I just lay there staring at the ceiling of my room, everything was white just like the color of my hair, for it is one of my favorite colors, everything down to the curtains, carpet, walls and my bed were brilliant white. The way deep red contrasts against the stark white is mesmerizing it's a lovely reminder of sweet blood being spilled, which I assume is why my brothers find my appearance so attractive, the silvery white strands and glowing red eyes I possess, it reminds them of their favorite past time. I'm not conceited I merely understand my beauty for what it is, a nuisance and power. I closed my eyes at the thought of blood and my elder brothers, both bringing a craving to my body. I sighed as I felt the bed dip to my right, I didn't even need to open my eyes to know who it was, their scent was as intoxicating as ever and they always seemed to appear when I wanted them.

I turned on my side and snuggled into the form next to me, placing my head on their chest. I inhaled deeply into their sweater, immersing myself in their scent as an arm snaked around my waist pulling me closer. Although we physically hold no heat his scent makes me feel warm and comforted, not something common for vampires, especially us Sakamaki. Being the youngest had some of it perks, for I did not have to experience the abuse of all our mothers for as long as my brothers did, I was born 3 years after my brother Subaru and I was either fortunately or unfortunately kept with my mother for another three years after, however you want to look at it. My mother like Subaru is Christa, and staying with her till I was the age of three can be seen as a blessing because I escaped a lot of Cordelia's abuse or a curse since I was locked away with my mother and subjected to her abuse. It is still a mystery to my current self as to how father managed to convince Christa to even keep me being as in her eyes I was another filthy abomination that she was tricked into by him, she refused to keep Subaru as a child which is a reason he has hidden resentment towards me. Don't get me wrong all my brothers care for me, in whatever way they choose for I am the families crowned jewel, the only female born to the Sakamaki family. They all coveted me in their jealous and greedy ways and I also cared for each one of them, for I am meant for them as they are meant for me.

I dozed lightly in his arms until I felt him shift, I brought my half open red eyes up to his sleepy intense gaze.

"Nii-san?" I murmured. He continued to stare at me as I stared back.

"You haven't drank recently" He stated bluntly. I huffed and looked in the other direction, he always knew first, he was always watching me whether I realized or not, but that is why he is the eldest.

"hmpff" I wasn't avoiding feeding, I enjoyed it immensely as any young vampire should. Ayato, Laito, Reiji and Kanato are just so exhausting to feed from for they always want something in return, which I am usually in the mood to indulge, just not this week. Subaru and I had another fight for they regularly occur, which doesn't usually affect me so but some of his comments are hard to block from my mind.

**Flashback**

Hands gripped tighter around my slim neck, the bruises that lined my exhausted body were numerous. Subaru and I had been fighting again, I possess equal strength to most of my brothers but being 3 years younger does put my 15-year-old body at a disadvantage. I glared at my brother as I tried to pry his hands from my neck, I may have started this with my smart-ass comment but this is over the top, he was taking all his anger and frustration out on me, I couldn't reach him with my fists so I kicked him in the stomach. He dropped me instantly but before I could recover and attack again he had me pinned against the floor.

"Your just as worthless as I am, you think your special but you're not, Your filth. You were created just for us and we can do whatever we want with you. HE DOESN'T CARE ABOUT YOU AND NEITHER DOES MOTHER, especially not her" He screamed in my face. "you are ours…" He then ripped down the top of my dress and roughly bit into my collarbone. He moaned as my blood spilled into his mouth and dug his fangs deeper into my shoulder. My brothers had always been gentle when feeding from me for it was a pleasure for both parties, especially sharing blood between siblings. There is a certain euphoria that accompanies the pain, but having your shoulder ripped into by your violent brother after being beaten to shit doesn't usually bring about the same feelings, if anything my fifteen-year-old mind was wrapping around the fact the my brothers were going to start acting just as sadistic towards me as they did to their prey. I was use to getting into fights with all of them but they had never beaten me and forcibly taken my blood, I have always been willing but now Subaru was trying to show his dominance over me.

After he finished he avoided my stare and wiped the excess blood from his chin, he removed himself from pinning me to the floor and vanished from the room, looking hesitant and uneasy with what he just did.

**End of Flashback**

I had been keeping to my room or the gardens since the incident two weeks ago, avoiding contact with any of my brothers. I can go longer without feeding but young vampires tend to feed more until they hit the age they remain for the rest of eternity, which tends to be late 20's. I liked to feed from Shuu and Subaru the most which is also probably why Shuu noticed I hadn't fed in a bit.

"Come on" He said lazily while pulling his sweater aside to reveal his neck, I looked at his neck tempted then back to his blue gaze and back to his neck the once again back to his eyes. I moved to straddle him on my bed and lowered myself to his face, I captured his lips for a deep quick kiss before leaning farther into his neck. I placed small kisses along the area of his neck I was about to sink my fangs into, "Thank you" I whispered before sinking them into his flesh. The richness was instant, it is one of my favorite flavors, I unknowingly sunk my hips lower into Shuu's as I pulled him closer in my attempt to drink heavier. I was lost in his blood, I felt myself moan into his shoulder involuntarily, He gripped my hips firmly and lifted me slightly, as I also heard Shuu moan into my ear softly. I didn't realize he had grabbed my hips to keep me from rocking back and forth, I had gotten a little carried away while feeding from him, the bulge in his trousers was evidence enough. He moved a couple strands from the front of my face to place them behind my ear as I licked the remaining blood from my lips, then he leaned in and kissed me deeply as I was pressed tightly into him.