Woeful Hearts.
Discription: Thrown together to organize a fundraiser for their failing private school and bonded by loneliness, Axel; a middle school teacher, and Roxas; a failing high school student begin an affair that at first thrills, then corrupts each of them. But what Roxas does not realize is that their relationship is, for Axel, only the latest in a lifetime of disturbing secrets. Rated M. MxM content
Disclaimer: I do not own any kingdom hearts nor final fantasy characters. all that credit goes to square enix and disney. everything else in mine though. enjoy:D
Chapter One: Memories.
I remember those snowy days back when I lived in Germany. My father was a military man, and we moved quite often. From the ages of five to eleven a military base in Ansbach, Germany was my home. I loved the pitch-white that would surround me during the winter months. I felt as if I was in a winter-wonder-land that could only be seen in movies. At times, the snow went well above my knees, and my pants would be soaked from having to trudge to my bus stop, but I really didn't mind it. I loved the snow, and the icy-cold chills that it gave me until I was frozen to the bone.
Another thing I remember was this girl I had made friends with in first grade. Her name was Namine, and she was just the sweetest little girl I had ever got to meet, but I never went over her house unless I was after one thing; her older brother, Cloud.
Cloud was 13 when I first met him. His eyes were a dazzling blue, and he always had the comforting scent of chocolate, that made me smile whenever he hugged me. Cloud and I spent a lot of time together, and he told me often that I was similar to a little brother that he had never gotten. Usually that line upset Namine, but it was all very good-natured. Or at least, that's what he told her.
One of my fondest memories is one of the days that Cloud offered to take me out on sledding while everyone else was at church. I had always wanted to sled down one of the pure white hills that conveniently surrounded my home, but I was always too scared to go alone, so when Cloud offered to take me; let's just say I was more than willing to go with him.
I was 9 or maybe 10 at the time, and Cloud was probably 17 or 18, but unlike all the other older boys, he had always been very sweet towards me. At near nine in the morning, once his parents had driven off with Namine for church, Cloud and I headed straight for the shed. Since Cloud was much larger and masculine than I was, he carried the sled (or more like the lid to a trashcan) all the way to the snowy hill that was around 3 or 4 blocks from his home.
"Du gehst zuerst." He said, which meant, "you go first." And he set our makeshift sled at the top of the slope. I was what most kids at that age called a 'scaredy cat' and there was no way I was going to go down that hill all alone. I think Cloud noted my hesitation, and he smiled sympathetically.
"Sitzen." He demanded, and I did as told, placing myself at the near front of the plastic sled. Somehow, Cloud managed to squeeze himself in behind me; legs stretching around my body, and arms going around me securely. I was surprised, but very, very happy and grateful. Our first go down the hill was exhilarating, and I laughed along with Cloud. We went down several more times, even though one of those times weren't very successful and we slung off; me toppling down first, then Cloud landing half-way on top of me. Even after that mishap though, we went again and again until there was hardly thirty minutes until church would end, and we were both extremely tired from having so much fun, and carrying the sled back up the hill so many times.
By the time we began to head back to Cloud's house, my pants were completely soaked, and my teeth were chattering like mad. I'm assuming Cloud noticed, because once we had the sled up, and were back in his kitchen, he looked me over once before saying, "Lassen Sie Ihre Hose, Axel. Deine Zähne sind wie verrückt klapperten." Which meant something on the lines of 'take of your pants; I can see how cold you are by just looking at you.'
At first, I hesitated. I didn't want to embarrass myself, nor did I want Cloud to see me in my tidey-whities, but the look he gave me told me that I really didn't have much of a choice. I fumbled with my belt, but once that was gone, my pants slid right off my girl-like hips. Cloud chuckled as I handed him my soaked khakis, and he hung them up by the heated stove-top, which was currently heating some tea.
Cloud began rummaging in the cabinet, until he pulled out a jar that was made to look like Santa Clause. He put the jar on the table in front of me and pulled out a German home-made cookie called a Pfeffernusse. The taste gave my tongue a slight tingling sensation from all the spices, and the honey just sent off bursts of flavors in my mouth. I loved pfeffernusse cookies, but I had no idea how to make them, and Cloud's mom always made them the best.
Both of us snacked of the sweet treat, and after we had two each, Cloud put Santa's head back on and stashed the cookies back into the pantry where he had found them. He turned back to me and placed a slim finger to his powder-covered slips, indicating for me to be quiet about sneaking the cookies before dinner. The smile he wore made me laugh a little, but I nodded, and he smiled, removed his finger, and licked his lips clean of the rest of the powder.
It wasn't long after our little sneaky snack-time that his family came home and my pants were completely dry by then, so it didn't look weird when his family came in and saw me half naked in their kitchen. At around one in the afternoon, Cloud's mom took me back to my home, where I spent the rest of my day watching the snow fall and add a few more inches to the white terrain, and thinking about that yummy spice-and-honey flavored cookie from before.
The winter months passed, and at the end of spring, when the snow had almost completely vanished, I decided to take a trip to where Cloud and I had taken our sled-ride not too long ago. I was completely baffled when I came upon a cemetery. The grave stones must've been completely buried, because they definitely weren't visible before this. I thought about how we were having so much fun, when people were dead underneath us, but the more I thought about it, the happier I became. Yes, the people were dead, but I doubt that meant they didn't want us to have fun. I figured they enjoyed how happy and giggly and excited Cloud and I were on that hill. Maybe they were happy that we were happy and living on even though they were no longer here.
A hand gently landed on my shoulder and I looked up to see Cloud with a content smile on his thin pink lips. "Lassen Sie mich leben durch dich, Wolke. Das ist, was mein Großvater erzählte mir ein paar Tage bevor er starb. Thats, warum ich wählte hier mit Ihnen. Ich wusste, du würdest es nur so viel wie er, Axel hatte zu genießen." That was the last time Cloud spoke to me before he headed off for university, and I'll never forget the way he said it to me. Even now, as a 30-year-old adult I think about Cloud, and that day; because that day was the day I found out what true admiration was, and that is very hard to come by. In fact, I doubted for a long time I'd ever feel that way again, but my mind has been changed, and it all started with the annual school fund-raiser. But, I'll save that for later.
Translations:
Lassen Sie mich leben durch dich, Wolke. Das ist, was mein Großvater erzählte mir ein paar Tage bevor er starb. Thats, warum ich wählte hier mit Ihnen. Ich wusste, du würdest es nur so viel wie er, Axel hatte zu genießen - Let me live on through you, cloud. Thats what my grandfather told me a few days before he passed. Thats why I chose here, with you. I knew you would enjoy it just as much as he had, Axel.
Sitzen - Sit.
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