I don't own anything
I thought this year I might at least get a Valentines from you but it was not meant to be.
When we 'met', I swore to myself it was only going to be a bit of sexy fun…I was so wrong. You managed to break into my hard exterior and wormed yourself to my heart. Where I had rules on how to stop myself from falling, you broke them and I fell hard. It hurts. I let you in and now I can't let you go. I can't stop thinking about you and I feel sad.
I remember the day you told me you loved me. I was overjoyed you said it first. I felt the same way but I was so scared to say it even if I felt it – which I did so much and still do.
Even though our relationship was not the most conventional, you were my girlfriend and I was yours. During our time together, I have never been happier. A smile was etched on my face daily.
On the day when you broke my heart, I could not get hold of you, I knew deep down it was the end. You left me to experience something real with someone else - with a guy. Before you left you made me a promise. You promised me we would always stay friends…what a joke! You disappeared after a few days. Now I have a hole in my heart which I am trying to repair.
I just want to know you are happy and safe. I have tried to hate you so I can forget you but I can't. You have hurt me but I would have you back in an instance. Does that make me sad? Probably.
If you want to get in touch that would be great, I am a sucker for you. I miss you.
If not…maybe I'll get a proper Valentines next year!