Hey everyone, I know this is my second Gilmore Girls story, the last one I lost a bit of interest in it, but if you review enough i'll be sure to finish this story, anyway, its called "Complicated"
Summary: Rory Gilmore is through thinking of Logan Huntzberger, he walked out of her life more then a year before, she was living in Florida with her boyfriend Jess, but they broke up and Rory decided to start a new life in New York, but what happens when, Logan along with his rich, snobbish, arch-enemy Tristan Durgray,walk back into her life, only problem is, Tristan and Logan have forgotten the effect that Rory had on them, Once the Gilmore Girls enter your life, they never just leave.
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Love Tracy
seems like it was yesterday
when I saw your face
you told me how proud you were
but I walked away
If only I knew
what I know today
RORY
"Logan ... Logan ... I love you" Rorry whispered, tossing and turning, then she woke with a suddend jolt and looked next to her, the bed was empty, she remembered that she and Jess were no longer a couple, and since they broke up, a certain Huntzberger had been running around in her head, she couldn't do it anymore, she knew he was in London, it was in all the papers, so she decided that she needed a change, new job, new house, new friends and most importantly, a new boyfriend, one who prefferable would take Logan's place, she didnt think she could manage thinking of Logan for much longer, little did she know, her life was just about to get way more complicated then it had ever been before.
I would hold you in my arms
I would take the pain away
thank-you for all you've done
forgive all you mistakes
there's nothing I wouldn't do
to hear your voice again
sometimes I wanna call you
but I know you wont be there
LOGAN
"Baby ... come to bed" Mandy cooed to Logan, he turned around annoyed at her, she always did that, just when he started to think of Ace, she would come, he didnt love Mandy, but everyone also knew that Mandy was only with him because he was LOGAN HUNTZBERGER, the name said it all, but she was really sexy and most of the time got his mind off Ace,
"Not now" I shouted, as I turned around again, I was supposed to be in London, but my dad had called me back, said I needed to take a vacation and then in 2 weeks meet him up in New York, I looked out again, at the crashing waves, we were staying in my parents beach house, in California, I fliped open my phone and strolled down to that familar number, took a deep breath and hit call, calling Ace came up on the screen of my phone, as I gentle put it to my ear, I had no idea why I was phoning her, or what I would say, but before my thoughts could be finished someone picked up the phone,
"hello" said a sleeply voice,
"Um ... uh ... hi, i'm looking for Rory Gilmore" I said nervously into the phone,
"I'm sorry, you have the wrong number, there is no Rory Gilmore living here" the lady informed me, I felt my heart drop,
"O okay, thanks" I said and silently hung up,
I walked back into the living room and threw my phone on the table,
"What was that" Mandy asked, coming into the living room after hearing the bang,
"Nothing lets just go to bed" I snaped as I stormed into the room and climbed into bed,
"Logan," Mandy said from the doorway, walking tarwards me in her night gown, she was probably the second most beautiful girl he had ever met, Rory being the first,
"Not now, I'm tired," I appoligised as I turned off the light and turned on my side, looking at the moon, the truth was, I had no idea why I was phoning Rory's old number, but on all those cold, lonely nights in London, I had conviced myself I could still talk to her, all I had to do was press the call button on my phone, but now it made me come to a conclusion, Rory Gilmore was really out of my life, forever. with a heavy heart, I finally went to sleep, vowing to forget all about her.
TRISTAN
I sat at the bar, in my usual place, ordering my usual drink, I was getting so tired of doing the same thing everynight, hanging out with the same people, going to the same place, I was adventure, something different, I wanted to meet that special someone, the person who would make me smile as soon as I woke up in the morning, the person who would make my day worth living, I had matured since leaving Military School, I understand now, that in my Chilton days I was this childish, inmuture rich snob, I had changed since those days, well at least a little bit,
"Tristan, wanna dance" Vanessa asked me, I smiled and we headed towards the dance floor, the music blasting and the room started spinning, the usual effect that alochol had on me, I knew in that moment what would happen, I would wake up at Vannessa's or my house tomorrow morning, with her laying next to me, the evening was just so predictable.
