AN: Hey! I'm Celeste, and I already have one fic posted here: Anything To Be With You. It's a Jeyton. This one is a general fic. The couples are: Jeyton, Naley and Brucas. It takes place right about the 2nd season finale. It travels through the point's of views of all six of the characters. I hope you like it!
I Care For You
CHAPTER 1: I'll Be Missing You
Peyton's POV
So, it's not that I don't like Lucas. I mean, I think it's really great how he made the effort to truly change into a better person this year. And he is a good friend, always looking out for me and all his other friends too, but I still don't feel like we're good enough friends that I can confide in him. But man, it sure would be nice to talk to SOMEONE. Everything with Jake leaving, worrying about Jenny, my real mother showing up, and my quitting my job at TRIC, I just really feel like I need someone's shoulder to cry on, you know?
But it looks like I'll just have to keep to myself this summer. I know what you might be thinking. What about my mom? If I can even call her that... I mean, I already had a mom, who died seven years ago. But she cared for me and loved me, like a mom should. That's more than what I can say for this stranger who, sure, is my biological mother.
Yesterday, when she showed up at my house, she explained to me that the woman I grew up knowing as my mother was actually my aunt. But Larry is my real dad. See, when Elizabeth had me, she was pretty much a wreck. She could barely figure her own life out, let alone me, her daughter's life. So she felt she needed to escape. Go to New York, make a career, a LIFE for herself. So she left me with my dad and her sister to take care of me.
I was at a loss for words. Didn't know what to say. Speechless. I just left to the beach, to clear my head, where I met Lucas. I could tell that something had happened with him but he didn't tell me and I didn't tell him the things going on with me.
Last night I had the hardest time sleeping. I would think about Brooke and how much I miss her, then I would force myself to think of something else to get my mind off of that, but then I just thought of my new 'mom' and had to change thoughts again, then they came to Jake. And that's of course when the tears started coming back. You'd think that I'd already shed all the water in my body from crying so much, but no, they just kept coming.
God I miss Jake. But I do understand why he had to leave. Just the thought of Jenny with Nikki sickens me, and just think about what it's doing to Jake...
Jake's POV
Do I miss Peyton? Do I think about her every second? Does my heart ache just thinking about her? Did the thought that traveling the country on the back of a motorcycle, seem a little ridiculous to me AFTER I had already left?
The answer to all those questions is of course, yes. But when I ask myself: Did I make the right choice? I'm not so sure... I mean, I can't let Nikki keep my baby girl, that's for sure. But a part of me wishes that there were some other way to find her. It was just an impulse you know? You're crazy ex-girlfriend runs away with your daughter and you just impulsively run after her. Right?
I know I said I was tired of running. But that is different. Then, I was with Jenny and I was running from Nikki. Now Nikki has Jenny and I am running AFTER her. It's not the same... Still, I can't wait 'till this chase is over. And it won't be unless Jenny is safe with me.
Sure, some may say that Nikki might actually care for and have the best intensions for Jenny. But when you think about it... if she really cared about Jenny and wanted to protect her, she wouldn't let herself anywhere near her.
But I can't keep thinking about Nikki, because I will probably end up running into a wall or something. And that won't be good. But I need to think of something fast, or else my mind will impulsively just turn to-
Nope, too late, it already has. Every second my brain is flashing Peyton's face in my mind. And it kills in inside that I can't be there with her now. As much as the thought of her moving on and finding someone that won't leave her TWICE, hurts me. Imagining her cry over me like she did the night I left, for so long would hurt me more.
But I just miss her so much. We were just getting things back on track. Well, OK, not really since I was in jail, but still... Being away just for that amount was far too much. When I think that I could be chasing Nikki for a year, and being away from Peyton that whole time... I can't think about that... But I just love her too much. Right now, I don't think that I'll ever be able to move on. I wonder what she's doing right now...
Nathan's POV
So, how long is this bus ride? Like a million hours? I glance at my watch and see that we've only been on it for about fifteen minutes. Damn, I'm so out of it. But all those seconds in all those fifteen minutes, I was thinking of only one thing: Haley. Of course.
She came back. She came back... It's weird because I had imagined that, dreamt about that for so long, imagined every possible scenario for it. But last night, when I saw her there in my doorway, I just didn't know what to do or say.
It was weird. I can't say if it was good, or bad. I mean, hearing what she had to say was wonderful. It was good finally hearing her thoughts instead of drowning in my own. But every time I'm about to maybe let her in again, my mind just flashes back to that day when I went to visit her on tour. She had said that she wasn't ready for our marriage. Yet here she was, trying to save it... It was all too much to take.
And now we get another three months apart, and only have last night's talk to think about...
But I am excited for this camp. Great coaches, great players. It's just... great. I mean, one whole summer of the sport that I love. I feel like I should be more excited though...
Man all this Lucas stuff is bothering me too. I mean, how could he do all that to his own dad? I mean sure, Dan is, or was, pretty much a bastard, but maybe he's trying to change? Maybe we could actually be a real family, me, mom, and Dan. But with Lucas trying to get to Dan, it just can't work. I'm just looking out for mom. With all she's been through, she doesn't deserve to have her husband in jail or something.
But I mean, maybe I can see where Lucas is going at... I did over-react a little with him maybe. I just feel like... I don't know how I feel. About Lucas... about Dan... about Haley especially.
Haley's POV
"Hi," Was all I could say. I had so much to say to him. But blurting it all out at once was definitely now how I wanted it said. So I figured I'd just see what his reaction was.
"What're you doing here, Haley?" He asked, his expression pretty un-readable.
