Confessions from the Perfect Soldier
Chapter 1 An Evening Ruined
Just for the sake of letting everyone know the obvious. I don't own any rights to these characters and don't make money off of them. If I did I would be rich, but I'm not.
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"Humanity!" Duo demanded, "What humanity, he doesn't have any. It was buried long ago by battle and bloodshed. He's nothing more than a machine, a robot doing only what it's been programmed to do."
"Isn't he worth fighting for, Duo?" Quatre asked, falling back into a chair.
"Worth fighting for!" He nearly yelled pacing the floor. "I've been fighting for it since we met! All he does is bury it further from my grasp." He ran a shaky hand through his hair. "Besides, I'm tired of fighting." Duo sat down in a chair, emotionally exhausted.
"If you care about him, you'll keep fighting."
"It's not a matter of caring about him; it's a matter of him caring for me! It's a losing battle, Quatre, one I can't win. I should pull out now before I lose everything."
"Duo." Quatre whispered. Have things gotten so bad? He thought. Suddenly, he was struck with a great idea. Jumping off the couch ecstatically, he grabbed Duo by the arm and pulled him out of his chair. He dragged him towards the kitchen saying, "Duo, I have an idea."
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Heero stood quietly in the hallway listening to the conversation taking place in the next room. They were discussing him. He didn't understand what Duo was doing. Was he giving up on him, on them? Were things that bad between them that the normally elated Duo was nothing more than a shell of his former self? How could he have let this happen? Duo was his everything and he thought he knew that, but from the conversation, he obviously did not. Heero closed his eyes and leaned against the wall deep in his own thoughts.
"Eavesdropping, Heero?" Trowa asked coming down the hallway.
If Heero had been caught off guard he didn't show any visible signs. Instead to stalked off down the hallway, more depressed than angry. Trowa heard him go up the stairs into his room.
I wonder what that was all about. He thought as he continued his search for Quatre.
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Heero stared at his laptop disappointed. He wasn't sure if he should be happy or enraged. Preventers had just notified him of his next mission; he had accepted of course, but to what consequence? How would this effect…
"Dinners ready!" Duo announced as he bounced into the room, braid swinging behind him.
Heero looked up at the bubbly pilot's entrance; a wide smile on his face that rarely seemed to leave.
"I have to leave." Heero stated bluntly, not wanting to draw anything out. He watched Duo's face carefully, looking for any signs of disappointment.
"That's all right." He replied without hesitation.
Heero was not sure how to take the reply. He couldn't tell if he was hurt or not. Normally Duo wore his emotions on his sleeve, but this time was different.
"Preventers sent word of a new mission. I have to leave right away."
"How long you gonna be gone for?"
"A few days."
"I'll see you when you get back." Duo turned, ending the conversation.
"Duo…"
He paused half way out the door. "Yeah?"
Was that disappointment he heard? "Nothing."
Duo left without another word. Heero heard Duo's bedroom door click shut down the hall. Packing his things Heero wondered if he should make sure Duo was ok. He was running short on time and had one hour to report for his mission. He decided to discuss the matter when he returned, it wouldn't be that long.
On his way out, a flicker of light from the dining room caught his attention. Pushing the door wide, he was surprised at what he found. Two lit candle sticks stood tall upon the table. The table had been set for two with the table cloth that Quatre only used for special occasions. A meal had been laid out and it smelled wonderful. A smile graced his features, then vanished as quickly as it had come. Duo had obviously planned this evening for the two of them. Now with orders for a new mission, he had ruined the evening. He would find a way to make up for it. Quietly, he closed the door and left the safe house. He would return in a few days and fix the mess he had surely created.
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Duo listened to Heero's footsteps retreat down the hall. He fell back onto his bed, exhausted from the evening preparations. He and Quatre had spent a good portion of the afternoon cooking. Duo wasn't that great a cook, but with Quatre's help, and later Trowa's, they had made a delicious meal. Afterwards, he carefully set the table for two, lit the candles and turned out the lights. He had not planned on Heero receiving a
mission. It had been so quiet lately; he didn't think Heero would be called away.
Now he was left to spend the evening alone. Quatre and Trowa had gone to the movies while Wufei had gone to help the Preventers. With no one home, all their hard work would go unnoticed. He thought about eating alone, but quickly changed his mind. There wasn't any sense in sharing a meal with himself, it would only make him feel worse than he already did. He shouldn't be surprised. It wasn't the first time Heero had been called off on a mission. He is the 'Perfect Soldier' after all. Of course it would be nice if he said no to a mission every once in a while. Besides, the missions always involved Relena somehow.
How he hated the pretty pink princess. She always had some reason to call on Heero's 'services' as she called them. The last mission he had received Relena had wanted him to be her escort at her own birthday. The missions were normally pointless and just an excuse for her to get close to Heero.
Duo stood up and walked to the phone. He wasn't going to waste the evening sitting in an empty house. Picking up the phone he dialed the first number that came to mind.
"Hey, Zechs…"
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Ok, I haven't written a fanfic in a few years so I may be a little rusty on the characters. If I messed something up, please let me know so that I can fix it in the future. If you want me to continue with this let me know, if not I'll start on something different. I don't really know where I'm going with this just yet anyway. If you like what I have so far please tell me what you like about it. If you hate it tell me why. I write to improve so whether you have positive or negative things to say let me know. I wont be crushed or anything by. :P I'm an easy going kind of person. Any and all input would be appreciated. Thanks.