Some things are best left a secret.

By: MadEva

1.

I don't know what your secret is. I don't know if it has anything to do with me, or if it is really me you are hiding it from. Perhaps you are hiding it from yourself?

Sometimes the best think you can do is talk. I'm here you know, you can talk to me.

I'd like to think that I am the best friend you have in the world, the one you can truly trust. Somehow I realise that I am not, that there is someone else… Dean

At times I lie awake, unable to sleep, because I know that there is something troubling you. I wish to God that you would tell me. I'm here for you.

You never talk about your past or your family. Well, I shouldn't say never. You talked about them once. Mostly him, I know you hold him high. You didn't tell me, but I could hear it in your voice as you spoke his name. He is the one that you truly trust, that knows your secrets. I envy him this. Yes, I am jealous of him, this person that I have never met. That I probably never will meet.

He is your brother. I will never know you like he does. But I wish you would tell me the secret so few people know. Whatever it is we can work it out, this I promise. Please, ooh please tell me. I love you.

I don't care what it is! As long as you're not married to another girl. It will be fine, snuggle up to me and tell me.

2

Sam, last night I heard a noise. I saw a pair of yellow eyes. I know you will think I am lucid if I tell you. It was a dream you might say. But it was so alive. I wish I could tell you.

If you tell your secret I will tell all my secrets and fears. I will tell you about last night when that thing looked at me. Make a deal with me; whatever you are trying to hide, I will not look at you as a crazy person as long as you don't look at me as a crazy person.

3

Sam… I know now. The yellow-eyed man told me. He told me the secret about you and you family. About your mother…

I wish I had never asked. All I want is to go back to the way we were. I wish I could go back to you. I tried to promise the man that I would forget and never ask again if he let me go. But he would not. It was necessary he said.

Sam… I love you. I will always love you. Never blame yourself! You have Dean, he will take care of you. He seems like a good man. I wish I had met him. All I seem to do lately is wish.

But Sam, I'm okey now. Nothing can hurt me here. It's so beautiful here.

It's not your fault, my love. Never forget that.