OMG, JJ's coming back to Criminal Minds! Anyways, this idea came to me a couple weeks ago, but I forgot about it until now.
Summary: JJ's thoughts after her sister's suicide.
Disclaimer: Do I own Criminal Minds? I think you know the answer to that.
Spoiler: 5x13 "Risky Business"
JJ P.O.V.
1989
I can't believe this is happening? How can Amy be dead? It doesn't make sense. Why did she leave me? My parents asked if I saw any signs yesterday that she was going to hang herself. How am I supposed to know? She told me she loved me, but she told me that everyday. We were always so close, even though she was four years older than me.
I should have seen it coming. Why didn't I? She gave me her favorite necklace before she died. Mom said that was a warning sign, but she doesn't blame me. I'm glad, because I just lost my sister, so I can't lose my parents, too.
It's weird, Amy was always there. She helped me with my homework, stuck up for me when other kids were picking on me, she'd blow off all her friends just to have a girls' night with me. I miss her so much and she's only been gone for a day. I haven't left my room since she was taken away. Her funeral is tomorrow. I have to say good bye, but I don't know how to. How can I say good bye to my best friend? I want her back! Why can't she come back? Why, Amy? Why would you do this? Why would you kill yourself? The other day we were laughing and painting each other's nails. Nothing was wrong, you were happy! I don't understand. I miss you, sis.
2011
Amy would have been thirty-seven today. I've celebrated her birthday every year since her death, even if my parent wouldn't. Amy didn't leave a note that day, so the reason she felt like she to die is still unknown. Today, I'm sitting here with my boyfriend and our two year old son, still wishing Amy could be here to celebrate with us. I'm wearing her necklace, like I do every year on her birthday. Will's been supportive every year I celebrate my dead sister's birthday. As for Henry, as long as there's cake, he's there. I wish Henry could have met his aunt. He'd love her.
I spent years wondering why Amy died. I never came up with an answer. I stopped asking myself that a few years ago. I may never know the answer until the day I die and I can ask Amy myself. I realized that at her funeral it wasn't good bye, it was I'll see you later. I can live with that.
Short, but I think I did alright. Since I don't know JJ's age, I'll just go with AJ Cook's age.