To Forget

Disclaimer: No, I don't own FMA, If I do Roy would be my…cough… well I just don't own Fullmetal…

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Chapter 1: What to do

All I want is to end this sorrow, this pain that does not let me live. All I want is to forget, to forget my errors, my mistakes, the past. Is this a mistake too? To dream with something better? All I want is to forget. Maybe in another life I could be happy again… I'm sorry…

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The last time Ed went to the headquarters was to deliver the report of his last mission two days after he had come back from the mission. He normally delivers his report the same day; blasting the doors of the office of General Mustang as he enters and cursing him for the stupid mission he had given him, but not this time.

He barely made any noise when he entered the office. Mustang was so busy with the paperwork (have nothing to do with a certain gun of a certain Colonel Hawkeye aiming at him if he got distracted) that he did not notice Edward in the office until he put the envelope on top of the desk.

Looking up for the first time he saw it was Edward, but he seemed a little…depressed? Nah, it was certainly his imagination. "Good Morning, Fullmetal" He said with a smirk. "You are late with your report this time, shorty".

"Huh? Ah, yeah sorry. I must go now. Oh and General it was a pleasure to work under your command. Please take care" Edward saluted and he left without saying any more.

Roy couldn't believe what had happened. First of all Edward had not screamed at him or had made a show for his comment, he hadn't even noticed! And second why did Ed say that? Ed had never shown any sign of care for what could happen to the General, in fact he acted like he hate him. And third Ed had never saluted or showed respect for Roy less say it had been a pleasure to work with him. And, why the past tense? What was wrong with Edward? He had never acted this strange before. But he decided not to give it much importance for the moment. He would think about it once he was finished with his paperwork.

Three days have passed and Edward has not come to work. Roy was sitting at his desk trying to figure out what could have happened to Ed when Hawkeye entered the office. When he saw her, he rapidly grabbed his pen and a paper trying to look like he had been working all the time. But when she approached the desk to bring more papers he noticed that she had a worried look on her face and ventured to ask what was wrong.

"I'm a little worried for Edward, sir. He hasn't shown up to work in three days and has made no calls either. He always calls when he is not feeling well or cannot come to the office". Answered Hawkeye, after leaving the papers on the desk, with a worried tone in her voice. She had always been a little motherly with Edward.

"Well it might be nothing important, maybe just a cold." Said the General as he reached for the new papers he needed to sign trying to dissimulate his own uneasiness.

"With all respect sir; Edward is still just a kid". "Yeah, I know he is 19 but he is still a kid in many aspects". She added when she saw the if-he-hears-you-you-are-dead look on the General's face. "I think someone has to look for him, sir."

"Ok. If it makes you feel better I will tell Havoc, ok? He said returning to his work.

Suddenly he heard a 'click' coming from the direction of Riza and when he raised his head to see what it was he only saw Hawkeye's gun on his forehead.

"With all respect, sir, I think you must be the one to go and look him, sir. After all he is your subordinate and responsibility".

He shuddered at the memory of the gun on his forehead. "She can be a very convincing woman when she wants something". He mumbles to himself. Looking up at the clock he saw that it was 7:15pm already. "Better go now; I still have to look for Fullmetal". He organizes his desk and gave Hawkeye all the papers he had finished before leaving the office.

Once outside he decided that it was better to look in the apartment that Ed and Al had been living. He reached the apartment thirty minutes later. But when he reached the door he could sense something was wrong, but he could not tell what it was exactly. He knocked on the door several times but no one answered. When he checked more closely he noticed that the door was unlooked. "Irresponsible kids". He said to himself and then it stroked him. Alphonse would never leave the door unlocked and much less at this hour. "Something is happening here; I better go in and check".

He entered the house and noticed that no one was in the house. There were books on the floor of the living room as if they had been thrown; the tables were thrown on the floor and the lamps broken. The kitchen was a total mess. There was food all over the table and floor. Flacks broken all over the floor and the small drawers were all lying in the floor.

Roy was heading to the door when he heard a faint sound coming from one of the bedrooms. Startled by the sound he decided to check what the sound was. He slowly walked to the room and opened the door silently. But what his eyes saw made his soul freeze. He had thought of many things but nothing could have prepared him for what he was seeing.

"EDWARD….!!!!"

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Chapter one reposted..!! Specials thx to Zakai for being by beta…!!

Thanks for reading my story… I can't believe I finished the first chapter already..!!

Finally..!! Thought you would never finish..!!Hate you…

Sorry…please forgive my inner voice…Well Like I was saying thanks for read my story…Hope you like it..!!

I'll try to update soon but I'm still thinking how to do chapter 2…and I'm still thinking if do a yaoi or not…what do you people think? Plz review telling me if you like it or not, what can be better, what you expect of the next chapter…and well since the English is not my language please tell me if you found an error plz …Plz review I really need some feedback…

PD: Special thanks to Lolla11811 who encourage me to write the fic and helped me with the idea…Well thanks to her is that I wrote the story… Gracias..!!