A/N: Hey Everyone! So if you are reading this and you are thinking it sounds really familiar and you think you have read it before... it's because you might have lol. Basically I have this series called "Lights Will Guide You Home" and no one was really reading the of interludes. So I'm revamping it and posting all of them in one story. This way readers will know exactly the order of everything, and all of the posts will be in one easy to locate story.
So without further a do I present to you "To My Surprise, And My Delight" The first Katie interlude.
Enjoy!
It takes you far too long to realize what has been staring you right in the face. Your Katie Knight and stuff like this does not go unnoticed by you. You hate yourself for not picking up on your brother's relationship with his best friend sooner.
It's a normal Sunday afternoon, you're just relaxing inside before you have to help your mom go to the grocery store, when you hear the front door slam open and then one of the bedroom doors also bang open and close. Your going to go check on who it is, but before you get the chance to open your door, you hear another pair of feet come running into the apartment. The person tries to catch their breath and you know that something good is about to happen, so you slowly put your ear up against the door, in hopes of hearing everything.
When the sound of your brother's voice begins to apologize and beg for Logan's forgiveness you just think your brother went a little to far with the pranks again. No big Logan will get over it, he always does. When it goes a couple of minutes and you don't hear Logan say anything back, you think that whatever your brother did really hurt his feelings, but you bet it was a funny prank and you're kind of sad you missed it.
"Logan I … It's not what … y..you know I love you. Jo..Jo just had a bad day, I was just giving her a hug."
You're pretty sure your heart stops in that second, you think maybe you heard it wrong, that this is something else. Anything else, but really you know it's true. How can it not be? It's Logan and Kendall you're talking about here.
"Ken that's what you always say, there is always some kind of excuse. I get that you're not ready to tell the family, I get that, and I really do. However I have a problem with you fucking me and then no less then two hours later hugging and cuddling your ex-girlfriend"
Well you're sure in that moment that the world has stopped spinning. However you also have to hold yourself back from running out there and telling your brother off for being so stupid and hurting Logan like that.
"Logie…please you know I'm telling the truth. Jo walked into the lobby in tears, her show is going on hiatus and might be canceled. Something about it losing big time in the ratings to Glee"
"Good I hope that bitch's show gets canceled and she has to go back to South Carolina and of course her show is losing to Glee, because Glee is a good show, her show is just shit."
You have to hold back your laugh, because pissed off Logan is so much better then normal Logan.
"Come on babe you know you don't believe that, Jo is our friend."
"Yeah a friend who can't seem to keep her hands off my boyfriend."
"Logie, come on she doesn't even know we're going out, no one knows we are going out."
"And whose fault is that! Huh Kendall?"
" Don't yell at me for that Logan you're the one who said it was ok and that you understood!"
You're taken back; sure you've heard Kendall yell pretty good sometimes, but never ever at Logan.
"Just go away Kendall."
"But Logie."
"Please Kendall, just give me some space."
You hear Kendall mutter a small sorry and shuffle down the hallway. You can almost imagine what he looks like. His shoulders slumped over and his head hanging low, and his hands stuffed into his pockets. You wait until you hear the front door open and close, before you open your door and make your way over to Logan and James' room. You hear Logan crying before you even get all the way to the door.
It's not the crying that Camille does when she is rehearsing, or the one James does when he is out of hair gel. It's the one that you remember from your mom when you were five and your dad left. You don't remember much from back then, but you remember the crying, you remember the crying more then anything.
You're not sure what to do. You think you should run after Kendall, or go get your mom; and she would know what to do. She is the one that can handle crying, you can't handle it. It's the reason why you never finish The Notebook or Titanic.
You reach in your pocket and pull out the master key you made to all the rooms before opening up the door. You take in a sharp breath at the sight of Logan rocking back and forth on his bed. When he looks up at you, you're pretty sure that your heart breaks. His eyes are bloodshot and he looks like he has been crying for hours, not just a few minutes.
Before he can say anything you make your way over to him and just hug him. He doesn't over analyze it and ask a million questions. He just cries as you hold him. You can't help but think how wrong this situation is. Your brother should be the one seating with you as you cry over a boy, you should not be seating with your brother's crying boyfriend. You just shake the thought away, because when have you ever been normal?
