Part One
I
so don't own Digimon…. If I did there'd be no Sora (eww) and Taito
and Daikeru would be OFFICAL!
Oh yeah this is my
FIRST fic... so be kind I'm losing my writing virginity…
I'm using the dub
names as nicknames.
Warning Daikeru
(duh), and maybe a smidge of Taito (if I were Tai I'd do Yama-kun he is so hot…
did I say that?)!
Takeru's POV
Everyone expects me to be happy and positive all the time. They
think that I have it all, cool older brother, popular, lots of friends. After
all I'm the child of Hope, what could possibly go wrong in my life? Oh I'm not
saying my life sucks or anything… it's just… I don't know how to say it… I'm
supposed to be in love with Hikari but the thought of kissing her totally
grosses me out! Now Daisuke or Koushiro? I'd be ok with that.
Yes,
I,
Takaishi Takeru, am gay. I
think maybe it's a family trait… I mean if not what are the odds that two
brothers are gay if it isn't genetic…
Oh
well, it's not like I can tell the person I love that I love them. That'll go over
real well. I always fall for the straight ones, ya know? I mean first I fell
for Koushiro-senpai, that was during the second time we went into the Digital
world. He was just so smart and helpful…. Sigh… Wait back on topic… Well it
took me a while to realize that was just a little crush…
I'm
older now, 17, and know what true love is. Well, the unrequited kind. I am in
love with Daisuke. Strange, ne? I'm more like my brother than people
think. No one would have ever thought
I'd love a big baka like him.
Only
a couple people know that I'm gay. I told Yama when I first figured it out. I
was scared out of my mind. Who better to talk to than your gay older brother,
especially one as awesome as mine?!? Then Okassan,
she didn't freak like I thought she would. Then Hikari-chan . I think that was
the one that scared me the most! I, what, if she had bought into that whole
"destined" for each other crap? She was my best friend and like a sister to me!
I didn't want to lose her friendship. So one day I asked her to go into the
digital world with me
Flashback
"'Kari, there's
something I need to tell you. Please don't be mad at me or anything, or look at
me differently ok?" I asked her.
She started shifting around on the
ground and not looking at me. Oh god, I thought, she's going to hate me and
never speak to me again.
"Anything, Tk, you
know that I'm your best friend." She said friend with emphasis. I looked
at her strangely then it hit me like a ton of bricks. I started laughing I
couldn't help it.
"OH MY GOD! You
think I'm going to tell you that I'm in love with you or something!!"
" You aren't?"
"God NO! Just the
opposite! I love you but like a sister!!"
"Then what did you
want to talk about?"
" Kari, you're my
best friend right? So If I had realized something totally important about
myself you are the first person I'd tell right?"
"After Matt, of
course."
"I'm gay."
She just sat there and stared at me
for like five minutes. Then I started shifting around uncomfortably. She
hates me! I knew it.
"Takeru, that's
great! I'm glad you finally admitted to yourself."
End
Flashback
Well,
that was a couple months ago. My life has steadily gotten worse. I can't talk
to Hikari about it. I mean, she doesn't know what I'm going through; she isn't
guy or even gay. AND she's going out with my first crush. What am I supposed to
say? "Kari-chan, I figured out I was gay when Koushiro, your boyfriend, was
helping us in the digital world. Yama-kun? Who is totally comfortable talking
about sex related things with their brothers? Not me for one.
I
guess I've been acting kinda odd lately. Hikari is always looking at me with a
worried expression. Yamato pulled me off yesterday and flat out asked what was
wrong. He wouldn't understand. Yes, he's gay, but he has been with Taichi since
they were like 13. They never went through wondering if the one they loved
would or even could love them the way they wanted.
I've
started to put my "happy" mask back on. Takeru, TK, the bearer of the Crest of
Hope, DEPRESSED!? Never! That is an oxymoron! Everyone has his or her mask.
That's how they deal with life. Mine hasn't been working lately.
AN: Have you any
clue how hard this is? The only thing that Takeru and I have in common, other
than that Daisuke and Koushiro are cute, is the mild depression thing? Oh well
please don't flame me! Fragile Ego Alert!! Constructive Criticism Welcomed!
