Jeff looks at me, I fake a smile so he won't see
That I want and I'm needing everything that we should be
I'll bet she's beautiful, that girl he talks about
And she's got everything that I have to live without
I looked up at the man that had my heart and didn't even know it. Not that I would tell him anyways. Why when all he can talk about is Beth? "Hey Sam want to come out with me tonight?"
"Sure." I said as I put away my guitar.
"Ok we'll just stop by Beth's and pick her up then." He said to he as he punched me in the shoulder.
If he only knew how much he hurts me when he does that. I love him and he wants me to be the third wheel. "Crap Jeff I can't I promised Shannon that I'll come over tonight so he can finish the tattoo."
"I'll drop you off." He said to me.
"No I got my bike don't worry about me." I said to him.
When he looked at me I thought I saw regret in his eyes but I know that it's just my eyes playing tricks on me. "Is there something bothering you Sam?"
"Nothing important don't worry about it." I said to him before I gave him a hug..
And just like that he walked away without looking back at me. Something I should be use to now. But he use to look back before Beth.
Jeff talks to me, I laugh cause it's so damn funny
That I can't even see anyone when he's with me
He says he's so in love, he's finally got it right,
I wonder if he knows he's all I think about at night
"So I got something for Beth but I was wondering if you think that she will like it." He said as he handed me a box.
"I opened the box and my heart dropped when I saw the one thing that I wished was meant from me the original Hardy crest necklace. It was serious if he was giving this to her. I took a deep breath before I spoke so my voice wouldn't crack. "She will love it. So it's this serious huh?"
"Yeah I think that I'm going to ask her to marry me." He said and my heart shattered.
"She is a very lucky woman to have you." I said before I closed the box and handed it back to him.
It's too bad he can't see that I was right there in front of him waiting for him to see. "So are you dating anyone yet?"
"No the one I want is taken." I said without looking at him.
"Then he is crazy for not wanting you." He said as he hugged me to him.
"Yeah well he'll never see it." I said to him knowing that it was true.
He looked down at me. "Then he isn't worth your time."
"Yeah but I can't help how I feel about him. I've loved him for a long time." I said as I pulled away from him.
"Who is he?" He asked me.
"No one that you need to worry about." I said to him.
He looked at me and I thought I saw love in his eyes but I knew that my eyes were playing tricks on me. "Well it's too bad that he can't see."
He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing star
He's the song in the car I keep singing, don't know why I do
I sat there thinking of him as I played my guitar. I didn't realize I was crying until a tear hit my hand. "Hey Sam are you ok?"
"Oh Matt I didn't know that you were here." I said as I wiped the tears from my eyes.
"He still doesn't see does he?" He asked me and I started to sob.
"My brother is stupid not to see that everything he needs is right in front of him." He said as he pulled me to him.
"I almost told him last night but I couldn't I just couldn't put myself out there knowing that he loves her so much." I sobbed into his chest.
"Once you were all he would talk about. Then Beth walked in and it was all about her. I had him convinced in telling you just how he felt before she walked past our table." He whispered to me.
"Then it wasn't love." I said as I pulled away from him.
"For I am madly in love with him and he can't see it." I said as I put my guitar in it's case.
"He'll see it Sam and when he does he will realize the mistake that he has made." He said to me.
"He is going to ask her to marry him." I said to him and he gasped.
"No she is just a gold digger and he can't see it." He said to me.
"It's too late for that." I said as I stood up. "I was offered a job in California and I think I'm going to take it. Maybe I can get over him if I'm not here anymore."
"Sweetie there is no reason to leave." He said to her.
"Tell that to my shattered heart." I said before I grabbed my case walked out of the sound room.
Jeff walks by me, can he tell that I can't breathe?
And there he goes, so perfectly,
The kind of flawless I wish I could be
She'd better hold him tight, give him all her love
Look in those beautiful eyes and know she's lucky cause
I watched as Beth walked towards me and knew that this was the time to leave. I got up and picked up my purse. "Sam can we talk?"
"There is nothing to talk about you got him." I said to her.
Tears were falling and I knew it. "Don't worry I'm moving in two days I won't be in your life anymore."
She looked at me shocked and then sighed. "Why are you leaving?"
"So I don't have to watch you have the life that I want. The one that I wish every night for." I said before I walked away from her.
He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing star
He's the song in the car I keep singing, don't know why I do
How can I face him now that she knows how I feel about him? Did she tell him how I felt about him? Doesn't matter anyways because tomorrow I'm gone. I won't be around to see this anymore. I won't have to feel the pain in my heart any longer and that was what mattered to me the most. Jeff is like my favorite song that warms my heart when I hear it but when I see him with her or he talks about her I feel it break all over again. Someone just pulled up into my driveway and I knew by the car who it was. I wanted to pretend that I wasn't here but he had a key to my house and I know that he will use it without knocking.
"SAM!!" He called from downstairs.
I didn't want to answer but my bike was parked right next to his car. "I'm in my studio!"
I heard him running up the stairs and knew that he knew something I didn't know if it was my leaving or what I told Beth but I would soon find out. He walked in and I saw the anger in his eyes. "Why didn't you tell me that you were leaving?"
"I couldn't bring myself to." I said in a whisper.
