Author: Rin-chan
Author's notes: Short piece from Rin's perspective; Takes place when she is about sixteen years old.
Pairings: one-sided Sess/Rin
I don't know when it changed. When my love for Sesshoumaru-sama changed from that of a daughter, to that of an admirer.
I know I shouldn't feel this way - I am human, and he is a youkai. Not just any youkai, but Lord of the Western Lands. On top of that, he loathes humans. I tell myself this repeatedly, and just when I've convinced myself not to love him anymore, and that he will never love me the way I want him too, a little nagging voice says, "Well then, why has he taken care of you all these years, hmm? Why hasn't he just snapped your neck, or left you in a human village?" As soon as it speaks, I forget all my reasons of why I don't love him, and remember all the reasons of why I do love him.
I did ask Sesshoumaru-sama why he kept me around once. He didn't answer me, but I saw a brief flash of something indescribable in his eyes. I was so afraid he was angry, that he had decided right then and there that he didn't need me tagging along - but he hadn't. It's a possibility he could though. I'm honestly surprised he hasn't gotten rid of me already.
I've been with him for a decade now, and I know what he's like. I know he kills. I've seen him at his cruelest. He can be horrible to humans. I know this. But he's never been like that with me. Sesshoumaru-sama doesn't hate me as much as he hates other humans, and sometimes I wonder if it's because he loves me. It's a foolish thought, and after thinking it, I wonder if I am so desperate for his love that I would substitute his lesser hate for love.
I am that desperate. I know it's pathetic. I just love him so much. I want to be with him forever, even though I know it's not possible. I want to mean something to him. I want him to love me. I wish that I were a youkai, so that I would have some semblance of a chance. So that all my hopes and dreams wouldn't be all for nothing. But I'm not. I'm just human. Just Rin. But maybe.maybe that will be just enough.
~OWARI~
A/N: Ehehehehe, that was not what I planned on. Ah well. I wanted to write a one-shot Sess/Rin, and this is what I got. ^_^' Review please!
Author's notes: Short piece from Rin's perspective; Takes place when she is about sixteen years old.
Pairings: one-sided Sess/Rin
I don't know when it changed. When my love for Sesshoumaru-sama changed from that of a daughter, to that of an admirer.
I know I shouldn't feel this way - I am human, and he is a youkai. Not just any youkai, but Lord of the Western Lands. On top of that, he loathes humans. I tell myself this repeatedly, and just when I've convinced myself not to love him anymore, and that he will never love me the way I want him too, a little nagging voice says, "Well then, why has he taken care of you all these years, hmm? Why hasn't he just snapped your neck, or left you in a human village?" As soon as it speaks, I forget all my reasons of why I don't love him, and remember all the reasons of why I do love him.
I did ask Sesshoumaru-sama why he kept me around once. He didn't answer me, but I saw a brief flash of something indescribable in his eyes. I was so afraid he was angry, that he had decided right then and there that he didn't need me tagging along - but he hadn't. It's a possibility he could though. I'm honestly surprised he hasn't gotten rid of me already.
I've been with him for a decade now, and I know what he's like. I know he kills. I've seen him at his cruelest. He can be horrible to humans. I know this. But he's never been like that with me. Sesshoumaru-sama doesn't hate me as much as he hates other humans, and sometimes I wonder if it's because he loves me. It's a foolish thought, and after thinking it, I wonder if I am so desperate for his love that I would substitute his lesser hate for love.
I am that desperate. I know it's pathetic. I just love him so much. I want to be with him forever, even though I know it's not possible. I want to mean something to him. I want him to love me. I wish that I were a youkai, so that I would have some semblance of a chance. So that all my hopes and dreams wouldn't be all for nothing. But I'm not. I'm just human. Just Rin. But maybe.maybe that will be just enough.
~OWARI~
A/N: Ehehehehe, that was not what I planned on. Ah well. I wanted to write a one-shot Sess/Rin, and this is what I got. ^_^' Review please!