I don't own Dr.who, nor do I make any money off of this; its soul purpose
is to get the mind raping bunnies out of my head!
Rating: T for strong sexual content or should that be MA?
Pairing: 9th doctor/Jack/10th doctor
Summary: The doctor and Rose realized that Jack was alive and went back for
him. Only Jack's not to happy about his doctor being gone. So he goes back
in time to when they first met, to get some answers.
Goodbye
Jack's Pov
I sighed as I walked down one of the many corridors in the TARDIS. 'I don't even know why I care! He's gone and that's all there is to it! I can't change what happened, so there's no use in even bothering.' I sighed again as I walked into the control room and see the new doctor tinkering away as always. 'He doesn't even show the same care for her anymore.' I shook my head and was about to turn away when Rose came into the room.
"Ah, there you are. I've been looking for you. Was thinking we could take a quick walk while the doctor fixes up the TARDIS yeah?" She asked with a small smile. She knew we had had a relationship, the old doctor and I. She knew I also refused to be with the new doctor. She also knew I was hurting over this decision. I sighed but nodded anyway, there would be no ridding of Rose when she wanted something. "Right then, doctor we'll be back soon." And with a wave to the new doctor she grabbed my arm and we were walking around the 35th century Earth.
"So what is it you wanted to talk about?" I ask hoping she wouldn't say what I knew she was going to. She pointed to a café a few blocks up. "Lets get something to drink yeah?" She asked before pulling me over there. We both ordered a drink before Rose looked at me. "You know you should go and be with him again." She stated the minute we both had our drinks and were sitting down. I sighed. "We've been through this Rose; its not going to happen. My doctor is gone and nothing can bring him back." I said before looking away.
"But he's not. He's right there waiting for you. All you have to do is go and be with him. I know he may look different but he is the doctor. And even if you don't do that, you're going to have to start calling him by his name soon, I doubt he's going to keep letting you call him John for long. Why's it so hard to call him by his name huh?" She asked as she grabbed my hand so I would look at her. I bit my lip, how could I explain to her that he was not the doctor, not my doctor anyway.
"Rose he's different, I was with the doctor for a long time and I love him. Then everything on Satellite Five happened. You both left me behind. Now I've gotten over that, really I have, but you came back with a stranger and I don't know him. I feel that if I call him the doctor, I'd be disrespecting what my doctor and I had. I just can't, and I know it's hurting him too, and I am sorry, but I just can't." I say before drinking the rest of my coffee in one gulp. "Why? If you'd just give him a chance to be near you you'd see that he's the same as before, 'cept now he looks different is all." She said with such conviction I almost wanted to give in and say ok. "I never got to say goodbye; he left for good, and I just can't move on like that, not without saying goodbye, but I can't even mourn him because he's not dead. Rose, he didn't die! He just left! He's gone and there's some new doctor here and it's not ok!" I try to make her see what I'm feeling but I can tell it's not exactly coming across right. They just don't understand.
"Rose I've got to go. I've got to leave. There was a reason I asked you to have the doctor land here, while he fixed the TARDIS up. I was here before, before I even met you. My ship went missing for a couple of days, and I think I know why now. I have to go Rose, I just can't stay here right now. Maybe I'll be back, maybe I won't, I don't really know. And Rose, thanks, you've been a wonderful friend." I say as I lean over and kiss her head. She start to try and protest, but I wave her off before running in the direction I knew my spaceship to be in.
Rose's Pov
Damn he's fast! I lost tract of him after the first three blocks. I hurry and turn around to get back to the TARDIS. The doctor is going to kill me. I went and lost Jack, yep defiantly going to kill me. I slam the door open and run into the control room. "Doctor! Doctor where are you?!" I yell when I don't see him in the room. I see him walk into the room carrying a mug of tea. "What's all the ruckus about then?" He asks when he sees me. "Doctor it's Jack, he went off. I couldn't keep up with him. I'm sorry, I only did it in hopes of getting him off the TARDIS so he could clear his head, and then maybe he would be with you again. I didn't know what he had been planning on doing I swear." I say all at once before I lost my nerve.