You just seat with Logan until you realize that he fall asleep; slowly you remove yourself from the room, making sure to close the door behind you. Not two minutes later does Carlos and James burst into the apartment with your mother right behind them, each of them with bags full of food. You're about to ask where Kendall is when he appears with a 3 boxes of pizza.
You wanna ask him what is going on, but you know you can't. Kendall can't handle people knowing about him and Logan right now and if you just grilled him on why he is being such a fuck up, your pretty sure you are only going to make it worse.
However that does not mean you can't ignore him for the rest of the night. Sure you can't yell at him, but you're still pretty pissed off at him for hurting your other brother like that.
You're all halfway through dinner when your mom finally asks where Logan is. Before you get a chance to say anything Kendall says something about him not feeling well. Everyone seems to believe him. You on the other hand can't help but notice that Kendall looks down the hallway toward Logan's room every time he thinks that no one is watching.
You can't help but be angry with yourself. How could you have missed this huge secret that was right under your nose. You pride yourself on being able to get dirt on everyone. For example you know that last year Carlos wet his bed the night after he watched Paranormal Activity.
You try not to think about the fact that Logan does not get up for the rest of the night. James says he is a little worried about him before they all gather around to watch the weekly Sunday night movie. Kendall just says that they ate a hotdog earlier it probably did not agree with him.
You notice that Kendall can't go more then a minute without checking his phone. You're pretty sure that it's Logan he is trying to reach. The look on his face tells you that Logan still has not talked to him yet.
You've almost forgotten about the whole thing by the time you're getting ready for bed. That is until you notice Kendall pause and look at the door to Logan and James' room before sighing and continuing to his own.
Yeah you believe in God and everything, but you don't really pry that much. However, right before you fall asleep you send up a small one, asking for Logan and Kendall to make up, because if there were one thing that you would pry for, it would be your brother and Logan. But then again that's not saying that much, because you would do anything for those two
When you wake up the next morning you realize two things. The first is that your mother is gone; you roll your eyes and just laugh at the fact that your mom was not joking when she said that she was going to join that running photography club.
The second thing you notice is that you don't smell any breakfast. Logan always made breakfast during the week. You sigh knowing that your prayer went unanswered.
Getting up, you slowly make your way into the living room to see James and Carlos on the couch eating some cereal and laughing at an old episode of SpongeBob. You turn to see your brother leaning up against the counter with a bowl in his hands. You don't have to even look at what's inside it; you already know its oatmeal. Your brother always makes oatmeal when he is upset.
The words are out of your mouth before you even have a chance to stop them.
"Logan still sick?"
Kendall's head snaps up to look at you. You're pretty sure that you've never felt your heart break so many times in the two days before. A man who looks utterly defeated now replaces the sight of your normally confident brother. Since you only learned of your brother's relationship the day before, you can't be too sure, but you think that this fight is different than any other one they've had before.
You overhear James say something about Logan saying he still didn't feel well, and that he was going to miss school today. Kendall just dumps the rest of his food in the sink before returning back to his room to get ready, Carlos and James soon follow suit.
Logan never misses school; in fact you can't remember a single time when Logan ever took a day off from learning. You know something is seriously wrong now.
When the boys come back out and tell you to keep an eye on Logan, you can't help but notice that Kendall looks at you like he wants to tell you everything, and you really want him to. However he just tells you that they will be back by the time you have to leave for school.
You can't help but feel as of you came in at the end of a sad movie. You hope that it's not true and that this has a happy ending, but when you remember that look on Logan's face you want to cry.
Thinking about Logan and your brother breaking up makes you sick. You've been aware of this relationship for less then 24 hours, yet the very idea of it ending makes you want to lose it.
You can picture their whole life. You see them in a small apartment in college, as Kendall shouts at the television while watching a hockey game. You see Logan in the kitchen watching the game, while also studying. The two of them walking to class hand in hand, just completely ignoring everyone else that is not in their own little world.
