Disclaimer: I don't own DC, if I did I'd give Jason a happy ending.
Synopsis: When everything falls apart there is only one person Jason can turn to.
Even if he's not himself at the time. Father/Son fic' Maybe Slash later...not
sure.
The water pounds down outside in the dark city and she watches, guitar cradled on her lap and tries to feel anything but apathy for the lost souls. Her Star fire bright eye's look out and they are as frozen as a thousand tundra's, What had Raven called her again? A beautiful fool, naïve and innocent once. But now she was warped, broken by the cruellest fate.
"Regrets collect, like old friends here to relieve your darkest moments, I can see no way, I can see no way And all the ghouls come out to play." She sings softly.
And she's trying to remember what it was like to care- she can almost feel the ghost of that flame in her soul desperate to hurt no one but save everyone. When had that changed? Because now she felt cold, desolate, and its killing her.
He hears her voice in his room as he stares at the ceiling, baseball cap lying on the floor by his ratty bed, its nowhere near the luxury his pseudo Father had given him. Ollie had lavished so much money on him so he didn't feel guilty when he didn't pay attention
"And every demon wants his pound of flesh, but I like to keep some things to myself, I like to keep my issues strong. Its always darkest before the dawn."
Sometimes he felt that fate wanted to rip him apart, tear him to pieces just to see him struggle to pull himself together, there was someone out there watching as he clung to life desperate, desperate for a saviour any saviour. Drugs, Drink, One night stands, he had screamed to any and every omnipresence and he was still waiting for an answer
"And I've been a fool and I've been blind I can never leave the past behind I can see no way, I can see no way I'm always dragging that horse around." She continues
The shower hits him, water mixing in with the blood, heavy on his skin as he sits under it, his dark damp hair falling in front of his eye's as he cries silent sobs, wanting so badly to scream at someone anyone for an answer, any answer! And he knows the water can't cleanse him, can't wash away his sins but he's so desperate for redemption, he wants his Father to look at him again, like he used to.
He contemplates the razor in his hand once more, wonders whether he should just end the pain, let it escape from him, bleed onto the ground. But he's died once and he doesn't think he could again, could he? No one's too sure- but he knows he can still bleed.
She continues singing, words of hope she doesn't believe but hopes will at least make Roy smile. Jason doesn't, he seems incapable sometimes and sometimes she hates him for it. But then she remembers being a little girl sobbing as her Father watched her go and didn't stop them taking her away and she understands- because she had felt that faith shatter as well.
Bruce was Jason's father in all but blood and he didn't avenge him well not that Jason could see, all he wanted, like anyone else was to know he was important. And when a raging psychopath kills you and your father barely gives him a slap on the wrist, you begin to feel hurt, then that hurt turns to anger and then you fall into it. The darkness and depression that consumes you and you claw at the light trying and trying to cling onto a hope as the world around you turns grey and even though you can feel you can't feel
"You've stopped singing." She hears Roy say and she looks at him, looking to see his own haunted eye's and she nods
"Where's J'?" She asks him and Roy laughs bitterly
"I don't know." He replies honestly and she sighs
"We should find him, I don't feel right not knowing where you both are." She says calmly, because anyone could tell you she had lost enough to lose them, to lose them would shatter her.
He's cold now and feeling funny, he can't remember who he fought though- but he remembers a flash of light and then a daze, and now he's here and its getting darker as he hears her scream, please Mum no more crying.
"Do you see that Jay?" She asks as he looks out in the park, to see a light blue bird, dark markings around it's eye's almost like an incomplete mask as its dark eye's catch his own as the little bird shakes its patterned wings
"What is it Mum?" He asks curiously tipping his head as the little bird hops
"A blue Jay." She replies, giggling as he looks up in shock before giggling as he looks shocked at the bird
"Jay? Like me?" He asks and she crouches down and winks, tapping his nose
"Exactly like you. He's a little Fearless bird, not afraid of anything." She says softly
"Even his Daddy?" Jason asks and knows he's not said the right thing when his mum's bruised eye's close sadly and she kisses him softly
Before she fades away, a maniacal laugh taking her and everything far away.
"Koriand'r!" Roy shouts as she runs into the bathroom in shock ahead of him, her auburn hair trailing behind her, he hears a scream and sprints to follow her.
Koriand'r stares at the door, trying to work up the courage to knock on the door, it should be so easy but she can't, this act is going to tear up her family, she knows it- But Jason needs him. Even if she disagrees, So catching her reflection in the mirror she checks that she looks respectable in her tight black skinny jeans and T-shirt with a logo across, a gift from Jason who even when money was short had made sure he had enough money to buy her a Birthday present, She was doing this for him she reminded herself as she knocked on the door.
It was opened by an old man and she tried to remember what Jason had told her on one of there midnight chats
"Are you Alfred?" She asks and sees the man give her the 'once over' As Roy called it
"I am, and who may you be Miss?" He asks his eye's watching her as she sighed and ran a hand through her hair revealing the bags under her eye's
"I'm here about Jason." She said softly and Alfred's eyes widen for a nano second before he is back and composed
"Of course, will you be needing to talk to Master Wayne?" Alfred asked and noticed the shudder that ran through her body
"Please, we don't know what to do any more. We can't protect him." The Tamaranian Princess said softly as she stepped into the Mansion.
