"I know there's a stigma around medication, but there's nothing wrong with taking it."
Nitori shook the bottle a bit, listening to the sound the pills made. He thumbed over the label a few times before placing it on his desk.
"I'll give you a small dosage for now; take it when you feel a panic attack coming on. It should help calm you down."
He never thought it would get to the point that he needed medicine to calm him down. He couldn't remember why it got that bad in the first place.
"I know it's going to be hard when you're at Samezuka, but remember that it's okay to let everything out every now and then. If you need to cry then cry! Your roommate will understand."
His therapist probably would have said something different if she actually saw who his roommate was. His roommate was a 5'10 shark, and he definitely did not look like the understanding type.
He had always been okay with holding it in, though. If he had to hold it in until he graduated, so be it.
Nitori's school days consisted of the three S's: Sleeping, Studying, and Swimming. Half the time he only fit studying and swimming in, but hey, who actually slept during high school anyway?
His therapist was right; Samezuka was hard at first, but Nitori was glad we decided to attend. He didn't mind that he had to stay up late to get in some extra studying or wake up early to get in a jog in before classes; it was all worth it in the end because he finally got to pursue his love for swimming at the school who was known as a swimming powerhouse.
He stared at the pills on his desk, feeling a bit proud of himself that he hadn't opened it once in since he started school. It had only been three months, but that was still something to be proud of. Even though he felt proud of himself, there was no way he was going to let his roommate find out about his problem.
Rin Matsuoka was interesting to say the least. He seemed like such a tough guy, with the shark teeth and all, but Nitori knew there had to be a soft side to him. He didn't know much about his roommate, but he was determined to find out. Nitori would bring up his family once and awhile to see if it would get Rin to talk about his. It only worked about half the time, but Niori had found about that he had a younger sister that went to Iwatobi High School, and he spent a good portion of his life in Australia for swimming.
"You swim, senpai? How come you haven't joined the swim team?"
"Not really my thing,"
"But you went to Australia! Captain would love to have someone like-"
"Drop it," Rin got up from his place on his bunk and grabbed his towel, "I'm gonna go take a shower."
Nitori was taken out of his thoughts when he heard the door open; he quickly put his pills in one of the drawers of his desk.
Rin walked in, towel on top of his head, raising an eyebrow at Nitori, "Are you still studying? It's like nine."
"Sorry, senpai, I'm almost done."
"Stop with the senpai thing, " Rin mumbled.
"Senpai, about what I said earlier-"
"It's fine,"
"I'm sorry if I struck a nerve or something, but I still think that you should consider joining the team!"
"Drop it," Rin said, glearing at Nitori.
Nitori was a bit taken back; he mumbled a sorry and turned back to the homework on his desk. There was something going on his with his roommate, and he was going to get to the bottom of it.
He took a mental note of where he put his medication; he anticipated that it would be needed down the road.