You see the two of them getting married in Hawaii on a beautiful beach at sunset, because it's Logan and Kendall where else would they get married? You see James and you standing by Kendall, while Carlos and Camille stand by Logan. You see your mother and Logan's mom in tears in the front row. Yeah Kendall will say that he does not care who all is there, but you and Logan both know that he wants as many friends and family members there as possible.
You see the whole white picket fence, and two dogs and a cat and a couple of kids. You're pretty sure that you would give them a damn kid if you have to, because what wouldn't you do for them?
You notice that you feel something wet drip on your hands. You look down and see sure enough a bunch of water drops on your hands. You bring your hand up and sure enough. Kendall and Logan have made you cry. You wanna punch the both of them for it, but you know that you won't.
You get up and shakily make your way to Logan's room, you are happy to find the door unlocked. With a twist of the knob you are looking the same awful picture that is Logan. He is still crying, but maybe not has hard as he had been the night before. Again you just walk over to him and sit with him and try and comfort him. The two of you just sit there for what feels like hours, but was probably just a few minutes. You think that he is asleep again, when his voice comes out in a shaky tone.
"I love him so much Katie."
"I know Logan."
"I…I just don't want to be hurt by him."
"You know that Kendall would never hurt you."
"Maybe not on purpose, but I know he will."
"I … I'm only like 11 Logan, so umm can you tell me what you mean by that? Because when I look at Kendall I don't think he could hurt you even if he wants to. He loves you too much."
"Sometimes I forget that you're younger then the rest of us Katie."
"You avoided the question."
"Damn you're good."
"Don't you forget it."
The two of you just sit there for a few more minutes. You know that Logan needs time, for whatever it is he is about to say.
"It's…It's just that I know that anyone else could make him happy. I'm nothing really special Katie. I know that he could be happy with Jo, or any other girl. Part of me just wants to end this before he can realize this and hurt me even more. Every day that I am with him I am happier then the day before. Everyday that I'm not with him is like I'm dying. I've never really felt this strongly about anyone in my life. Hell I've never felt this strongly about anything in my whole life. I'm…I'm just scared that…I'm just not good enough for him. I've…I've got to go"
The smart boy is up and off the bed and outta the room before you even realize what he is doing.
You jump off the bed and run to the living room to see the front door open. You think that maybe you should chase after him, but what would you even do once you find him? You're going to send him a text telling him to stop acting like a fool, but you realize that he ran outta the room so fast he left his phone behind.
You notice the time and you mumble that you really don't want to go to class.
By the time you have gotten yourself ready and are about to walk out of the door you see James and Carlos bust in, looking none too happy. You're going to ask them what is wrong, but thankfully Carlos lets it all out before you even have to ask.
"Do you even freaking believe Kendall?"
James just looks at you and then back at the Latino, before opening his mouth to talk, however Carlos does not let him get any words out.
"I mean he can't just dump that on us and then run away, that's just not cool dude."
Again James is going to respond, but you don't let him.
"What happened to my brother?"
The pretty boy just rolls his eyes and makes his way into the kitchen to grab some lunch, letting the shorter boy tell the story.
"So get this Katie, we get out of class and James and I were talking about going to eat at that place up the road that only sells corndogs, they only sell corndogs! Corndogs Katie!"
If this is the whole story you might just have to kill the older boy.
"That it?"
"What? No Katie, let me finish and don't interrupt. That's rude."
You shake your head and motion for him to continue, and you're pretty sure that you're going to kill him anyway.
"Anyway like I said James and I were talking about going to eat there, when we asked Kendall what he thought about it, and you know what he did? He freaking snapped at me! He went on and on about how that they're more important things in life, and some other stuff. The whole times James and I kept looking at each other like, 'Dude we were just asking you to get something to eat with us.' So then before he ran off, brace yourself for this Katie. He said that he did not like corndogs anyway! He said that he did not like corndogs! Do you believe that Katie!"
You don't even answer him. You just walk right past him and out the door. You hope that Kendall and Logan are some place talking, but you have your doubts.
You hate that you can't pay attention to class at all. You hate that you don't know what to do. You hate a lot of things, but right now you really hate that for the fist time in your life that you have no clue how to help your brother. Normally you would come up with some huge elaborate scheme to help, but you don't think that you can come up with something big enough to fix this.
