I asked.
"Annie, there are things you do not need to know right now, maybe we will tell you more later, now it's just not the right time to talk about it," my mother said angrily.
"Wow I do not know what you look like a disaster happened, I was just asking a question well, I expect you to answer me the same way!" I snapped in even more angry than my mother.
"Do not be rude to us young lady!" My father also said angrily.
What Family angry ... We moved into a new house, new city ... Everything looks just perfect and suddenly they're angry. If they are angry they do not need to get angry with me!
"I'm going to go around the area!" I shouted and slammed the kitchen door, I was really angry at that time.
I took my white coat from the rack coats and went outside.
Outside it was really cold compared to home, I felt I was in freezer!
Trees were mostly a side Molly was a road, I decided to follow the road, maybe I'll get to a place far away....
I do not know how long I walked but it seems I went a lot, I do not see the house behind it looks about to black out any minute.
I got playground, there were so many people despite the bitter cold, it seems that the city got used to this cold not like me!
I leaned against a tree and watched some of the people in the area, 3 year old girl suddenly came to me, I did not understand what she wants from me until I realized that she wanted the tree and me.
"Shhhhh do not tell Quilley I'm here!" She said with a grin. Who's Quilley for God's sake!
"Do not worry, I will not tell" I said with a smile.
"Claire Bar where are you?" Shouted a guy from afar, what I saw is just huge! His height and at least 2 feet actually looks very good.
Clare, really understand her name, she just giggled alone, this Quilley probably heard her coming toward me.
"Seen here in case a 3 old girl hiding?" He asked, now I see him soon is really huge! I did not believe until now that people really are so huge!
"Um... I didn't see here any 3 old girl hiding" giggled and pointed to the tree.
Apparently, he understood me and said "Thanks anyway," he went behind the tree and found the little hiding Claire.
She laughed and seemed quite amused that she managed to hide from.
I stayed in the same place I was, this Quilley and Claire came to me and just stood there.
"Hello, I'm Claire and this is Quilley" Claire said in cute voice.
"Like I said Claire Quilley, nice to meet you ... " He said in form of a question.
"Anne Thompson" I held out my hand and he handed me his hand. When he touched me I felt like I was touching a hot stove. I moved my hand faster and it he seems to understand why.
"Oh, I'm really sorry," he said in panic.
"Um it's okay, but just you very very hot!"
It seems as though he had no answer so I answered quickly in place "but that's completely fine" I said with a smile, he smiled back at me.
"You're new here, right?" He asked.
"Yes I'm new, I moved here just today" I replied. Quilley that looks rather nice. I wonder if he's available haha…
"Welcome to La Push!" He said just like my father said as we went to La Push.
"Quilley Where did you go?" Ask a guy who came to us.
"Seth, this is Anne, she's new here!" Claire said happily.
Okay, this guy is really handsome Horse impossible to describe! He also really look like Quilley, maybe they are brothers or relatives ....
"Nice to meet you Seth" I told him, handing him my hand, he just stared at me, not moving an inch and kept staring at me.
It was really weird I"m not used to people staring at me... What's he wants from me?! I have something on my face that he couldn't stop staring at me? If I have then he should tell me!
"I have something on me face you're couldn't stop staring at me?" I asked angrily.
"Um not really! NOT! I didn't mean to stare at you, I'm sorry I caused you Unpleasantness" he replied, trying to apologize for being stared at me.
"It's okay, nice to meet you Seth," I said with a smile. This time I will not stop staring at him.
There was something that attracted me to look at him, he looks really old but very young, as I mentioned earlier that he is similar Quilley But Seth is much more beautiful!
He has a long hair and Quilley have short hair , I love long hair, especially Seth hair.
Oh God what I got? I just met him and I think he is a idol! I have to calm myself down
"Nice to meet you Anne" he said with a smile, he looks like someone got him the most joyful message the universe and I think i looked exactly like him.
"Omg! Seth!" Quilley shouted suddenly rushed me rant!
Quilley grabbed his hands and shoulders of Seth began to shake them, I really do not understand what's going on here, I feel very confused.
"Well, looks like Seth mental state were not so good ... or you can say just the opposite," he laughed aloud.
Now I'm more confused than before.
"Quilley I want to go home!" Claire troubled Quilley.
"Okay Claire Bar, is we're going, right Seth?" He asked Seth. Seth didn't answer. He also didn't move.
"Seth, come on take hold on yourself ! We have to go now man!" Quilley shouted on Seth.
"We'll see you around Anne, was a pleasure to meet you! welcome to La Push…and to the gang" Quilley told me and pushed Seth "Come on Seth" Seth did not stop looking at me and I could not stop looking at him.
Eventually Seth turned his head and walked with Quilley.
"Bye bye Anne" Claire said and waved goodbye to me.
"Bye Clare, Quilley, Seth" I said.
Okay. It was really really weird