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A/N: This story contains the subject of rape and how my own Alice deals with the aftermath. Use good judgment when reading it

"Alice's Secret"

Chapter 1-The Safest Place

Eleven-year-old Alicen Sierra Kimberly Miller ran through the backyard, trying not to be tagged by her friend, Kyle. They had been playing tag now for awhile and Alice hadn't been tagged yet.

As Alice took a right and headed for the Wilsons' backyard, she felt a pair of eyes on her. She stopped short to see Kyle's older brother, Justin, staring at her.

Alice waved, but unfortunately, she stood there too soon and was tagged by Kyle.

"Gotcha!" Kyle said, laughing.

Alice smiled.

"Not for long."

"Alice! Kyle!!" Called Kyle's mother. "Cookies are ready!"

Alice smiled and ran into the house. Mrs. Wilson always made the best peanut butter and chocolate chip cookies.

As she sat down in her usual spot, she fingered her charm necklace that the Queen had given her lovingly. She was going to her second home in a little while. She loved Wonderland so much. She especially liked hanging out with the Tweedles, Hatter and Rabbit of course. But the Queen was the best.

The young girl loved her mother very much.

Alice had started calling the Queen 'Mommy ever since she was five until she was ten. After her tenth birthday, she started calling her 'Mom. She still called her You're Majesty from time to time, but she mostly called her Mom now.

Alice's biological father had walked out on her when her little sister, Samantha, Sammie, was born back when Alice was four.

It was shortly after that when her mother brought home a new boyfriend. His name was Greg, but he didn't like the girls very much. He showed it by hitting Alice every chance he got.

Finally, her grandmother gained custody of both girls after their mother and Greg abandoned them when Sammie was two and Alice was six-years-old.

Despite their new and more stable life with their grandmother, Alice found herself spending more and more time in Wonderland.

It was during one of these trips when she told the Queen what had happened and begged her Majesty to let her stay there permanently.

After hearing what her daughter was going through, the Queen took matters into her own hands and did what was necessary to adopt the child.

After the Queen had succeeded, Alice's life was stable and happy once again.

She lived in Wonderland permanently when she was six and a half until now, but she always went back to visit her grandmother and sister from time to time. This was one of those times.

Even though she had fun when she visited, she enjoyed going back home as well.

As Alice's mind momentarily floated to when she was younger, she giggled softly, remembering when she was younger and the Queen used to send her to time out when she got a little hyper. She didn't do that anymore of course since Alice had gotten older.

But the Queen still sent her to her room to cool off if she got a little moody, but that was usually only when it was Alice's time of the month.

As Alice bit into the cookie, Kyle spoke up, breaking her out of her thoughts.

"The new "Harry Potter" Movie came out last night. How about we go see it tonight? Sound like fun, Alice?"

Alice smiled.

"Sure. I think Ron's kind of cute." She was going to be staying at her grandmother's until the next day. Little did she know how soon she would be returning to her true home…

Kyle groaned.

Alice giggled.

"I saw you looking at Hermione." She said teasingly.

Kyle playfully hit Alice in the shoulder.

"Can I Go, Mom?" Kyle asked as he turned to his mother.

Mrs. Wilson nodded.

"Sure. But the only thing is, I have a meeting tonight. Who would drive you?"

"I'll do it," Justin said, coming into the room. He flashed Alice a smile.

"Are you sure?" Mrs. Wilson asked. She was taken aback by her eldest son's eagerness. He had never been eager to drive his little brother and his friends anywhere before. In fact, Justin had always tried to avoid that job at all costs. What had changed now?

"I'm positive," Justin said. "I wanted to see that movie too. I'll even pay for them."

Mrs. Wilson nodded, even though she felt a little uneasy by her eldest son's gesture. He was nice on occasion, but he never paid for anyone's ticket at the movies before.

"Thanks," Alice said.

Justin flashed her another smile.

"No problem." He then patted her shoulder as he passed her chair and went upstairs to change

Two hours later, Alice and Kyle were sitting in the back seat of Justin's car, heading for the theatre and another trip to Hogwarts via the movie screen. Alice couldn't wait. She loved "Harry Potter" And she really had wanted to see the fourth movie so badly. She had all the books and had even gotten

Dee to read a few of them. He was on number three.