"What are you going on about?" He asked with a confused look on his face. I took a deep breath and then told him everything. From Jack having me suggest the time and place to land the TARDIS to what he said about leaving. The doctor cursed before running out of the TARDIS and searching for him by foot. Only that's a bit hard to do. "Doctor this isn't going to work. I mean Jack knows how to disappear when he wants to. I'm also sure that by now he got to his ship and is long gone. We won't find him here." I said after an hour of searching with no luck.
"I don't want to lose him Rose. He was already so distant with me, but now he doesn't even want to stay on the TARDIS with me anymore! Am I really that bad of a person?" He asks, almost sounding lost in a way. I sigh and pull him into a hug. "Don't worry doctor we'll get him back, I promise." I say before moving back and pulling the doctor along with me back to the TARDIS. "Alright, now where would you go if you were Jack and you were running away from us?" The doctor asked me. I gave a shrug, but stopped half way when I remembered something that the Doctor told me right after he got back from being out for the night when Jack first came aboard the TARDIS. "He would run here. That's what you said." I told the doctor. He raised hi eyebrow. "What? When did I say that? I don't remember saying that." He told me with a frown.
"You told me it right after you came back from where ever it was you were after you left when Jack first came on the TARDIS. Don't you remember doctor. You looked at me and said that when I ask you where he would run to, tell you that he would run here. So maybe he went back to when we first met." I told him. He tilted his head a bit. "I said that did I? Funny I don't remember that. I don't even remember leaving the TARDIS after we picked Jack up. Are you sure about this Rose, you just didn't dream it or something because you humans do, do that a lot. Dream something and think it's real." He asked me.
"No I didn't dream it! I asked what you meant but you just said remember to say it. When I said ok you pointed your screw driver at yourself and then it flashed. After that you said, shall we get going then. Then we left, and well you know everything that comes after that." I said in a huff, really now, dreaming things up am I?! "I did what? Oh never mind, back to when we met it is. Well actually we'll just go back to when we were leaving last, smaller chance of meeting our other self's then." He said before running over to the controls and putting the coordinates in. "Yea, we wouldn't want reapers to come and collect us all." I said before sitting down on the bench. The doctor just stood there as the TARDIS took us where we needed to go. "So how long will it be before we get there?" I ask to fill up the silence. "In about an hour. Rose, what am I going to say to him? I don't even know why it is that he's so upset with me! At first I really had thought he just needed time to adjust but now I'm not so sure it's that. He wouldn't even tell me why he broke up with me! Damn it!" The doctor growled out in frustration and pain.
"I honestly don't know what you should say, because I don't know what has him so eaten up inside, but I know that this time I'll be the one to sit back in the TARDIS as you work it out; you also told me to make sure you do it alone, and that I simply be there for you's when you get back." I explained when the doctor gave me a look.. The doctor sighed before going in the kitchen for something to drink, or just to be alone for a bit.
10th doctor's Pov
I walked back into the control room as soon as we landed in London. I can almost sense him in a way. I used to be able to do that all the time but now, after he left me, it's dull. I almost wish the pain in my hearts could be dulled, but I'd be scared if that happened, because that would mean that there really is no chance of fixing this. And if what Rose said is true then that means all this had already happened once. And apparently I met my old regeneration. I just wish I had told Rose how things had ended, more than the whole 'just be there for us when we get back.' What does that even mean anyway?! I sigh again and start towards the door before my courage fails me and I stop. What am I going to do? What do I say? What can I say? Will it be enough? I jump slightly when I feel Rose hand grip mine.
"Go on then, doctor. No matter what happens, no matter what had happened, he does love you. I don't think that will change no matter how far he runs." She says before walking me towards the door. "And no matter what happens I'll be here when you get back yeah." She said the gave me a slight push out the door before closing it behind me.
