A/N I'm supposed to be working on my multi-chapter fic. But I wanted to write this.
It's your special day. The aisles are covered in flowers, white and pink roses everywhere.
You come in with the music. He's waiting for you at the end.
I'm in the back.
Your eyes shine bright with happiness.
You look radiant; it's your special day after all
The stage is set. The vows exchanged, kisses made, rings given. Everything is just as you planned since we were little girls.
Your maid of honor and bridesmaids are crying, his best man and groomsmen are standing proud.
The speeches are made, and everyone sits down to eat.
I'm in the back. I don't sit down. I don't eat. I stand in the shadows. I can't let anyone see me on your special day. I can't even let you see me.
It doesn't work though. You were always able to find me. You still can. Your eyes turn icy as they see me. You don't want me here.
You invited me. I ignored the RSVP. But I still came
You ask why I'm here.
To celebrate your wedding, I tell you
There is hurt in your eyes, you missed me. You try to mask it
Are you drunk? You ask me
No. I tell you. I never touched a drop tonight.
I couldn't bear to think about drinking to that
You nods and are about to say something when he comes over
He greets you with a fake smile. He knew what happened in the past
He protectively puts his arm around her.
I almost vomit at the sight of you with him.
I hold my composure and hand them the envelope
They open it in shock
It's a 2 week trip to the Maldives.
I paid.
It's her dream vacation. It was going to be ours, but now it's theirs
While they are exclaiming and celebrating I slip away.
It's your dream come true. Perfect man, perfect new family, perfect picket house, perfect everything.
I leave so I don't ruin your dream like you ruined mine
You try to follow me, but he holds you back. I see how he comforts you. You accept it and act like you are fine. There is still sadness in your eyes. Only I can read you.
Only I see how your happiness if faked,
It was your choice. I'm sorry I failed. I'm sorry that you didn't choose me.
You look back one last time, hoping I'll appear from the shadows. I do. I get a sad smile, a hug and then you flit away to your other guests.
I really leave then. You still smell the same, you still look at me the same way, you still melt my heart.
I love you. I always will love you. I never loved anyone else. It pains me to see you with him. You promised you were mine.
Promises were broken. Forever and always. Life isn't a fairytale.
I leave one last note on the windshield of their car
As long as the wind blows, and the sun rises, I'll be in your heart
I wait until they see it. He rips it up. You eyes tear up, but no tears are shed.
You drive away with well wishes to your perfect life.
I promised to take care of you. I failed.
I will never love again, because my heart is yours.
Yours is with someone else.
I am left with no heart and no soul
I love you Santana. I always will.