"Then why are you leaving?" He asked as he made me look at him.
"I just can't stay here anymore. Just knowing I'll never have who I want I can't let him keep shattering my heart." I said as I pulled away from him.
"Why are you letting him push you away from me??" He yelled at me.
How could I tell him that it was him? How could I tell him that he was the one I was running from? "You have Beth Jeff you will get along just fine without me."
"She doesn't know me like you do." He said to me.
"And you don't know me like you think you do Jeff. I can't stay here and keep getting hurt over and over again. Can't you see that? I love this man and he doesn't even know that I am alive!" I said to him.
"Then he isn't good enough to have you." He said as he walked over to me.
"No I'm not good enough for him." I said as I moved away from him.
"Promise you will keep in touch with me and I will visit you every time I'm in California no matter where in Cali I am at. I will show up at your door just to say hi." He said to me.
I felt myself shout for joy inside as the tears slid down my face. "You know me Jeff I'll always call you no matter what time it is."
So I drive home alone, as I turn out the light
I'll put his picture down and maybe
Get some sleep tonight
I held the picture of us to my chest as I watch him pull away. I realized then that I couldn't go. No I couldn't leave him and that was what broke my heart. So I called the place and told them I got a better offer a few hours away and I was staying here. Which it was true I did get the offer yesterday and I told them I would call them tomorrow with their answer. So that was what I was doing. Now all I had to do was become numb so seeing him with her wouldn't hurt anymore.
"Hey Matt." I said when he walked into the house.
"What are you doing here?" He asked me as he put his bag down.
"Just thought you would like to know that I am the newest member of the WWE." I said to him.
"You aren't going to California?" He asked shocked.
"No I can't no matter how much it hurts I can't leave him." I said to him.
"You got the Pa job?" He asked as he sat beside me and pulled me on his lap.
"Yeah and you are my boss well you and Jeff." I said softly.
"They don't know that trouble we will be causing do they?" He asked and we both laughed.
"Hell no." I said and he hugged me closer to him.
"I luv you Matty." I whispered into his chest as I closed my eyes.
"You want to sleep here tonight with me?" He asked and I nodded.
He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only one who's got enough for me to break my heart
He's the song in the car I keep singing, don't know why I do
He's the time taken up, but there's never enough
And he's all that I need to fall into...
"Hey Matt, have you seen... Sam what the hell is going on here?" Jeff shouted waking us both up.
I sat up and the blanket fell off of me to show the shirt I was wearing the night before. The look on his face change real quick and I thought I saw him actually look relieved that I hadn't screwed his brother. "Oh Jeffie I got good news!!"
"Is it the fact that you aren't moving away from me anymore?" He asked hopefully.
"Yes and I took the job with the WWE and you and Matty are my bosses." I said and he started to jump up and down. That made me the happiest person in the world until Beth walked in. The look on her face told me she heard what I had said and she didn't like it at all. But I know that he will never want me.
"Really huh?" Beth asked and I heard the anger in her voice and so did Matt.
"What's your problem Beth?" He asked her as he sat up. He had no shirt on but that is just him.
"I'm just shocked that she decided that Jeff was more important them this guy that keeps breaking her heart." She said in a prissy voice.
Jeff looked at her shocked and she quickly changed her tune. "I'm happy that she is staying anyways so let's go get breakfast together."
"Hey Jeff, Matt can Beth and I talk alone just for a moment please?" I asked them.
"Yeah we'll go start breakfast." Matt said as he got up.
Beth closed the door and locked it before she turned to me. "I'm not staying to hurt you Beth. I'll get use to the pain. I'm staying because it won't hurt him. I want him to be happy and with you he is. I'll never be able to do that. What he has for you is love. I'm just the best friend."
She looked at me for the moment and then sighed. "I know you would never try to hurt him Sam. I know this because you are kind sweet and amazing. Something that everyone that knows you sees. I'm sorry that he loves me and not you. You do deserve to be loved too."
"Well you got him so keep him happy." I said as I stood up and she saw that I was completely dressed.
"You know you and Matt are perfect for each other." She said to me.
I shook my head and laughed. "Matt and I dated from 8th until I was 20. Then he found Amy. We are just like brother and sister now."
"Come on the boys might think we are killing each other if we don't get down there soon." Beth said and we both laughed at that.
Jeff looks at me, I fake a smile so he won't see.
As we walked down stairs Jeff looked up at me and I could do nothing but smile so he couldn't see the pain that was in my heart. The pain I have imprisoned myself in to keep him happy and not put him through pain. "So what did you guys need to talk about?"
"If we wanted you guys to know we would have talked about it right in front of you." I said as I jumped on Matt's back.
"Damn girl are you happy or what?" He asked and I blew on his neck.
"I hate it when you do that." He growled as I jumped down and took off running.
"Are you sure you want her to have coffee?" Beth asked as Matt chased me around the kitchen.
I hid behind her but when he went to grab me I ran to Jeff and he made sure Matt couldn't touch me. "Don't let him blow on my belly you know that I hate it."
Jeff got an evil smile on his face and I knew that I was done for. "Boys leave her alone or I'm giving her pixie sticks."
I cheered when they backed away and I jumped on Beth and kissed her right on the lips. The boys cheered and we both rolled our eyes. "Men."