"I-uh- I left the tour." I said stuttering a little. Why was I so nervous?
Nathan didn't say anything, just looked at me. I did see a glimpse of surprise on his face though.
"I just, I couldn't stand being there, knowing that our marriage would fall apart. It's too important to me. You're too important to me." I said, trying to find the right words to express my feelings. "I just... It's like: I had my dream job, and all, but it didn't really matter if I didn't have my dream guy with me."
"So, why did you leave in the first place?" Nathan asked. "Why'd you tell me that you weren't ready for us getting married?"
I couldn't look him in the eye, it was too hard. I averted my eyes but then forced them back to him. I needed to do this. "I was wrong, and I'm sorry. All my feelings that I had for you when we got married, I still have them! They grew bigger every time on that tour when I would pick up the phone and dial half your number and then hang up, or when, I would have to go to bed alone, missing you being with me, or- or when I would catch a glimpse of my wedding ring-"
"Yeah, which you took off." Nathan interrupted me. The anger was pretty clear in his voice, but he didn't raise it. I immediately glanced at him left hand to see that of course, he too had taken off his ring. I wracked my brain for the reason why I ever took that gold band off, but I couldn't find one.
"I know, I know. You're right, but," I said. "I love you. And I always will. And I know that if you find it in your heart to forgive me, then I know that we can work this out. I can feel it, what we have, that un-dying love, it's not broken. Please, Nathan, just give me another chance." My heart was racing, along with all the thoughts in my mind. Will he say yes? Would he say no? My eyes were stinging with the tears that were forming there. He just stood there. I had said everything... except one thing. "An that's why," I added, "I didn't sign the annulment papers." I said.
"It wasn't my idea. Dan sort of... forced them on me." He said. And I thought that I might have heard a trace of guilt in his voice, but I'm not sure.
"I figured as much." Was all I could say.
"I'm going to High Flyers tomorrow," He had said, changing the subject.
"Oh," I said. Three whole more months with out him?
"So, we can talk about it when I get back." He said, still expression-less.
"Nathan, I saw that our, I mean your, apartment was for sale, so I bought it. It just didn't seem right, for all out memories there to be sold, so... When you come back, I'll be there, I'm not going away, Nate. I'll be waiting." I said and he nodded., and started closing the door.
"Good-bye, Haley." He said. And I wished he would call me 'Hales' again. I don't know why... I just did.
"Good-bye, Nate." And right before the door slammed shut, I added, "But just for three months!" But right after I said that I felt foolish. He probably didn't hear me anyway.
Brooke's POV
So, five minutes in "Sunny California" and it's already raining. Figures that once I finally stop crying, it starts raining.
"Excuse me, Sir?" I ask someone in the air-port. A man, probably in his forties. "Yeah, we are in California right?" He looks at me as if I'm some kind of idiot. "I mean, I know we're in California, but isn't it suppose to be, you know, sunny?"
"Honey," He said. Gosh, I hate it when strangers call me honey. "This isn't the OC, it's San Francisco." And then he walks off. Great help, I think. I miss Tree Hill...
I just roll my eyes and go to get my bags. Right as I'm wondering, how the hell I'm going to carry all these bags myself, I see a man in a suit carrying a sign that says "Brooke Davis" on it. I tell him that it's me and he just grabs all my bags. Wow. He brought me outside and into a huge limo, just for me and my luggage. Geez, I had almost forgotten that I was rich again now.
But once I have a spare second of relaxation in that limo, my mind immediately goes to Lucas. The worst part it: I spent the entire taxi and plane ride only thinking about him and what I wanted to happen between us, and I still haven't come to a conclusion.
I mean, when I had started re-forming feelings for him, I hid them away in the back of my mind, because I thought he liked Peyton. And then all of a sudden, BAM, he kisses me and tells me that he wants to be with me. I was trying to regain all the thoughts from the back of my mind but just like a broken tape, when the brown stringy stuff gets all tangled up, I couldn't untangle my thoughts. So, I just didn't say anything except that I had to go.
I seemed like the only solution then, but now I wish I had said something more.
Lucas's POV
Haley's back. She called me to say that she was back for good. And I was really surprised, because when Brooke and I went to see her she told me that she was not coming home. But I guess our little road trip did pay off after all.
Fck, what am I going to do about my HCM medicine? I called up my insurance company, and left a message. I should hear back from them soon, but if they don't cover the pills...? I guess I'd have to tell someone about it then. God, my mom is going to be so mad... But she's in New Zealand now, so I can't tell her.
I could tell that there was something Peyton wasn't telling me. And I mean, it's not like we're best friends or anything, so I can understand why she might want to keep it to herself. She is that kind of person, who sort of keeps her thoughts with herself, especially since Brooke left.
And here I am again, thinking about Brooke. I have gone over that last scene with her a million times in my head. I wish she would have said something. So that I at least could know where she stood in all this.
I wasn't planning on doing it, kissing her. It was just going to be a friendly good-bye, but I just couldn't watch her leave, not knowing how I felt about her, let alone her thinking that I still had feelings for Peyton.
But there is one thing: She DID kiss me back. And that was the greatest feeling in the whole world. That maybe somehow, she might just feel the same way about me. But I thought too soon. Because, considering the way she left, without really saying anything, I figure she probably just didn't say anything to spare me some hurt feelings... which I got anyway.
AN:
OK that's all for now! I'm really sorry if that was boring! I swear
the others won't be boring, it's just I kind of had to establish the
whole setting and everything so ya. In the next chapter there will be
stuff about Dan, if he died or not, and also all the other ppl of
course. Tell you what you thought! Please review!
thx so much!
