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hoc ira ineluctabilis
(this inescapable wrath)
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For all of my life I've endured the inescapable madness of her. Is she real? Is she a part of my overactive imagination? I never knew until now. I push the large drawer back into my chest, overwhelmed by the images she has shown me. Sitting on this cold floor, in this strange man's house, on this unknown world, I can only reminisce.
From as long as I can remember, she's been with me. She has forced my hands into doing all sorts of acts, whether it be drawing odd pictures of horned creatures or attempting to slice my own flesh. All I can truly recall clearly besides the faces of my family and her is the feeling of confusion. At that time, I didn't know what to do. To be honest, I still don't.
Then I was diagnosed. Men and women asking questions, testing me, prodding me, all in order to find out my apparent issues.
"I'm telling you Mom! It wasn't me, it was her!" Sad, sad eyes and a tear.
If only they could see for themselves, maybe they would have listened. But they didn't. So the relocation happened. A blur of travel in a pod full of other disturbed children as it soared towards a new planet fit for us. Fit for us, in their opinion. I can't lie though. Despite the unfavorable circumstances that brought me there, it became my home.
So that's why when it was annihilated in a red flash before my eyes, I couldn't keep my tears from escaping. The only constant in my life besides her endless, scathing comments was gone.
Maggie, help, wrench, her, Odin, plants, fear, blue, contentment, pain. Pink, orange, blood, pactpactpact, TITAN, teeth, yellow, heat, fullness. HEATHEATHEAT, rebirth. All of these thoughts had crossed through my mind in the span of less than one hour.
And now here I am, throwing up lava in a blue man's bathroom. An unnaturally nice, handsome blue man. Reading intricate plans and feeling lava beneath my skin. But I think of the rewards of this and harden my resolve.
Even if it means selling my soul to this Wrathia Belarmina, I will do whatever it takes to get my new life.
My first Ava's Demon fanfic! I like doing POVs, so that exactly what this is really up to her last appearance in the comic. Hope you enjoyed, so please leave some feedback. :)