Well, this is my first fanfiction and I hope you guys enjoy it! I apologize in advance for any grammar or spelling mistakes, I was up late writing this while I still had inspiration left so it might be a little rushed… Anywho, I would greatly appreciate if you would read and review just to let me know if I should continue this. (:
Her Silent Tears
Every morning was the same. Nothing new ever happened to her. She was still the same lonely, abused, and heartbroken girl. Yet, she forced a smile upon her face and made everyone believe she was fine. Nobody suspected that underneath that smile, was pain and sorrow...
Haruka woke up to the sound of her alarm clock ringing violently. She hit the snooze button and pulled away her covers. As she stood up to prepare for the day, she winced in pain and remembered the previous day of abuse. Her legs had bruises, along with her arms and parts of her face. But even though the bruises hurt, she still had to attend school and carry on with her life. There was no other option.
Moving slowly, she reached the bathroom and stripped out of her pj's. Haruka turned the nozzle to the faucet and waited as the water warmed up enough to her liking. After a few minutes, she stepped in and let the steaming water run over her bruise covered body.
After her blissful shower, she got dressed in her school uniform and forced a smile on her face. 'Well, let's see what happens today.' She thought to herself. Haruka left the dorms and headed off to her daily classes. As she walked down the hallway she saw the people who caused her all the pain she felt, the people she hated. Before she could turn and run, the leader of the group, Risa, saw her.
"And where do you think you're going, bitch?" Risa said as she walked towards Haruka.
"J-just to class. Nowhere else, I swear." Haruka shakily answered, knowing what was coming next.
"Ha! I don't think so! You aren't going anywhere while I'm around, you damn whore." Risa then took a step forward and raised her hand, ready to swipe it across poor Haruka's face. But before she could, the members of STARISH rounded the corner.
Haruka fell to her knees in relief and watched as Risa and her groupie changed their personalities and became sweet, innocent, and loving girls. Haruka only inwardly laughed because she knew what they were really like.
The boys noticed Haruka on her knees and the other girls surrounding her. They didn't know what was going on, but were kind of curious to know.
"Ah, Haru-chan, what are you doing on the floor?" Natsuki was the first to speak up.
"Oh, um... I wa-" Haruka was then cut of by Risa.
"She fell down and we just happened to be near and decided to help her." Risa sweetly replied.
"Is my Little-Lamb going to be alright?" Ren questioned.
"I'll be fine Jinguji-san. Please don't worry." Haruka gave him her usual heartwarming smile.
All the boys were finally convinced by Haruka and looked over at Risa and her group to thank them for being kind and helping her. Haruka only wished they knew what really happened. It pained her to lie to the people she trusted the most, but she thought it would only trouble them if she told them she was being bullied.
After the members of STARISH left for class, Risa turned her attention back to Haruka.
"You got lucky this time, bitch. But don't expect it to happen again." With that, Risa and her group walked to class, leaving Haruka still sitting on the floor.
The bell rung, signaling the beginning of class. Hearing this, Haruka got up and headed to her classes for the day.
~Time Skip To After School~
The last bell of the day had rung and all the students either headed to the dorms or headed to the shopping plaza. Haruka grabbed her things and rushed to the studio, carefully making sure to avoid Risa and her groupie. Successfully doing so, she arrived at the studio and stepped in to meet all the members of STARISH who were practicing their dancing and just chatting. This made her smile because she loved seeing them all happy and getting along.
Haruka sat at the piano and placed down some of the recent songs she had created. The boys watched her as she did so and suddenly began to notice bruises upon her pale skin. How had they not noticed them before? The bruises looked as clear as day and yet none of the 7 guys had noticed. Then again, they couldn't be blamed. Haruka hadn't been spending much time with them lately. Normally after they practiced her new song, she was instantly out the door before anyone could say anything to her. What was really weird was that Risa and her friends always came by right as Haruka left. This made them all suspicious.
Otoya, Tokiya, Syo, Ren, Masato, Cecil, and Natsuki then snapped out of their thoughts when Haruka began to play the piano. She played a soft, but fast melody. This caught their attention because they could feel all the emotions she put into the song. An hour later, practice was over and the boys all walked out of the room. Although they noticed Haruka was still inside sitting at the piano. They watched through a crack in the door as she pulled out more papers and set them on the stand.
Haruka, not knowing the boys were still there by the door, began to play her song.
ERROR – Joydreamer
Can you see the tears I cry? Slowly falling from my eye
Blurring all the colors of living
Why did you leave me standing alone to drown?
I'm calling and I am falling down
This blue and red and white is just blurring in my sight
I am shouting from the world here inside me
I am not really sure what I'm looking for
I'm tired chasing to comprehend
I'm wondering when it will end?
Am I breaking down again?
I am breaking just like then!
But I want to know that I am breathing, I'm breathing
I wonder if I just saw you
I am dreaming hoping for something new
The words are stuck that you stand for - ERROR
On a distant day I see light swaying away
And it's overflowing up in the high sky
Can you decide and tell me, what is your choice?
My tears are welling up by your voice
The consciousness is floating by
Melting all I feel and I see the world inside me get blurry
What are you standing there and comparing to?
I'm sad, I'm failing to comprehend
I'm wondering when it will end?
Is this my distorted soul?
