"Keys are the material that open the lock
but at the same time
they are the one who locks it."
Title : Connections
Authoress : Iris petals
Summary: The true hidden feelings of Azuma Yunoki. The key to his inner self. What is friendship, family and friends to him? Is it just a key for his future or more than that.
Genre: Friendship/ Drama
Rating: T
I can't believe i'm thinking about what he said to me. I mean I don't listen to anyone not even him. Although he is the only real friend i consider i have , the one who stays beside me no matter how hard i try to push him away. He is the one who talks when i'm not in the mood to talk, He is the one who make me forget all about my family problems, my carrer problems but man he is annoying. I can't believe he is my best friend for a person like me to befriend Someone like him.
*sigh*
Soon i felt the cold breeze that made my liliac hair flow with them.
'So out of character for me' I chuckled.
I turned around and walked down the stairs.
"AZUMA YUNOKI" that is the name i was given by my Grand mother. She got everything planned for "MY LIFE". This life that i have been living so far was already decided for me even before i was born. She wants me to become a helping hand for my elder brothers, not caring what i want to become.
"Good evening Yunoki sama"
"Good evening" I greeted back smiling. These people respect me for my name, my status, for my attitude but they don't know me, they are all the same shallow people who don't care about what i truly feel. I can't complain about them since they are not related to me. But Grand mother is my own blood, my family and still she don't understand me. However there is Miyabi who understand me because she feels the same as me.
My dream is to become a great flute player. After Grand ma told me that i can't learn piano because my brother has already learnt it i became so attached to my flute that i dreamt of becoming one of the great flute player. I gave up on my dream when she told me that i will be studying business and flute was just a hobby for me that she opted.
'Even my hobby was not selected by me. PATHETIC'
But like a ray of hope in the sea of darkness she came to my life. The girl who is loved by all, she is clumsy, a complete idiot and uncertain over things, yet determined about the things in which she believed. She was determined to tell me the truth about myself she was scared to tell me but still she said. She is the only one who has seen that dark side of mine.
"HINO KAHOKO" that girl really surprise me all the time. She is one of the KEY to my happiness.
I stopped in front of a practice room where Len and Kahoko were sharing some good time. She seems to be happy and so is Len. People belive that because of Kahoko Len changed he became more social however from my pov because of Len Kahoko changed a lot. She has become more refined. They look good togetherHe needs her and so dose she.
I began to walk. Even her small talk about me leaving my dream didn't deflect my decision to follow Grand ma's order, but that guy sure has guts to yell and hit me on the face. However, I am glad he did that, it pulled me back to reality, where i realised that i also have a dream that i wanted to fulfill no matter how much pressure i get from my family. I still got things to do Before i die, so that i won't regret it later.
*chuckles* He hit me on the face.
The words are still fresh. I can't bellieve that lad became so serious all of the sudden.
"KAZUKI HIHARA" The only friend i have (well i consider). He is the first and last person to hit me and i'll make sure of that.
-FLASHBACK-
"What are you doing with your life Azuma?"
"What do you mean by that Kazuki?"
"Don't play dumb with me. You know what i mean" His voice was high and expression furious.
" _ "
"You don't wanna go abroad to study business but music. Remember you told me once that you wanted to rise like the music that you create from your flute. You wanted to play forever. So why are you leaving that, leaving everything behind in order to become your Grandmother's puppet?"
My eyes widened on hearing what he said. He still remembers that. It was at the start of the first year when i said that.
"Why are you killing your dream, throwing away your happiness in order to make others happy?"
"You better stop now Kazuki. You don't have any right to say more than this about my life" I said threatning so that he will stop, because he was saying the truth and i was not in the condition to hear that.
"Why should i stop. You are my bestfriend and i have every single right to say this, every single right to get a sane thought inside your stupid head" I looked at him.
'Did he just called me stupid'
"I have every single right to drag you from the point where you are going to kill yourself, every single right to drag you from the insane path you have choosen"
"You don't know a single thing that's going on, so neither make assumptions nor decisions on your own"
"What did you just say? that i don't know a single thing about what's going on with you" he sounded so frustated. " For your very kind information i know everything that's been happening to you and everything that you are going through. i'm your bestfriend, I have seen you when you are happy, when you are sad. I have seen how happy you became when it rains at the same time i have seen you getting depressed on seeing the same rain. You hide your real self from people and i must say you are really good at that, Decieving people"
I chuckled when i heard the last part.
"I was not joking"
"You said it like I'm a bad guy"
"Can't say that it's negative"
"I know"
"But the main point is no matter how hard you try to lock yourself up from the people around you, there will always be a key to unlock that facade of yours"
"You are totally dreaming kazuki. I mean why are you so serious asuddenly. Me chasing my dream or giving up is none of your concern. You should focus on ehat you want from your life" I turned around and looked at the setting sun. I feel low.
"You don't like sunset so don't look there" he said all concerned.
"Go out from here without thinking much about other people. You got your own life, your own pronlem so deal with them. Thinking about other is useless they are not worth it" I felt his hands on my shoulders and as i turned
i felt a hard impact on my face.
"What the hell Kazuki. Why did you hit me" It was a shocker to me, it was the first time i was hit and that not alone Kazuki, the most cheerful person in Seiso hit me.
As i looked up he seemed to be satisfied.
"That's what you will get if you talk nonsense. You should have listened to yourself you sounded like a complete idiot. You know how strangely good i have felt"
"Everyone does after they hit there so called best friend" i said sarcastically holding my cheek.
"Look! it was just to make you snap back to reality, to make you understand that you are the pilot of your own life, don't let the passengers take the wheel and fly your life's airplane for you and as a co-pilot i have to knock some sense in you" he said prodly giving one of his goofy smile.
At that time looking at him i felt a strange feeling in my heart and gut. It feels warm inside, though it was cold outside. i felt like butterfly fluttering their wings or doing summersalt.
I smiled looking at him.
'Thanks i needed that"
"I'll be happy doing the same if you loose track of yourself" he reached out his hand. I looked at him and at that instant i realised what he truly means to me, what exactly his point is. A really wonderful human being, a wonderful bestfriend i can ever have, he knows me so well, both my dark and and sweet side and yet he didn't say anything about it. He don't know my deepest secret but still knows me so well. I can't believe i let him enter inside the walls i have made.
"What? You know you look really funny. Don't stare at me like that" i reached out for his hand and held it. At this moment you are the KEY Kazuki, that i seriously needed for this lock of emotions and Faith to open.
He pulled me up. "I don't know why but i have a really good feeling about it"
-END OF FLASHBACK-
"What took you so long. There is this super awesome sweet cake shop i have been looking out to go to. So let's hurry up" Kazuki yelled.
KAZUKI HIHARA the person who is dumb at times, moddy with the seasons, single minded but at the same time a true friend and anchor to my fast flowing life.
KEY TO MY PROBLEMS
"I was just thinking what i'm gonna do with you for hitting me earlier" I chuckled.
"Oh! man. Seriously?"
And that's how my life was again back on track.
With key and lock fitting together to open the new door.
Dedicated to : Shadowcast. Christy this fic is dedicated to you for being an awesome partner. Silver collabration fic was awesomely written. Thank you *hugs*
Also HAppy ANniverSarY to all the members of la corda doro group in fb.
Author's note : I'm glad that i'm submitting this story... woohuuu!
*happy dance*
First story of 2012...
btw Happy New year people...
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