I don't even know where he's at. Well, that's not exactly true. I can still feel him, no matter how dim it is, I still feel it. I sigh before walking the way I feel he is. I turn a corner and literally get run over by someone. I groaned a bit. I look up to see a pair of curious eyes looking at me. Oh this is so not good. I look around trying to see if any reapers have come yet. I jump up and spin around looking franticly. "Why are there no reapers?!" I question myself. He other man raises his eyebrow.
"You know me then." He states more than asks. "No that's not it, reapers wouldn't come for that, oh. OH! You are me." I sigh but nod, no use in lying; I would know if I were. He looked me over and gave an approving nod. I rolled my eyes. "This is so not the time to be checking me…err…you out." I say. This wasn't supposed to happen! I was just supposed to find Jack, make him see sense, be with him again, and then we were to leave. I should have known something like this would happen.
"Hey have you seen an guy with something akin to an old 1940's army wear on?" He asked me suddenly. I just looked at him. What had Jack done now? "No, he about so tall, black hair, and brown eyes?" I ask, when he nods I sigh. I should have known he would try something like this. Does he hate me so much that he would try to end my existance? "I take it that's why you're here then. He actually looks like Jack, a guy we've just picked up a bit ago. Well you already know that, I suppose. So what's he doing running around so close to himself? Surely he knows about all the rules, he is a time agent after all." He asks.
"Can't say, might bring about the reapers." I answer and then turn to go. The sooner I leave the better. "Well normally the reapers come right away if something in the time line is being messed up, so I'd say it's a safe bet to assume that for now at least that we're right where we're supposed to be." He says as he follows after me. "Still the sooner I'm gone the better for everybody. What did he do? Jack, I mean." I asked slightly curious despite myself. "Not much really. Just grabbed my hand as I was going into the landing sight. He seemed to want to say something but thought better of it at the last minute. He just dropped my hand and turned away. I didn't really have the time then to go after him and find out what was going on." He said quietly. So he had decided to leave it be after all? What is going on in that head of his?!
9th doctor Pov
"So, what is it that I'm to do? Or do I do anything at all?" I ask my other self wondering if there was something that I should be doing. He just shrugged. "Don't really know, apparently I, oh hell, WE give Rose a short message and then lock away our memories of the past few hours for whatever reason." He tells me as he takes another turn. He seems to be taking us back to the landing sight. "Oh, well what are you doing here then?" I ask trying to figure out what was going on. I know he won't be able to tell me much but that's fine so long as I get the jest of it. "Well, you see Jack and I…we became lovers. Only things happen, and I regenerate. He comes back, sees new me and other than that... I really don't know what's going on in that man's head anymore. Well besides the fact that I hurt him somehow. I don't even know what I did!" He growled out the last part. "Wow, me and Jack huh? Wouldn't have seen that one coming." I said, "Really who would have thought that captain flirt-a-lot would settle down with me. He did settle right? I mean I'm not just his bed toy right?" I asked a bit worried. Would I really have let myself sink that low.
"Huh? Oh, yeah he still flirts but he doesn't bed anyone but us. Well at least he didn't till we broke up." He said the last part quietly and came to a stop. "I don't even know why he broke up with me! It's not like I did anything wrong! Hell I even let him call me John and not the doctor when he couldn't seem to call me that without flinching as if I slapped him!" He yelled out. "Why would he not want to call us the doctor?" I asked somewhat confused, as we finally turned the corner and saw an open field next to the landing. "I don't know, just that since he came back, he couldn't call me the doctor anymore. As if I just up and hurt him or something and he couldn't bear to say my name. Almost like if someone had died, and they couldn't bear to say the name out loud anymore….Well Damn!" I smirked, let me talk enough and I'd find a way to fix the problem.