The large palaces were beautiful, created from a crystalline type material and structured so large, but they were nothing compared to the gardens- and back then she had loved the gardens. Back then when her mother used to smile, instead of being filled with such a heavy sadness she had taken Korinand'r on long walks where she had been allowed to run around free, and sample the sweet air and watch as the skies above burnt brightly, fiercely stunning. And her sister Komand'r had played with her often, back when her smile hadn't been stolen and turned into a bitter scowl, her sister had been heralded as the most beautiful, and everyone said Kori' was following in her footsteps.
This place was nothing like the Palace before but it held the same feel of love of Protection and old money
"Miss Starfire I presume?" A voice interrupted her thoughts and she looked up from the Earl grey she had been served sometime in her musing
"Mister Wayne, Jason has told me a lot about you." She said calmly as she looked up at the handsome man, crows feet barely touching his natural handsomeness, but his eye's ooh his eye's- she could see a million universes in them, full of pain and hope and undying courage. Just like Jason had whispered to her as he sat drunk on the sofa on his birthday, trying so hard to forget and she had let him- because all she wanted was to forget as well
"Is he well?" Bruce Wayne asked, his voice near emotionless
"Yes and No, we need your help." She spoke uplooking back down at hands
"Then I will help. If you tell me what is going on." Bruce said calmly and Koriand'r looked up and smiled softly
"G'luthnog." She whispered and he looked at her calmly
"But you must tell me what is going on." He continued and Koriand'r laughed coldly
"We don't know. He came back from a solo mission, Me and Roy were supposed to go but he said no. Said he didn't need our help to..."
"...Take down a no good scum bag preying on innocent Children. You've done enough this week Kor' Just- rest, will you. And I swear to all that is holy Roy if you even think of following me I will tear you balls off." Jason growled at them and Koriand'r scowled
"She's a Witch Jay! What if you get hurt?" Roy put in before she could say anything and Jason placed on the red domino mask, looking amused at Roy, a smirk on his face highlighting his more delicate features
"Then I get hurt Roy-boy. And don't call me Jay'." Jason retorted and Roy scowled
"You're just like Dick sometimes! What is it with the Bat clan and stubbornness? What do you have to prove any more?" Roy hissed and Jason growled and before Roy could twitch he found a gun at his head
"Don't you dare compare me to them! Especially to him!" Jason growled and Roy laughed
"Look I get it- I do okay. But you aren't alone Jay' not any more, what the hell is the point of us if you won't let us help?" Roy asked and Jason swore under his breath
"For fucks sake Roy. Do you not understand what day it it?" Jason snapped and Koriand'r gasps
"Jason...it is that day correct? The day you died." Koriand'r says softly and Jason twitches, pain visibly flashing across his face and he sighs pulling back the gun and placing it in his holster
"Just let me do this by myself." Jason pleads softly, sounding for the first time, his age, Nineteen years old
"Just come home." Roy says calmly and Jason flinches slightly pulling his hand up and placing on his red mask, hiding his face
Bruce watches her impassively, the look Is purely Jason and she finds herself amazed at their similarities
"He left, and he came back home...he doesn't speak for a while after missions, he goes to shower. But I began to worry, he and Roy are all I have in the world you understand. But what I found..." Koriand'r says softly trying to figure out how she'd tell him
"Miss Starfire, I have been patient, but I don't have all day- What is wrong with Jason?" The Batman growls at her and she feels her tears prickle with tears
" He, he's a child again. And all he can remember is you." Koriand'r whispers and Bruce stares in shock
"A child? He didn't know me as a child!" Bruce states coldly and Koriand'r laughs
"Until he was reborn as Robin, you gave him a childhood where before he was miserable, so his mind in order to cope has blocked away everything but you. His Father." Koriand'r says softly and Bruce falls into his seat
" His Father?" He asks and Koriand'r laughs
"Why do you think he doesn't come home? He's so afraid his Father won't love him any more, he was insane for such a long time. But he's better now...well he was before this." Koriand'r said calmly
"Well what do you want from me?" Bruce asks and the Tamaranian Princess sighed
"We need you to come and see him. Me and Roy are trying to track this witch down but its hard when one of us has to be at home watching him and all he asks for is you." Koriand'r sighed and Bruce rubs a hand across his eye's and back through his hair and looks straight at her
"I'll be there tonight." He says and Koriand'r smiles. She has some shopping to do.
Roy looks down at little Jason, who looks up at him, dressed in Jason's old leather jacket which was three times too big for little Jason and tiny jeans Koriand'r had bought. The kid is adorable, with darkish red hair which compliments his pale skin and big, big blue eye's. Jason is playing with a toy Roy had 'borrowed' and the kid looks perfectly amused, lips pressed together in concentration
"Uncle Roy, Why are you looking at me weird?" Jason asks softly another thing that gets Roy, the little boy has the gentlest disposition, unlike the younger Jason he remembers. Though he supposes this Jason is confused and younger- he had been found in the shower by his Uncle Roy and Auntie Koriand'r, and he didn't remember anything except his Daddy and the man in black who protected him at night.
"Just thinking Kiddo'." Roy tells him and Jason beams at him, before yawning and it is only then Roy notices how late its got
"Come on then Jaybird, bed time." He says softly and Jason laughs, eerily like Dick – he supposes its another Bat clan thing
"Okay." Jason laughs and takes Roy's hand as he is led to the bedroom, Roy not noticing the shadowed figure in the corner, but Jason does. But he keeps quiet, a part of him, the little part hidden in his soul tells him that this man is safe, this man is home. So he crawls into bed and kisses Roy on the cheek smiling as his Uncle says goodnight and walks out of the room, closing the door
And Night wing steps out of the shadows.
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