After thinking about it for a few minutes, and running through all the harebrained ideas you can come up with. You know that you can't do this. You hate feeling helpless.
You run of class, you don't even stop to tell the girl off who says that it's not supposed to rain in California because people in California are to pretty for the rain, and you run outside to get across the pool and into the lobby trying desperately to stay dry from the rain that is pelting down all around you.
If you were feeling better you would laugh at the fact that it was raining. Of course it would rain on the day that Kendall and Logan are fighting. Then you remember that it's Logan and your brother that you're talking about here, so of course it's going to rain.
When you get inside you notice that no one is home, you see the note on the table that says Carlos and James went to grab a second lunch, and that your mom is out at an audition. You laugh, because your mom is taking this whole turning 40 thing amazingly. However your laugh quickly turns into a sigh, when you read that Kendall and Logan still have not come back yet, and to tell them to text mom and let her know what is going on.
You're assuming that means that Kendall and Logan have not told anyone where they are. You're also assuming that Kendall and Logan are even together. You really hope that Kendall found Logan and are just talking some place. However you have your doubts with that.
You try to keep yourself busy around the apartment, but your mind keeps going back to your brother.
You give it about two hours before you grab your coat and run to the roof. You're sure that you'll find at least one of them up there. When you reach the roof you just cuss under your breath because the roof is vacant. You think that you should just go back and wait, but then you remember that you're Katie freaking Knight and you don't wait around for anything.
You next try Camille's apartment. You know that Logan and her have become a lot closer since the break up. Again you are angry to find her dad the only one home. He tells you that she is with Jo at a spa for the rest of the day.
You quickly run through all the places that they might have gone. At this point you know that the two of them have to be together, and that scares you. You your brother is not good with words, and poor Logie is terrified that he is not good enough for that idiot of a brother of yours.
Before you are even aware you are out and running to the park. You're pretty sure that your mom is going to let you have it when she sees the mud stained shoes and jeans. Right now however you have bigger things to worry about.
The park is empty but you see a bike by the nature trail, you're sure that you've seen it around before but you can't remember where. You head off towards the trail, partly because you want to get a closer look at the bike and also because there is a little gazebo and you want to get dry for a second.
After you find your brother you're going to be sure to tell him that he is going to pay for your dry cleaning bill.
After catching your breath for a second, you hear yelling. You're off in the direction of the screaming before you even put your hood up. After all it's Kendall and Logan, they are worth catching a cold for.
When you round the corner you see the two of them. Your breath catches. It's hard to tell because of all of the rain, but you're pretty sure that the two of them have been crying nonstop. Your brother has his head resting on Logan's, who is clutching your brother for all he is worth. You really hope that you are not too late. You wish on every star out there that this were a make up hug, and not a hug good bye.
"God Logan I love you so much, I'm so sorry."
"I… I know Kendall."
"I don't deserve it, but can you please forgive me?"
"Already did."
You're not sure how they made up, or what this means for the two of them. You're pretty sure that you have about 100 more questions racing through your mind. You're not sure why they've been crying. You hope this is the last fight you have to ever see between the two of them. You can only smile at the sight of the two of them exchanging a simple kiss.
On the way here you kept running through how you were going to save the day. What you were going to say that would some how magically fix everything. You were pretty sure that yet again it would be up to you to save your brother from himself. You're Katie Knight and that's what you do. Your brother makes a fool of himself and then you run in and save everything.
It looks like though Kendall can handle this one on his own. You're surprised to say the least. This is Kendall Knight you are talking about here. The boy who still sleeps with a stuffed dog, and still gets excited when the new Pokémon games come out.
Then again it's Kendall and Logan, and really what can't the two of them handle?
You turn and walk away, and wonder if maybe Logan can be the one to save Kendall from now on. Because honestly you're getting kind of tired of it.
A/N: Alright I hope liked the first post, and just to let everyone know updates will be every Saturday.
Also in case it was not really all that clear, this takes places in the fall of 2010. You will find out later the reasons for everything.
Alright have a good one.