"Bella, this needs to be sorted out. I don't know how much longer I can be with you knowing this."
My chest tightened as I looked into those perfectly formed green eyes.
"Edward, you know full well I love you, more than anything else…"
"But you love him too, you said yourself he's always been there when you need him and now this."
"It was only a kiss Edward! It wasn't even my fault he started it and I couldn't-"
"I'm sorry Bella, I think you should be with him, you need to sort out how you feel about him if we're going to work. I'm sorry. I love you." And with that the biggest part of my existence kissed my forehead and walked out of the door. "But I need you…" I whispered at his retreating silhouette.
The world crashed down around me, hot fat tears rolling down my face. My phone buzzed somewhere near by but I didn't surface from my well of self pity to answer it. Hours seemingly passed by as I lay immobilised on the floor. I must have cried myself to sleep as I was awoken some time later by an anxious knocking on the door.
"Bella? Bella please open the door." Jacob, my mind sighed. I dragged myself up and unlocked the door.
"Hey Jake, what's up?" Silence greeted my pathetic attempt at hospitality.
"What happened to you?" Concern was etched in every inch of his face and being. My mind deliberated the cause of my depression momentarily, wondering whether or not to tell the truth or not. I sighed.
"Um…well Edward…" Was all I could manage before another wave of tears paralysed me. However it seemed to be enough to motivate him. Suddenly his large warm arms wrapped around me whispering words of comfort in my ear, steering me towards the kitchen. I was dimly aware that he was asking questions but my loud sobbing was the only answer he received.
After a while I calmed enough to choke out the afternoons events, after which he naturally blamed himself for the break-up. 'Well', I reasoned to myself, 'it is in a way.' but these thoughts did little comfort as I saw my oldest friend beating himself up for my obvious misery.
"Jake, please don't. He's done this so we can try and see if we belong together, at least I think he has…please don't feel responsible."
"Bella, you know I've always loved you and of course I'd do anything to be with you but are you really sure that this is what you want?" My grief stricken mind was swimming. On one hand Edward, the love of my life and reason for being had left me for events beyond my control but insisted that it was for the better of our relationship. On the other was Jacob, the reason for my last two relationships ending, the latter more than the first but he was defiantly a contributor in both, but also one of the biggest parts of my life who I undeniably loved as well as Edward.
"Yes, this is what I want Jake, I think I always have."