This is my distorted goal
But I want to know that I am breathing, I'm breathing
I wonder if I just saw you
I am dreaming hoping for something new
The words are stuck that you stand for - ERROR
Even if I give it all, even if I lose it all, if I just forget it all
Can I? No, I can't
I am still a restless soul, laughing out with no control, I am killing what is whole
This is ERROR
Am I broken by your words?
Do you know what "broken" is?
Though you know that tears are only hurting, their hurting
So tell me, are my words reaching
With my voice I'm standing here just to sing
My words are lining and blurring
They're just overlapping with colors wrapping
The boys were completely shocked by Haruka's performance. Who knew she was that good? 'Wow...' They all thought, still amazed. Suddenly, all of them heard Haruka start walking to the door. It looked like she was in a rush...
Everyone ran behind the corner while they watched Haruka run down the hall, a panicked look on her face. Then, she was gone. The boys came out of their hiding place and began their way to their dorms.
~10 Minutes Later~
"Am I the only one that noticed the bruises on Haruka's body?" Tokiya broke the silence as they walked outside and across the campus.
"I think we all noticed them. They were as clear as day, idiot." Syo looked like he was beginning to get frustrated already over the topic.
"I'm more curious on how the Little Lamb got all the bruises." Ren said as calmly as ever. Deep down he was worried, but he could never show that to all the other men in the group. He didn't want to seem so weak.
Before the conversation could go on any farther, they saw Haruka sitting outside in the distance, staring at the sky as it began to snow. She didn't have any winter clothes on, just her usual school uniform and this concerned the boys a bit.
They all thought Haruka must have not seen them nearby because she closed her eyes and let her tears fall freely down her cheeks. Once she opened her tear filled eyes, she smiled and held her hand out to catch the frozen crystals that softly fell from the sky.
But then suddenly, her smile turned into that panicked look again as Risa and her group started walking her way. Haruka wanted to get up and run, but her legs refused to move. Before she knew it, Risa was right in front of her.
From where the boys were hiding, they couldn't hear the conversation between the two. But from the looks of it, the conversation wasn't a good one. Before they could even wonder what the conversation was about, the sound of a hand hitting Haruka's face filled the air.
Without a care in the world, Risa began to walk away with her group while laughing. This angered the boys greatly and they began to piece the puzzle together. Risa, the bruises, Haruka being so quite, and her panicked looks all made sense now. When Risa was finally gone, the boys rushed towards Haruka, worried.
Haruka just sat there when she saw the boys heading her way. She already knew what they had seen and couldn't hide it any longer. As Otoya, Ren, Syo, Masato, Tokiya, Natsuki, and Cecil got closer, Haruka put a smile on her face.
"Haru-chan/Lady/Haruka/Nanami!" All the boys shouted in unison as they looked at her with worry on their faces.
"Ah, hello minna-san." Haruka said calmly with a smile.
The boys just stared at her, knowing her smile was fake. Haruka felt their stares and couldn't hold back any longer. She covered her face with her hands and began crying harder than the first time.
Otoya made the first move and kneeled down in front of Haruka. This made Haruka look up from her hands and without thinking twice, she flung herself into his arms and cried. He just put his arms around her and rubbed circles on her back. Otoya could feel the glares of jealousy from the other members, but he didn't care. Haruka was the only thing that mattered right now.
"I'm right here Nanami, everything is going to be okay." Otoya said softly into her ear. She just nodded in response and continued crying.
"We're all here for you, Nanami. You can always tell us what's wrong." Masato stated with a hint of jealousy in his voice.
"Little Lamb why hide something like this?" Ren asked calmly and all the other guys nodded in agreement.
Haruka finally stopped crying and wrapped her hands around Otoya's neck and laid her head on his shoulder, making him blush at her sudden actions.
After getting no reply from her, they got more worried. Was she mad at them? Did they say something bad? Otoya looked down at Haruka only to find that she had fallen asleep. They guys let out a sigh of relief to see she wasn't mad or crying anymore.
"Aww! Haru-chan looks so cute when she's asleep!" Natsuki said clapping his hands together with happiness.
"Natsuki you moron, be quite or you'll wake her up!" Syo scolded, making sure she didn't wake up from the noise.
"I think it might be wise if we all go inside. Nanami will get sick staying out here in the cold." Tokiya said while giving a death glare to Otoya.
"I call dibs on carrying my beloved princess to her room!" Cecil said, earning even worse glares from the other 6 men.
"Doesn't look like we get much of a choice beings that the Lady is already latched onto someone…" Ren trailed off, turning away to hide the jealousy that spread quickly across his face.
Otoya picked Haruka up and adjusted her so that he could carry her bridal style. Her arms were still around his neck and her face still buried into his shoulder. Otoya and the others began walking to the dorms in silence because they didn't want to wake up the sleeping Haruka.
~Time Skip To The Dorms~
When they finally got to Haruka's room, Syo opened the door and Otoya walked over to her bed. He laid her down gently and unwrapped her arms from his neck. She stirred in her sleep a bit and turned onto her side, facing towards the wall. Otoya pulled the covers over her body and whispered goodnight to her.
As he walked out of the room and shut the door, he saw many deadly expressions. Otoya knew he'd be punished for this later but didn't care because holding and carrying Haruka was completely worth it. Any of the guys would agree if they were in Otoya's position.
Finally, it became really late at night and the boys headed off to their rooms. Tomorrow would be the day they found out what was really going on and why Risa was being so mean to Haruka. Sure, the members of STARISH were still pretty pissed off over what happened earlier, but they couldn't do anything until they heard Haruka's side of the story.
To be continued…