Im sorry for
blaming you
for everything
I just couldnt do
and Ii've hurt myself
by hurting you
RORY
Two weeks had passed and I was now moving to New York City, I went for an interview and got a job at the New York Times, I finished packing my stuff and was carrying my last box to the car, I turned around and looked at the appartment, It was sad, I had spent the 18 months in here, there were so many happy memories, but there were more sad memories anything else, and I just couldnt stay there, I hadn't really made any friends in Florida, as Jess wasn't really a people person, I smiled remembering Logan, everyone had always wanted to hang out with him, and I was one of the lucky people who Logan actully watned to hang out with, The drive from Orlando to New York City, was long, and when I finally arrived it was well after midnight, I sighed and carried my bags inside my new apartment, it was nothing facy, but it was nice, I put the few boxes on the floor and climbed into bed, luckly it was already furnished,
some days I feel broke inside
but I wont admit
sometimes I just wanna hide
cause its you I miss
and its so hard to say goodbye
when it comes to this
LOGAN
I tossed and turned that night, but all that ran through my mind was the day Rory and I broke up outside Paris's, I woke up and looked at my alarm clock it read 03:30, I sighed again, but climbed out of bed quietly so I wouldn't wake Mandy up, I walked into the bar area in the the beach house, and grabbed the bottle of Jack Daniels that my dad always kept there, I knew drinking was the answer, but at this moment, it was better then the pain I was feeling right now, hell anything was better then feeling my heart breaking like this, I got up and walked towards the spare room, I opened up the cupboard and pulled the things from the cupboard, until I found what I was looking for, I smiled as I felt my hand brush against it, and pulled it down, then walked back outside, the the JD in one hand the picture of Ace and I in the other, I smiled while staring at the picture, no-one knew I still had this, I had used it jokingly a few times to blackmail Ace, but it was all in good fun, after we broke up, I told Colin and Finn that I burnt everything that reminded me of her, but when I tried to burn the picture, it did somthing to me, and I couldn't bare the thought, it was almost like if I burnt it, I would totally forget about her, and although at the moment thats all I wanted to do, I just couldn't deep down I knew I would never be able to forget about her. It was just something I was going to have to get used to, that I down the rest of the Jack Daniels, and sat outside watching the sun rise, things like that always made me think of her, no matter how hard I tried not to.
TRISTAN
I woke up the next morning as usual and found myself in Vannessa's house,
"Hey Tristan" she purred cuddling up closer to me, but I just couldn't take it, I jumped out of bed disgusted, How could I keep doing this I thought to myself,
"Tristan ... whats wrong" she asked confussed,
"I ... I don't know ... I ... I just can't do this anymore" I stuttered, not completly sure myself why I was freaking out so bad, I grabbed my clothes and headed into the bathroom and 5 minutes later I was dressed and heading out of the appartment, I suddenly stopped and turned around to face Vannessa,
"Don't you ever get sick of it, getting drunk and sleeping with whoever you see, don't you want a steady, reliable relashionship?" I asked her, you could see her look at me confussed, then she smiled and nodded,
"Yeah I do" she whispered, I smiled sadly at her and turned around and walked out of the apartment.
would you tell me I was wrong
would you help me understand
are you looking down upon me
are you proud of who I am
there's nothing I wouldn't do
to just have one more chance
to look into your eyes
and see you looking back
I'm sorry for
blaming you
for everything
I just couldnt do it
and I've hurt myself
RORY
I woke up the next morning refreshed, and I groaned, as I noticed all the boxes that needed to be unpacked, it was Saturday and on Monday I was starting my new job, I got up and got dressed then headed down to the nearst Star bucks, I had to find my coffee before I even started to think of my day, I smiled as I looked around the city, it was your usual Saturday morning in New York, the streets were buzzing with people who were shopping, it was also nearing Christmas so everyone was also busy christmas shopping, I walked casually into the Starbucks and headed to the take-away counter, I ordered my regular coffee and left, after a few minutes I was back in my appartment and as soon as my coffee was finished I decided to start unpacking my boxes, i finished all the unpacking and realised I still had one box left, I opened it, but automatically regretted it, it was my Logan Box, I forgot that I had it, I smiled sadly as I pulled out a whole lot of pictures, Logan and I looked so happy in them, I smiled wondering how Logan would feel about me now, if he would be proud of me, or disspointed, I read about in the papers and I had to stop myself from shouting to everyone that he used to be my boyfriend, I knew he could do go things if he just put his mind to it,
If I had just one more day
I would tell you how much that Ive missed
you since you've been away
its dangerous
its so out of line
to try and turn back time
Im sorry for
blaming you
for everything
I just couldnt do
and I've hurt myself
by hurting you
AN:
Okay here is Chapter one, this is Christina Aguliera's new song, hurt,
I just want to ask what you all think, I was looking very forward to writing this story, but its not coming out the way I planned, so if you have any idea's/suggestions, please let me know, I also need help getting into the 'colin-finn characters and the normal lorilai and rory, so any help would be amazing, the more review i get the quicker the chapter will go up.
thanks again
Lots of love
Tracy