As they pulled up to the movie theatre, the car started to make a weird sound. It was like it was going to stall. Sure enough, a few minutes later, the car stalled out, but then started up again.

"Phew!" Kyle said. "I didn't want to miss the movie."

Alice nodded.

Justin smiled.

"Hey Kyle, why don't you go and get us seats and Alice and I will get the snacks. I know the line is pretty long."

Kyle looked to Alice and she nodded. She understood how long the lines were and she needed to get her jacket from the back seat anyway.

"Go on," Alice said. "It's okay."

Kyle nodded.

As Alice watched Kyle enter the theater, she started getting a bad feeling in the pit of her stomach, but she couldn't place where it was coming from.

Five minutes of silence passed before Alice started for the door.

"Well, I guess we should head in," she said. "Kyle probably found us good seats by now. Come on!" She was trying to sound cheerful, despite how nervous she was starting to feel.

"I don't think so," Justin said, his eyes landing on Alice and never leaving her face. "I've been waiting all week for this and I'm finally going to get what I want."

"Justin, what are you-" Alice started to ask, but was interrupted as she felt Justin pin her down and slap her once across her face.

"Shut up!" He ordered. "If you cooperate, it will be painless."

Alice tried not to cry out, but it was hard. Justin was hurting her and he wouldn't stop, no matter how many times she pleaded with him. Her pleas fell on deaf ears.

"No! No! Please stop!! You're hurting me! Please stop! No!! Justin, please!! No!!!"

Finally after an agonizing twenty minutes, Justin got bored. He slapped Alice's face as he saw her crying.

"Don't you dare tell anyone, you hear me?"

Alice nodded.

Justin then pulled the young girl in a sitting position and then opened her door. He pulled her out and led her into the theatre. They walked into the movie and Alice took a seat next to Kyle.

"What took you guys so long?" Kyle asked. He then touched Alice's arm and she started. "Alice, where's your jacket?"

Alice shook her head as she tried to concentrate on the movie, but it was hard. The night had been ruined and she wasn't very interested in the story anymore. What she really wanted to do was go home. Home to Wonderland. She didn't want to face her Grandmother and her sister right now. She just wanted her mother. She also wanted to sleep and forget everything that had just happened.

As the movie continued, Alice started feeling sick. She jumped up and ran for the bathroom.

When she got there, she brought up the contents of her stomach and didn't stop for five minutes.

"Alice?" Kyle asked. "Are you okay?"

Alice could only whimper in response. She was sore and her stomach was churning a mile a minute.

She sat there shaking for at least twenty-minutes with her eyes closed. She just wanted to be left alone. She was scared, but most of all, she felt ashamed. Why hadn't she fought harder? Why hadn't she pushed him off her?

After what seemed like forever, Alice got up, washed her face and forced herself to look normal. She walked out of the bathroom and met Kyle.

"I think you need to go home," Kyle said. "We can see the movie another time."

Alice nodded.

Kyle put his arm around Alice to guide her to the car, but Alice jerked away.

"Are you okay?" Kyle asked.

Alice shook her head.

Kyle gave her a questioning glance, but Alice just wiped a few tears away from her bluish green eyes and walked ahead of him.

It seemed like an eternity, but Alice finally got dropped off.

When she entered her Grandmother, Gran's house, she went straight up to her room. She didn't want to answer any questions or explain herself to anyone. But her seven-year-old sister, Samantha, was two steps ahead of her.

Alice opened her bedroom door to find her little sister sleeping on her bed.

Despite how bad she was feeling, Alice smiled at the sight. Samantha was truly cute. She gave Sammie a kiss and then laid down herself. She needed some good sleep.

But as Alice lay there, staring at the ceiling, she knew she wouldn't be able to sleep. She had a thousand images blurring her minds eyes and they weren't at all pleasant.

Alice heaved a sigh as more tears threatened to fall. She looked at her clock and realized that it was past nine.

The Queen would be getting ready for bed by now, but Alice had no choice. She had to get some sleep tonight. And if she couldn't do it at her grandmother's house, she would do it in the only other place she truly felt safe. And that happened to be Wonderland.

Alice put a fleece on after changing into her pj's and stepped over to her mirror. She stepped through it and made her way to the palace…