"Figured it out have you? So now what are we going to do about it?" I ask him when he stops again. "I don't think there is anything that I can do. I mean he's upset that you left, so basically the plan is this: You go over and talk to him while I wait here." He says. "Right, lets go… Wait what? Why am I the one who had to confront the angry lover?!" I demand after what he said sinks in. "Well because you were the one who went and 'died' on him, and you're the one he wants to see at the moment. That and when this is over I would like to be able to hold onto him without him wanting to get as far away from me as possible." He said and started into the building only to stop within the door and point ahead to Jack. "You do realize that you left him just as much as I did, and that no matter what I say or do you're going to have to come in anyway, right?" I tell him as I walk past him and into the room a bit to see what was all there. Nothing. It was just and empty old hanger room for some pilot most likely. He sighed but followed me in.
I could already make out Jacks outline in the dark. He was laying on the ground looking through a hole in the ceiling. "That's where my ship is you know. Right up there. I could have saved myself from the pain I'll be experiencing soon, but I just couldn't seem to stop myself." Jack says without turning to face us. "I'm glad, I would be affronted if you wouldn't give me a chance to get to know you and be with you a bit better." I say a bit pissed the thought had even passed his mind. He shrugs as best he can while lying down. "Trust me sometimes it's better not knowing." He tells me before rolling over to look at me.
I can see his eyes squint a bit in the dark trying to use what little moonlight that was filtering in to see me. He shakes his head, and mummers about seeing things and going insane. I smirk and walk a bit forward, so that the light falls over me. "Oh, and here I thought I was the insane one, I mean to actually allow myself to fall for you." I trail off allowing him to take that however he wishes. His eyes widen as he jumps up. "Doctor?! Is that you? Really you? How, I mean what... Oh hell, I'm lost!" He grumbled the last part out. "Yeah? Good thing I know a bit about directions then." I say and walk over to him when he doesn't seem able to bring himself over to me. When I'm within reach he reaches out and just holds my hand for a minute, before letting his fingers make a trail up my arm and onto my shoulder, only to start down my back. I shivered as his fingers passed just under my left shoulder blade. He smirked a bit before rung his hand over the area again, getting a slight hiss from me.
"I nearly forgot how sensitive you were. Always hated it when I was on top, because it always meant that the night was going to be long. You asked me why I always felt the need to make every cell in your body feel like it's on fire, and I never answered. Just said when the time comes you'll know. I did it because I loved you and I always though you looked beautiful when you were nothing but a mess of moans; but what I loved most about it was that it was me who could make you feel that pleasure." He says before finally pressing his lips against mine in a searing kiss.
His hands continued to trail down my back and down to my ass where he griped them and pulled me closer. I melted into the kiss without hesitation. It just felt right, like this is where I belonged. I was gasping when I pulled back from the kiss, and watched as he smiled a sad smile, before letting go and backing away a bit. I felt myself go cold at the thought of him leaving me. I know I shouldn't be this attached to him, not yet anyway. Still my hand reaches out and pulls him back to my chest. "Why are you running?" I ask, even though I already have the answer. I needed him to say it before I could try to fix anything. "Ah, sorry, reapers and all that." He says as looks away. I turn he back to face me. "I think for the time being we have no worries about reapers. After all they would have come when I bumped into my latest regeneration if they were going to come." I tell him softly. His eyes go huge. "They're here?! I have to go. I have to leave now!" He says trying to pull away from me. I growl slightly and tighten my grip. "Why would you have to run from me?" I hear my other self ask from behind me. Jack's eyes shot out into the darkness, trying to find where the other person is.
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TBC
I hope you like what you got so far! I believe that this is going to be a two chapter sorta thing. Also there will be a lemon with all three of them so if you dont like that kind of thing...well thats just to bad, then you should stop now! Anywho for those of you who dont mind LEAVE ME A REVIEW SAYING SO!!!!!!!! Till next time then!